Disclamior: I don't own Yu Yu Hakusho ( Cause if I did I assure you Botan and Kurama would be together and I'll be filty rich )
Chapter 1
She slips silently into her dark room. Closing the door gently behind her, she leaned her back against the wooden door, bracing herself. The back of her head hit the door gently; she then sulked toward the bed in the middle of her room. Once there she threw herself on it as she silently wept, clutching her white sheets as if it was her only lifeline, her temporary haven away from the intense pain that was piercing her chest.
The only thing that came to her mind was a simple why? Why does it have to end up like this? She had finally found happiness again, a safe haven where she avoided the pain, the tears and the sorrow. Only to hear news that caused her life to quickly shattered and force her to be in tears again. A faint knock echoed throughout her room. She lifted her head and let out a shaky " Come in. " A dark silhouette was seen opening the door. Moving toward the crying female, he sat down next to her. She shifted her body so she was looking into the guest's intense emerald eyes. On his beautiful face was a small reassuring smile, laced with worry and pure concern.
She just couldn't take it anymore; she sat up and hugged him. Her arms wrapped around his waist. " I can't deal with this anymore, Kurama-kun. " She shook her head as she let out another sob, clutching his white shirt. She tried she really tried to always have a smile on her face, never wanting anyone to worry on her behalf. But after hearing that heartbreaking news, all she wanted was to cry, let her sorrow flow out along with her hot tears. " Shhh don't worry Botan-san, I'm here. " Kurama stroked Botan's back, reassuring her silently as he held onto her. His eyes filled with pity for the tear-streaked deity. He himself didn't know what was wrong with her, all he really knew was that Koenma called at least 10 minutes ago to come and comfort this deity at her moment of weakness. " Why are you here. " Her voice was just a mere whisper, compared to her usual lovely and cheerful voice. Lifting her head she looked into his calm eyes. An ocean of green stared back at her, a small reassuring smile graced his face. Shaking her head, " Never mind Kurama-kun. " " Botan I'm here because I worry about you. I thought you'd know that by now. " He replied tenderly as he wipe away her tears. " And I'll always be here when you need me...no matter what. " " Thank you Kurama-kun. " Botan forced away a sob, but tears started to fall from her eyes again. Kurama looked at her, it pained him to see her like this, and he doesn't even know what to do to comfort her.
" you tell me what's wrong. It'll probably make you feel better if you just get it out in the open," He question softly, stroking her back. A simple gesture, meaning to tell her that he has there and willing to listen.
" N-no, I'm sorry Kurama-kun, b-but I can't! It's just too p-painful! " Botan broke down again, her sobs being muffled by Kurama's shirt again as she clutched tightly.
Memories flashed through her mind as her beautiful face began to be marred by her tears. Those memories. They are just simple recollections, mere shadows of her former self. These are moments in her life when she could found herself having to forcing a smile upon her face. Where a simple phrase or just time with a few of her love ones could bring a true smile on her lovely angelic face. When she was so young and act carefree, never allowing fear or sadness to stain her eyes, that is until that exact moment in her life where things would get out of hand so simple.
" Alright Botan-san. I'll wait until you're ready. " Kurama whispered gently as he held on to her. Like a brother would do for his sister, or a boyfriend would do for his girlfriend. The latter lingered in Kurama's mind for a moment, before he shook that thought away. How could he possibly think of her that way? Could he? I mean this is Botan where talking about here. Anyway there isn't time for this; this isn't the Botan he knew. The Botan he knew wasn't so vulnerable, and always had a sweet smile on her face.
This Botan seems so laden with guilt and sadness, so mysterious...so heartbroken. But there was something about her being this way that drawn him to her. Attracting him to her like moths to a flame. And he doesn't know why.
He's been musing for at least a good 5 minutes before Botan shifted somewhat in her sleep. That was then that he noticed that the poor deity was asleep. Sighing he lifted her up and place her on her soft feathery pillow. A soft smiled lingered on his face as he watched her sleep, her angelic face calmed down but there were still tears that still glistened on her slumbering face. Wiping away what's left of the tears he reached down and kissed her tenderly on her forehead. Then he turned and walked toward the door.
He wanted answers...and he knew just where to get them too.