11th September 2008
I don't know why I agreed to move to Forks for a while, I must have had a mad moment. The awkward talks with Charlie, the weather and the fact that I don't know anyone. I just wish I was at my old school being the loner that I always have been.
My Dads lived in the same house for the past 18 years and I still have my baby cot in my room, as my Dad hasn't had the guts to throw it out.
I know my Dad hasn't got over my Mum, there's still pictures of us all together smiling like a happy family, something that we haven't been for the past 16 years. I know he gets lonley and wishes he could have someone to talk to, trust me I feel like that sometimes.
I can't believe that Charlie bought me a new car, well I wouldn't really call it new. I've been saving up for one for ages. It belonged to Billy Black who's now in a wheelchair. I remember the times when me and his son Jacob used to make mud pies together while Charlie and Billy used to go on fishing trips.I was young then only about 6.
In a way some part of me is glad that I've moved here for a while. Just to have a change in scenery, and nobody will know me as the quiet, geek who seems to fall over all them time.
But school tommorow is one thing I'm definetley not looking forward to. In this small town everyone knows each other, their parents probably went to school with each other and so did their grandparents, but me, I know no one. I thought I would have Jacob to talk to but he goes to school on the reservation, but I can't always have everything my way.
I just hope that I make a good impression because if I don't I'll never survive the embarassment. Fingers crossed I have a good day tommorow, but knowing my luck I doubt it.