Plot: Rachel and Quinn have been secretly in love for years though Quinn's never worked up the courage to go public with their relationship. When Finn proposes to Rachel, she accepts and though Quinn is heartbroken, she agrees to come to the wedding. On the way to the wedding, she gets into a terrible car accident, effectively putting a stop to the nuptials. When she finally wakes up, Rachel realizes that she doesn't remember who she is or what kind of relationship they had. She breaks it off with Finn and re-introduces herself to Quinn, glad that they can make a fresh start.

Megustin came up with this plot and allowed me to write a story based off of the youtube video she made for Faberry. Here's the link: watch?v=0fOdbvp0QSw&list=FLzyCcc6jloVt5YybkoXsV-A&index=4&feature=plpp_video

Chapter 1

The Proposal

"Why can't you just tell the club Quinn? I mean we've been dating since sophomore year and I've taken every slushie you've had thrown my way, looked the other way when you insulted me in front of others all for our relationship. Why can't we at least come out to the club? They're like family. They're not the whole school so word won't go back to your parents. It's not like the whole school would know and Brittany and Santana are out and no one's doing anything rude or cruel to them. Please Quinn … just the club." Rachel spoke passionately. "Why can't things ever be simple between us? Why can't things be as simple as 'I love you', and nothing more than that?" Rachel asked desperately looking into Quinn's stormy hazel eyes.

Quinn was silent for a moment before she spoke with a calmness that seemed impossible for the tension in the room was thick, "it can't because if my parents ever found out they would kick me out of the house again. I … I can't … I can't lose them again after I just got them back Rachel. You know this as much as I do. I love them and they're all I have. I'll be 18 soon and then what? They're under no obligation anymore after I turn that cornerstone and then … then I'll be a homeless adult, freshly kicked out of my house because I'm gay. I can't play this game with them because they're all I've got. I don't have any aunts or uncles who would be willing to take me in because they all hate me for getting pregnant sophomore year. They all think I'm a sinner and slut for getting pregnant even though it was my first time and I was feeling insecure about my feelings for you. They would never help … in fact they would most likely be happy for my parents and tell them they did a good job by throwing me out like that Rachel! Can't you understand where I'm coming from at all?" Quinn was desperate for Rachel to understand.

Rachel shook her head, "and I've already assured you that my fathers would understand and be more than glad to welcome you into our home so you'll be somewhere safe." Rachel just didn't understand though.

"And I've told you that my family will retaliate in one way or another. I don't want anything to happen to you because of my family because I would feel terrible if they did something horrible to you or your fathers just because you were protecting me. What would make it worse is if they somehow find out that you are the one I love because that would just make them even more motivated to do something to you. I can't … I simply can't let that happen no matter what Rachel … can we please just … stop arguing about this and move on Rachel. I don't want our precious time together spent arguing." Rachel looked like she wanted to say more but she just nodded in agreement. "Thank you." And Quinn gave her a chaste peck on the lips and Rachel accepted but there was still tension surrounding them. "Do you want to watch Funny Girl? It's your favorite." Quinn was desperately trying to dispel the tension that enveloped the room due to the argument they had. She wanted to make the most of their time together instead of being mad at each other for not budging an inch when it came to this issue that they had both been adamant about. Neither wanted to give into the others wish believing that they were both in the right about it.

Rachel still enjoyed the movie despite the, now lessened, tension between them but she didn't enjoy it nearly as much as she normally would have but she was still glad that she was with Quinn despite the mini fight they had. She was still very much in love with Quinn after all. She just wished Quinn would take her magnificent advise and be done with it because there was no way her parents would ever figure out that the blonde was in love with her. Quinn had taken every precaution in the world to make sure of that after all, especially with Santana's help.

Rachel was dating Finn only at the behest of Quinn to make sure it was legitimate in everyone's mind that there was no way Rachel and Quinn were in love with each other and she didn't like having to pretend to want the brainless seeming jock in favor of being with Quinn openly. Unfortunately there was nothing she could do about Quinn's refusal to come out because she wasn't going to force her hand because she loved her too much to do something so underhanded to her. She just wished Quinn would come to the realization that her plan could and would work should the time arise for it.

Currently Rachel was sitting in the auditorium waiting for Finn because he told her he had a surprise for her. She had no idea what it could be but she was sitting there waiting all the same. She was humming to herself when she heard the auditorium door open and she looked over her shoulder to see that Finn had finally arrived. She had received a text earlier from him telling her to go to the auditorium to wait for him and now here he was.

"What is it Finn? I've been sitting here waiting for five minutes now? It sounded urgent the way you worded it." Rachel spoke the moment she recovered from being lost in her thoughts about Quinn even though she was with Finn right now. It was a bad habit of hers, thinking about Quinn whenever she was with Finn and missing her terribly.

"I … well I've wanted to do this for a while Rachel," Finn said as he finally stood in front of her. He knelt down before he asked with slight trepidation, "Rachel Berry … will you marry me?" Rachel sat in shock for a moment before she looked into his eyes and looked at his face. It was full of hope and she thought about what she had been going through with Quinn. The answer was heartrending for her but she had to make it. She had to make Quinn realize what she had been doing for the last three years: she had been losing Rachel slowly because of the arguments. Even though Quinn was her one and only, her true love and the only one who would ever make her feel whole and complete … she couldn't wait for her anymore and here was Finn. Finn may not have been the brightest tool in the tool shed … or the sharpest crayon in the box but … he was a nice guy so that had to count for something.

And so with a heavy heart that she didn't show for one second she said, "Yes. Yes I will marry you Finn Hudson." It felt wrong in so many ways to be in his too long arms right now and holding him when the one she should be saying yes to was Quinn. She wanted this moment to be shared between Quinn and her but what choice did she have right now? The chances of Quinn actually changing her mind were slim to none and so made the only choice that seemed to make any sense even if it hurt her to do so.

Quinn was in the bathroom looking at her reflection in the mirror to fix any flaws she saw on her face or hair when Rachel came in. She had just been thinking about her too so speak of the devil for sure. Quinn had been thinking about how to apologize to Rachel for keeping her from telling anyone in Glee about them and she was thinking about how to tell her that yes she would do the unthinkable and tell everyone in Glee about them when Rachel dropped a bombshell on her. It was like an earthquake had knocked her off of her feet, it was like a tsunami had come and drowned her in seven stories of water, it was like she was being burned by a wildfire … it was the most agonizing feeling she had ever felt in her life.

"Um … Finn asked me to marry him." It was like she couldn't breathe for a moment before she responded.

"But … you can't." Quinn was incredulous. She was heartbroken and before Rachel could see how upset she was she turned away from her, grabbed her bag, and left the Rachel standing in the bathroom alone looking after her.

Everything was silent until Rachel whispered softly to a woman who had already left, "but you don't even know that I said 'yes' to him." But she didn't have to because Quinn could see that she had in fact said yes because of the look on her face when she told her. It was too evident from the look on her face.

They were sitting across from each other but neither of them was speaking a single word. They were in Rachel's house in the dining room and neither of them had said a word to each other since they greeted each other at Rachel's front door. The tension was so thick that it could be cut with a knife. Rachel was looking right at Quinn and Quinn was looking up at Rachel briefly before she looked away. Quinn desperately wanted to tell Rachel what she had been thinking but she couldn't find the words so the tense silence continued on and filled the minutes ticking by with nothing but uncomfortable silence, unbearable silence. Neither of them wanted to be the one to break the silence so they continued to sit in the silence that just seemed to grow heavier with emotions the longer they sat without saying anything to each other.

Just when Quinn was about to say something Rachel spoke up, halting all of Quinn's thoughts of speaking "it's time for you to go now, Quinn. You don't want my fathers to see that you've been here." Rachel walked her to the door.

For just a moment Quinn faltered, feeling tears gathering in her eyes, "is this it? Is this goodbye Rachel?"

Rachel looked away knowing that she couldn't bear to say the words. She couldn't bring herself to say goodbye to the love of her life because though she agreed to marry Finn … she knew her heart would always belong to the blonde standing before her with tears in her eyes. She felt an ache that she had never experienced before in her life and she knew what ache it was … it was heartbreak.

Quinn understood what Rachel's silence meant and being unable to bear with this being their last time together as a couple she pulled Rachel into her arms and held her tightly. They stood like that for several moments before Quinn pulled back and looked into her eyes. "You still love me," it was a statement, "but you're choosing him over me." She leaned forward and gave Rachel a kiss that reminded her of their first kiss: soft, innocent, full of love. It was so reminiscent of the moment she fell in love with Lucy Quinn Fabray and she felt something inside of her break the moment Quinn pulled away. Quinn left without another word and Rachel dropped to her knees and cried for the love she lost. She knew she would never be happy again even if ten years had passed because Finn wasn't the one and he never would be. He was just someone she was settling for.

Quinn cried the entire way back to her house from Rachel but before she left her car she made sure her eyes were dry and that she had her cold mask on. Fabrays didn't talk about their feelings and most certainly didn't let it show when they were sad or upset after all. The moment she walked into her house she was the picture perfect blonde daughter her parents had raised other than her one mistake sophomore year.

Her parents knew that something was wrong with her but as it was the Fabray way they didn't address it and they left her to be alone to get over whatever was wrong with her. Quinn went to her only sanctuary now. Her other sanctuary had been torn down by a single event and shattered into a thousand pieces and burned into nothingness, not even dust was left of her old sanctuary. It was simply gone. Just like that it was as if it never existed in the world. Just gone forever.

She allowed herself to cry it out once she was in the safety of her room. She cried because she had lost the one thing that was most important to her. She cried because she never thought that she could lose someone who was her rock, her love, her entire world in just one moment. She cried because she had never felt so much pain in her entire life, not even when she was giving birth. She cried because her heart ached and it felt like someone had just taken a knife and decided to stab her chest repeatedly until she was crying out like she was now. She cried because she would no longer have the most wonderful person to love and to hold in her arms anymore. She cried because she just lost her entire world in a single moment and she knew she would never get her back ever again because she had been selfish.

So I wanted to actually write the entire video in one chapter but I thought that that would spoil the ending for those who have not watched the video and this way for those who have it isn't a spoiler as to what happens next. For those who watched the video before reading this I hope I did the video justice!^^ Until the next chapter everybody!^^

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