Authors note: The fantastic Stephenie Meyer owns everything, I just butcher it
Leah
I would be trapped like this forever, my body being torn between my two forms, woman and wolf. I had tried everything, yoga, tai-chi, meditation, EVERYTHING! Nothing seemed to be able to extinguish the fire that burned at my core coaxing me to change, to give in.
My heart throbbed with self loathing as I ran through the forest on four legs. I tried pointlessly to outrun the pain, I ran hard, pushing myself until even the impossibly strong muscles of my wolf form ached the slightest bit. Jake had ordered the others to leave me to my thoughts; I both thanked and hated him for this. I hated him because in setting down this request, he was signalling my fellow pack members that I was being "overly sensitive" as my kid brother put it. But at the same time, deep down inside I knew that if they heard my un-filtered thoughts it would only heighten their dislike for me. I knew there true thoughts of me, I would know them even if they tried to hide them from me.
They all cared for me, but they did not understand why I resented this curse they all thought was so great. Well most of them had imprints.
Most of them had already found their other half. I once thought I had found mine. A low sob tore loose from my throat as pain of this thought tore at a corner of my heart.
More importantly though, they were all still able to have children, Sam had assured us of this fact when he told us he and Emily were expecting twins. My mind flickered back to the memory of when I first found out. A low sob tore loose from my throat as the memory of the pain came back to me. The tear on my heart was made worse.
I was still running lost in my thoughts; I suddenly realized I was running towards the familiar loop that encircled the Cullen house. I did not change my course. Almost a year had passed since my guard had been required there, but the forest still felt familiar and I often found myself coming here when I was in a foul mood. I was always careful to keep a good distance from the house itself just in case the mind reading bloodsucker was listening in.
At this thought I let my legs make the loop even larger just for good measure.
It wasn't as if I had tried to have a child, but there was so little hope the idea seemed pointless. Even if I wanted to try, I was alone with no prospect of this status being changed. My cropped hair and hostile attitude were definite turn offs.
Suddenly I caught a sent coming towards me with the wind, leech! Not one of the Cullens, but not new either. Whoever was approaching had been in the clearing when the Italian parasites tried to destroy us. My nose burned as the scent became more intense.
I knew this scent! It was one of those Egyptians. The one that could control of the elements, I remembered his scent because he didn't reek as much as the others. I knew him by scent alone though, I had only ever seen him through the mind of Jacob and at the time his mind was a crazy cloud of stress. Well, I hadn't met him yet and there was no reason to meet him here. He was coming straight towards me, so I quickly darted onto a parallel path about ten feet away. The distance between us grew smaller and smaller as he ran towards the house, and I ran away.
As we passed each other my curiosity got the better of me. Our eyes met, then something inside me snapped.