Sam's thoughts – Tag to Entity
I watched and I waited. I screamed but no one heard me. I begged you but no voice came out and I realized it was no longer my mind that controlled my voice. I heard the demands you made and I prayed that somehow, someway this thing inside of me would listen. I don't want to die! I don't want to lose you! Oh please hear me!
You shot me! You shot me twice! You, who knew better than anyone what two shots would do. But I realized you had no choice. You thought that after the first shot, I would be set free. I saw the hope in your eyes but then it resisted and you had to do what you hated to do, knowing the whole time that you would kill me. I feel the pain you have in your heart but I also feel the guilt. Do not feel guilty, my love! You had no other choice. It was one life or hundreds, thousands – maybe even millions. You did what you have always done – you choose the greater good and that is what you are supposed to do. That is why I love you!
I feel your presence but not close to me. Not in the same room with me for that is nothing but an empty shell. I am no longer there – you must find me I am trying so hard to tell you I am still here – that I haven't died. Don't let them pull the plug! I need you to keep this shell alive so I may be with you once more! I am screaming out to you. Finally, someone sees it- I feel you coming closer and I know that you are trying to still do what is best. But wait! Just wait – I am here!
I have to make you see where I am– through something else – through someone else, I must make you see!
I am Sam, I am here, I have not left you! I am Sam, I am here, I have not left you! I am Sam, I am here, I have not left you! I am Sam, I am here, I have not left you! I am Sam, I am here, I have not left you!
I see you! Your breath finally escapes and you realize you have been holding it for so long. You reach for my hand but pull back at the last minute. I see your eyes and I see the love there. I am alive! Do not allow the guilt of what you had to do to me stop you from loving me even more! I am alive and I do not want to spend the rest of my days without you! I am alive! Thank you my love because of what you did, you saved me! You showed me how much you loved me for you knew that I would never want to be the reason innocent people died. Thank you for loving me so much!