It was hard. Harder than anyone knows. I guess I really fake my emotions well, because they all bought it. Edward believed it, and he's a mind reader! I had them all so certain, I even fooled my pack-brothers.
But deep down inside, I hated Bella Swan. She was all sweet and nice on the outside, acting lovingly towards Jacob. She always seemed so sad whenever she hurt him, but if that were true, she would have let him go ages ago. You can't dangle a guy around and knowingly be hurting him, but feel remorse. People don't work like that.
I think Edward's crazy. He's a vampire, who's been around for a very long time, and he falls for a girl like Bella. I've seen that Tanya chick -from Denali?- and damn. He's got some horrible taste, if he likes Bella instead. If she wasn't a vampire... Yeah, I'd probably go for it.
But then again, all the Cullens love her. They think she's God's gift to vampires or something. Even the pack loves her. Everyone except me anyway. Jacob would kill me if he knew all of this, but I don't have it in me to care. She's vile, she really is. If she disappeared, I'd be the only one not to cry. And I'm really not afraid to admit it anymore. What can they do to me anyway?