"I'd like to dedicate this song to a very important person that I will always love. Edward." I took a deep breath.
"There's nothing I can say to you
Nothing I could ever do to make you see
What you mean to me,"
I had let him down. I had let myself down. I had overlooked all that I was doing. I hadn't truly thought things through. It was stupid to think Edward would always be there, even when I wasn't. I had ignored everything around me for so long just to get where I am. But now I didn't have the one person that I cared most about.
"I know I let you down
But it's not like that now
This time I'll never let you go
I will be,
All that you want
And get myself together
Cause you keep me from falling apart
All my life,
I'll be with you forever
To get you through the day
And make everything okay,"
I would do anything to have him back with me. I had taken his love for granted and hadn't spent anytime with him. I miss him so much.
"I thought that I had everything
I didn't know what life could bring
But now I see, honestly
You're the one thing I got right
The only one I let inside
Now I can't breathe
Cause you're here with me
And if I let you down
I'll turn it all around
Cause I would never let you go,"
It was unexpected. No one saw it coming. Come back to me Edward. I can't keep living like this. I'm so sorry I wasn't there. I could have strengthened our relationship instead of destroying it. I was so caught up in trying to become a singer that I ignored 'us'. I forgot your birthday and forgot anniversaries. However, you remembered each and everyone. You kept giving and all I did was receive. Please come back to me. I'll do anything. I'll be myself again. I'm so sorry. Just don't leave me alone. Don't leave me. Come back.
"Cause without you
I can't breathe
I'm not gonna ever, ever, let you leave
You're all I've got,
You're all I want
Cause without you I don't know what I'd do
I can never, ever live a day without you
Here with me,
Do you see,
You're all I need,"
I'm sorry for not being there for you when you were always there for me. I'm sorry for not getting to say I love you one last time before you left. I'm sorry for everything.
"And I will be, all that you want
And get myself together
Cause you keep me from falling apart
And all my life,
I'll be with you forever
To get you through the day
And make everything okay
I will be, all that you want
And get myself together
Cause you keep me from falling apart
And all my life,
I'll be with you forever
To get you through the day
And make everything okay,"
I walked off the stage with tears finally falling. I hadn't been there when he passed away. I wish I could have seen his eyes one last time. To say I love you. But in the lights out looking the stage stood the most gorgeous angel. He would be my angel forever. Looking out for me even when I didn't deserve it. I shut my eyes letting a soft sob escape. Why did he have to die in that accident.
"I love you Edward"
