Chapter 1 – We've Only Just Begun

Ricky's POV

I was leaving home to go see John and Am…John. I loved Amy. I've loved Amy for a while now, but I don't know if I should tell her. I broke things off with Adrian, but I didn't tell Amy that. I didn't want her to know…at least not yet. All the while I was driving, I thought. I was thinking about many things. I thought about how things with Adrian went down.

(Flashback)

"Ricky, what do you mean that you can't see me anymore? I love you. I really do. I'm sorry if I didn't say I wanted a commitment back then, but I do now. Just please, don't leave me. I love you. I want a commitment." Adrian said with tears rolling down her cheeks.

"I'm sorry. You waited too long. Too long, Adrian. Things will never go back to how they were. I'm not coming back here, I'm not sleeping with you, and I'm not calling you." I said trying to hold back tears. I loved Adrian, but I wasn't going to wait for her forever. I needed stability, and with her I felt like I would never get that.

"Ricky…don't do this to me. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry! What else do you want from me?! I love you!" She said breaking down. "R-Rick-y, please don't leave me." She said on her knees.

"I'm sorry." I said as I walked out her door not looking around. I tried to hold back tears, but I couldn't. I did love that girl. I cried in my car. But not just for her. I cried because I broke up with her to be with Amy.

I thought about my son………….and Amy.

(Flashback)

"Hey buddy." I said as John smiled and laughed. "I love you." I said as I heard Amy in the background. I turned around and saw her smiling.

"He looks just like you." She said as she walked towards us. "He has your eyes." I put John down in his crib.

"He has your character. Kind, caring, loving." I said as I looked her in her eyes. She looked into my eyes, and I went in to kiss her. Our lips touched, but it wasn't a kiss. She pulled away.

"Ricky……I'm with Ben still." She said looking at me like she was a bad person.

"Don't look that way. You didn't do anything wrong. I was the one who tried to kiss you." I said as I ran my fingers through my hair. "Should I go?"

"No." She said. "You can sleep in the chair, or on the couch, or in my…on the floor."

"Ok. I'll sleep in the chair." I said happy that she wanted me to stay.

I finally got to her house when I saw Ben slam the door and walk to his limo. From the way he looked, I could tell they just had a fight. I got out of my car as Ben's limo pulled off. I went and knocked on Amy's door. It took her a while to answer it, but when she did, she looked bad. She looked sad, confused, mad, and stressed all at the same time. I grabbed her and hugged her. She started crying again. I held her tight to me, and she did the same. "It's gonna be ok." I said trying to stop her from crying. She pulled away from the hug.

"I'm sorry. Me and Ben just got into a fight. I…it's all my fault." She said as she wiped her eyes. "I should have never got upset."

"Whatever it was, Amy, it's not your fault." I said trying to comfort her.

"Thanks. I needed to hear that. I really did because I just feel like anything involving you and John just seems to upset Ben. Ben doesn't even look at John when he's around. I just…" She stopped.

"Do you wanna talk about it?" I said looking at her beautiful face.

"Yes. I need to get this off of my mind." She said backing up from the doorway so that I could come in. I took her hand and led her to the couch. She had such soft hands. I loved holding her hand. We sat down on the couch.

"Ricky, I feel like if I never had John, things between me and Ben…" I cut her off.

"Don't regret our son. I'm glad that he's here and I'm glad that I'm a father. You have to remember one thing, Amy. John comes before Ben. John comes before anyone…even me." I said sternly, but kindly.

"I'm sorry. You are so right. I can't believe that I would say something like that. I'm such an idiot." She said as she put her head down.

"Look at me." I said as I gently lifted her head. "You could never be an idiot. Ever. Ben doesn't deserve you. You're too good for him." I said as I looked into her eyes. She looked back into mine. "I should head out." I said getting up.

"No, don't. I just put John to sleep before Ben left, and you came. He might wake up if you leave. Just please….stay here." She said looking at me as if her heart would break if I left.

"Ok." I said. And with that we headed upstairs. I watched her go upstairs, and I followed after her. But that night, if only for one, I didn't sleep in the chair

Chapter 2 - Finding the Truth

Ok, this is the first chapter of many. This is my third fanfic, and I love to hear reviews. Tell me what you think, and be honest. I would like at least 7 reviews before I continue. I want to make this story as good as it can get.

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