*BEEP BEEP BEEP*

Red neon numbers blinded my freshly open eyes as I contemplated hitting the snooze again.

"Roxas, we have to leave in fifteen minutes!"

That was my twin, Sora. He was the perfect twin; always happy and cheerful and friendly and optimistic. I was the lazy twin that didn't give a shit but just went with the flow for simplicities sake.

"Roxas, get your lazy ass up!" That was our older brother, Cloud. I looked a lot like him and acted more like him than I was willing to admit. We looked a lot like our dad, who we haven't seen in over ten years, since our parents divorced . Cloud and I each had bold blue eyes that even Sora had, but it was our gold blonde hair that made us look like Mr. Strife, our dad. Only Cloud took that last name, and more often than not he hardly points it out to people.

"Roxas, we can't be late for our first day of class!" Sora opened our bedroom door and tried to convince me to get up, which always took much too long for Cloud's patience. I remember when our last year of high school started, about a year ago, when Sora asked if he should sleep on the couch so I could have the room to myself. He really is the perfect twin. He even thought I was being sincere when I told him that the idea was absurd, but I mainly objected because I knew if I didn't hear him get up, I never would.

"That's it, sleepy-time over." Cloud ripped off my blankets and started to pull on my ankles.

"Leave me alone!" I hollered, smashing my pillow over the back of my head.

"Roxas you have to leave in ten! Get up and get going." Cloud sighed and left, never one to say more than what was needed.

"Come on Roxas, I can't wait!" Sora bounced with enthusiasm as I stood up, in my zombie-like state, trying to keep my balance.

"I'll be out soon." I stepped into the bathroom to shower quickly, changed into my khaki's and black tee along with my also khaki vest, and slipped into my shoes while Sora started the car.

I was the older twin by thirteen minutes, but I always let Sora drive. Mainly because, I just didn't care to. See, we only saw our mom on big holiday's, like Christmas, New Years, and Thanksgiving. Not even on our birthdays, which used to make Sora cry when we were little. It all started on my tenth Christmas, when she told us how her business position meant more traveling, more money, and practically no time for us. Sora cried, Cloud yelled at her, and I just sat there till I was too tired to listen to them argue, and I went to my room to play video games. How else was I supposed to react? Sora's sobbing at her to not leave us, Cloud's blaming her for his problems, and she's just trying to keep her kids from hating her. But I couldn't hate her. I saved all that for my dad. He's the one who left us, who made us move to a whole new town, and who made me want to forget everything about my childhood. He's the one who made my life shitty enough to live without caring.

For the most part, it was mainly the three of us trying to survive and I think that explains all of our personalities. For example, Cloud is really controlling and bitchy, but he has to be or else nothing would ever get done and our lives would be hell. If Cloud wasn't yelling at Sora and I to get our chores done and do homework, I don't know how long we would have lasted. If it was up to me, we'd never go grocery shopping because I hate the long lines and peppy cashiers, so we'd all starve to death. If it was up to Sora, we'd all be obese on cookies and sweets and soda.

Sora's always been the outgoing one in the family that keeps us all together with his smiles and positive attitude. As for me, I contribute by not arguing…not usually. I fight with Cloud because he bitches way too much, but for the most part I just do what I'm told when I'm told so I can move on with my life and go back to my room to play video games.

"You excited?" Sora asked me, clearly answering his own question with a 'yes' due to all of his enthusiasm. I sighed while daydreaming out the window.

"Not really."

"But Roxas, it's our first day of college! We're officially college students!" Sora's smile beamed and I couldn't help but smile along. I swear he's the reason I'm still sane. As annoying as his perkiness can be and often is, in the end, it saves me from true loneliness. We're really close, even for twins, and a lot of times people get the wrong idea about us. I blame Sora. He's the one who holds my hand or gives me long hugs or even kisses me on the cheek, all in public. I yell at him to cut it out because it sends the wrong message, but he tells me that it's because he loves me and because I'm the only one there for him. When I hear that, I can't argue. All I can do is smile and apologize and let him hold my hand. I'll show emotions around him, but only because I can't help but smile when he does.

Since we never see our mom and our dad is a deadbeat, Cloud is forced to work to make sure we have everything we need now that Sora and I are in college. We hardly see him since he always works at night. He leaves right after dinner, goes to work, comes home in the morning, and sleeps till he leaves. Sometimes he even stays at his boyfriends house and we go longer without seeing him, not like I have a problem with that, but I can tell that it bugs Sora since he already feels abandoned by our parents. I don't mind though, since I like Cloud's boyfriend. He's tall, strong, attractive, and he's always really nice to me as if to buy my approval for his relationship with Cloud.

I remember when Cloud first got his job, he wouldn't tell Sora or me where he worked, and for the life of us we couldn't figure it out. He would even assign us last minute chores at night so we wouldn't have time to follow him. Then one day I found his boyfriend, Leon, at the grocery store and I made it seem like I accidentally forgot the name of the place he worked and Leon actually told me that Cloud worked at a night bar not too far from our house. When Cloud found out I knew, which was no coincidence that that was also the day I told Sora, he lectured us long and hard. We couldn't figure out why he was so adamant that we didn't know, until he accidentally revealed that it was not just a night bar, but a gay night bar. Sora and I couldn't stop laughing and this only made him more upset. I mean, even he knew that we knew he had a boyfriend because they were always together. But when he was fed up with our laughter and demanded an explanation, Sora and I looked at each other, then to him, and said,

"We're gay too!"

And no, not for each other. Cloud just shook his head in his disbelief on how he didn't notice, but Sora and I were still grounded for finding out the truth. Cause that's how Cloud is; authoritative, controlling, and bitchy. But at the same time, I know I need it.

"I can't believe we're actually here on our first day! It's so exciting! I hope I meet lots of new people!" Sora flashed his white teeth in his smile that everyone always found so priceless. Girls think he's the most adorable thing to walk the planet, gay guys want to date him, and straight guys want him around as a chick magnet.

"Yeah, should be exciting," I exhaled, grabbing my backpack and slamming the car door as we made our way to our first class; debating and speech giving. Seriously, I don't know how I'm in that class. It's supposed to be for second or third year students majoring in politics or something like that, but Sora signed up for it and since he signed me up for my classes, naturally we'd have our first one together.

"Where should we sit?" Sora asked when we walked into the huge lecture room with a stage and seats facing it like a movie theatre. There were about thirty students already sitting down and the professor was writing on the giant chalk board, so I waited for Sora to pick a seat before I just sat down next to him.

"Is this ok?" Sora asked me and I don't know why he still does. I hardly ever have an opinion, and when I do, I never see a need to share it. I saw Cloud and Sora yell and cry enough over not having our parents around and that didn't change shit, so why should it work now?

"Works for me." I grunted, and plopping in my chair, hoping that the next hour and ten minutes would breeze by.

"Psst!" Sora hissed to get my attention and I lazily swung my head to face him at my side.

"What?"

"Some guy's been staring at you since we walked in." Sora said and I rolled my eyes. We got in two minutes ago and he makes it seem like it's been hours.

"Ok." I shrugged him off until I realized who it was that was glaring at me. I had never seen him before, but man was I willing to change that. He had the most gorgeous face, beautiful green eyes that slanted in an almond shape, and intense red hair that dramatically spiked out. He was an eye stopper at the least and he was staring at me. Quickly I turned to Sora.

"Is anything stuck on my face?" I could feel myself blushing, which I wasn't too used to.

"No you look just fine." Sora kissed my cheek and I turned bright red looking back to the hot redhead who smirked at me.

"Sora!" I murmured angrily, for once feeling like I had emotions worth expressing.

"Hehehe, oh yeah, sorry!" Sora giggled and when I looked back at the sexy figure sitting straight across from me from the side seats Sora chose, I froze. He was grinning and for two long seconds of my life, he winked and I lost my breath for a brief moment.

"You ok?" Sora asked when I refused to take my eyes off of his.

"Hm? Oh yeah." I blinked his face away as I turned my attention to the professor who began introducing himself.

"He's kind of cute," Sora whispered at me and I nodded along, keeping my eyes on the board and jotting down the professor's email, trying to keep myself distracted.

The next hour passed by as slowly as digging through a syllabus could be, but when the professor released us twenty minutes early, I couldn't help but finally grant my eyes the pleasure to peak back to the redhead's seat, which I unknowingly frowned when I saw it was empty.

He must have made a quick dash to another class, and with a weird feeling of emptiness, I followed Sora into the hall.

"Ok, next is sociology. That sounds like fun!" Sora looked up from his piece of paper and I rolled my eyes. Of course it sounded like fun to him, he's the epitome of social, he should teach the class.

That was our last class and we went home to see that Cloud had already left for work, which made me realize that I didn't have to deal with him reading us our rights of studying and doing homework and stuff. Sora on the other hand complained about how empty the house felt.

"Well there are three bedrooms and two people who actually live here." I said looking to him across the small square table we had.

"Do you think we'll see him tomorrow?" Sora poked his mashed potatoes with his fork.

"I dunno," I shoveled some into my mouth.

"I hate how quiet it is." Sora pouted, leaning his cheek against his palm, leaving a plump cheek to redden.

"I'm getting used to it." I shrugged. We never really noticed the large empty echoing space since high school was an all day thing, but now we were stuck in the endless silence of our lack of company.

"I'm bored." Sora said, and I could tell that he was just lonely.

"Let's do something."

"Like what?" He got his energy back.

"What do you want to do?" I picked up our plates and placed them in the sink.

"Hmm, let's play video games!" Sora raced to turn on the tv, knowing I wouldn't object.

After we spent three hours playing his favorite video game of some kid saving the universe of the evils of darkness, I sighed and tossed down my controller.

"I'm tired. Plus we have homework."

"Yuck! Who gives homework on the first day of school?" Sora had a point.

"College?" I shrugged and Sora sighed, hating the responsibilities of the mundane.

Author's Note: So here's the first chapter of my story, I hope that you continue to follow along and review and if you want, I'm doing this thing where I am answering ANY questions you might have about me. So you can ask things like, "whats your most embarrassing moment, whats your idea of the perfect date, dumbest thing you've ever done, something you regret, questions that ask, "whats your favorite…" So yeah, please, go ahead, be creative, no limits ^_^

Going to post an Akuroku one shot VERY soon, so watch out for my new story "Untie Me". Yes, it will be rated M, yes it is a lemon, just look at the title ;)

To boxthissideup (From butterflies) : YAY! I'm so ready for your questions! Lol. Awww, thanks for liking the ending. Glad you thought it was cute ^_^

To 18plusforme (Also from Butterflies) : Hahaha, ummmm….thanks that my stupidity is cute? O.o hehehe. Yeah I can picture both Roxas and Zexion topping, so I'll have to write lemons in that story and maybe switch it up? We'll see lol. Awww, thank you! I hate ending stories, but I hope that they're good enough to make you want more ;) YAY I cant wait to read my Marly-Dem. Hmmm….ok so kind of awkward, but (please don't judge me), I'd love to see some bondage maybe . I think Dem would make a great bondaged uke . But you can write it however you want, I'm just thankful to have a story written just for me =)

Thanks for reading!

Heart, Sarabellum