This is after the season 3 finale, and Elena is def. a vampire. I want to explore the deep emotions that I believe these two would feel. I do not own the vampire Diaries or its characters, this is purely for fun.

Ok, I am a HUGE Bamon fan, as well as a Huge Beremy fan. So am writing a fanfic for each pairing to see who emerges victorious. Lol hope you like

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Damon staggered into the foyer of the Salvatore home, drunk, angry and hurt but so obviously alone. ' I choose Stephen, he is the one I love, I will always want to be with him'. Elena words vibrated all around him, no matter how hard he tried he couldn't make them disappear, or be untrue. There they were, they could have been identical to the words his father so long ago uttered, may not be in the same context, but the meaning was clear enough, he never was and never would be good enough, not 100 years ago, not today. Groaning he made his way to the liquor cabinet and took a whole bottle of bourbon, glass forgotten, he took a long drink as he slowly dropped to the floor, the alcohol mixed with the fresh blood still on his lips and tongue from the bloody massacre he left in a camping grounds, disgusted with himself for still caring where he hunted. He so desperately wanted to turn off his emotions, to stop the pain that burned painfully in his chest, but he forced himself to feel. He forced his subconscious to remember the brutality of rejection, if it hurt long enough maybe he wouldn't be stupid to fall in love again, stupid enough to be torn up all over.

As his vision started to blur he heard all the voices of his past and present muttering his uselessness, how he always fell short, especially next to Stefan. Unable to handle the pain, he pursed his lips tightly and tried not to let himself crumble. As he closed his eyes a single tear drop fell onto his cheek.

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Bonnie sat on the floor legs crossed, as she recited a spell she had never done before, a spell that was more on the dark side than good. She was tired of being used, tired of pretending that everything was ok, it never was, and she always suffered. No more. She shook her head as tears threatened to fall, no more being weak either, she rebuked herself.

She thought of Jeremy then, and allowed the anguish of his betrayal to wash over her, her first real boyfriend and she couldn't even hold a candle to the ghost he cheated with. She was all alone in the world, her father was never there, she was constantly having near death experiences, no one worried about the witch just as long as she was useful, her world grew colder, nobody cares. No one was in her corner; no one had been since grams….

Her lower lip started to tremble as she remembered the last 3 years of pain and loss, her grams, her mother, her innocence to life, so she bit it hard to keep it still. She knew both Elena and Caroline were victims caught up in an ancient war, but she now found herself alone on the one side, as they had now both changed teams. They were both among the living dead, and that broke her heart, both Caroline and Elena died with that monster's blood in their system, why did he always have to be in the thick of things, destroying everything and everyone in his path. Yes Katharine killed Caroline, Rebekah caused Elena's death, but she blamed Damon. As she let the anger fuel her words, the candles round her burned brighter, they even had a menacing look to them. Bonnie opened her eyes as she felt a chill start to creep around her, there was nothing there but she knew something was trying to enter her body. Uttering a silent scream she jumped onto the bed, and flung the candles against the door using her magic. She tried not to let the fear in, and even though it was a hot night she pulled all the covers over her, wanting to chase the chill that had tried to creep in. breathing heavily her eyes darted all over the room looking for anything supernatural. Seeing nothing she closed her eyes, a nervous smile on her face. She needed to grow up and stop being scared of a little magic that was her only true protector from the monsters of the night. Bonnie thought to herself.

She thought it was all over and tried to sleep, not knowing she had awakened something so sinister within herself she would never be able to be free of it on her own.

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End of ch 1. Please tell me what you thought