I'm trying to decide between Dauntless and Abnegation. This is so hard. I take a look between the two, and choose.
As the Abnegation watch the Dauntless take the stairs we wonder what's going on, until we realize that they're being rebellious. I wonder what would happen if I wouldn't have chosen to stay. Who knows? Caleb left though, he went to Erudite. I have a strong feeling that on visiting day, neither of my parents is going to be seeing him. I'm going to miss him a lot, though I hate to admit it, I'll even miss those disapproving stares that I've come to know so well. Initiation starts immediately. All 15 of us are led away and we sit silently in folding chairs laid out in a straight line waiting to be told what to do. I see a few older kids sitting in some of the other chairs along the back of the room making quiet idle conversation. One of the boys turns to look at us and we meet eyes. His eyes are a very unusual color, dark blue. Even though in Abnegation it's not right, we stare for a bit until an older woman comes in and greets us.
"Hello, my name is Grace, if you would all please take turns standing and saying your name and what faction you came from, that would be nice. Start from the right please."
It was kind if obvious which faction everyone came from. I mean, each faction wears clothes that make them distinct. But nonetheless, the girl on the right stands and begins.
"Shannon, Erudite."
"Hannah, Candor."
"Jeffery, Abnegation."
"Dianne, Amity."
"Shelby, Abnegation."
"Owen, Candor."
"Beatrice, Abnegation."
"Patricia, Erudite."
"Gregory, Abnegation."
"Matthew, Amity."
"Nathan, Abnegation."
"Nancy, Candor."
"Jennifer, Erudite."
"Jade, Erudite."
"Noelle, Abnegation."
"Thank you," Grace said, "now would the volunteers in the back please introduce yourselves."
There were 7 of them and they were all around 17 to 20. They presented themselves in the same fashion we did, but said their ages instead.
"Tyler, 19."
"Georgia, 17."
"Tobias, 18." That's the person I locked eyes with.
"James, 18."
"Maria, 20."
"Caitlyn, 19."
"Shawn, 20."
"Thank you." Said Grace. " Now, if one of the volunteers would like, you could show the group around."
"I will." said Tobias. "I you would follow me, I'll show you the houses."
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When Tobias gets finished showing us around, he shows us where we'll be staying until initiation is over. It's a room with just enough beds for everyone. Apparently the volunteers will be staying in a separate room near us. We're about to be led to where we'll be eating tonight but as we were leaving, I accidentally knock the pillow off my bed. Of course I would make myself look ridiculous. I'm about to pick it up when Tobias comes rushing over.
"Let me help you." He says
"Oh," I say "it's just my pillow, I can get it." He picks it up, puts it on my bed then whispers in my ear: "I know, but I wasn't sure if I'd get the chance to tell you that your eyes are very pretty." I immediately blush. I never thought that I would get a compliment from someone, especially someone from Abnegation of all places. But I just let out a small smile and say "Thanks."
He walks right behind me on the way to the little cafeteria that we're eating at, and then sits next to me after we all receive out chicken and peas. Everybody eats in silence for a while until the Candor girls start talking, the two from Amity start complimenting the chefs, and the Erudite transfers start talking about the beautiful simplicity of Abnegation. That leaves the Abnegation initiates and the volunteers. A few if the volunteers start quietly talking and even the Abnegation initiates start making idle chitchat. That basically leaves Tobias and me as the only two not talking, so he tries to start a conversation.
"So, how are you?" He asks.
"Fine, thank you." I reply.
"How are you liking Abnegation?" He asks.
"Well I've lived here all my life, so it's pretty much the same."
Right after I say that Tobias' eyes get wide and he gets a worried look on his face.
"Uh, do you think you could meet me later today? We need to be alone though."
Alone? Me? Alone with a boy? That doesn't sound very Abnegation, but what do I have to lose?
"Sure, just meet me at the dorms and I'll talk to you wherever." I say.
"Thanks," he replies "oh, and by the way, I know this isn't a very Abnegation thing to say, but, you're pretty, Beatrice."
Two compliments from him in one day! I think life in Abnegation as I know it is going to be a lot different.
After my conversation with Tobias, I went back to the dorms and tried to get to know some of the people, I mean, I'm going to need to find someone. Eventually I start having a real conversation with Dianne, the girl Amity transfer. We talk about our factions and she talks about how different things are here when someone knocks.
"I'll get it." I say.
I open the door and see Tobias.
"Hey, do you think you could get outta there so we can talk?" He asks.
"Sure" I say "one sec though." I turn my head and look at Dianne. "I'll be back eventually." I say.
"Okay" she replies and I walk out the door and follow Tobias.
"So what did you want to tell me" I ask as we walk down the hallway.
"Not here," he says "follow me."
We walk for a while in silence. I don't even know where we are. After a while we sit down and he looks into my eyes with his perfect, beautiful, dark blue ones. Wait what did I just think? His perfect, beautiful, dark blue eyes? I've never thought something even close to that. I'm in Abnegation! I can't think that.
"Lost in thought?" He asks.
"Something like that." I reply.
After a while I hear a train whistle and Tobias starts to get up. I put two and two together and realize that we're getting in the train. We're getting on the train! I thought I had chosen Abnegation not Dauntless, but I follow him and do what he does. We jog by the train and eventually jump on. It appears he's been doing this for a while, but I on the other hand am obviously a beginner. It takes me a while to get on, and without Tobias, I wouldn't have. He literally had to take my hands and pull me in, which I, afterwards, fell on top of him. Not exactly the most Abnegation thing for me to be doing, but we are on a train, so I guess I don't have to be very Abnegation right now. After the train slows down a little bit, he begins talking.
"So," he says "the reason I wanted you to come with me is because I've got a feeling that you're Divergent. I trust that whoever gave you your aptitude test told you this and told you that it's very dangerous. They probably also told you not to tell anyone, right?"
"Right" I say
"Well listen to them. Now, I know that I've found out, but I've always been able to see Divergence in people. Just please don't tell anyone." He said.
We sit in silence for a while. I'm just kinda taking in the fact that he knows I'm Divergent. I wonder if he is too. Hmm, that is interesting. A Divergent couple. I'm doing it again. We aren't a couple! Of course we aren't! I mean just because I like him- I need to stop this. I can't like someone! Especially if they don't like me back! Or do they? I didn't realize it right away, but while I was yelling at myself in my mind, a hand slipped into mine. He's holding my hand. We can't hold hands in Abnegation! But I can't be alone with a boy on a train either. So I guess it's fine. We sit there for a while just holding hands. I suppose it's fine. I mean, if people get married then the must do this before they get married. And now I'm thinking about marrying Tobias. That's just great. I don't know how long we're on the train, because we both fell asleep while we were holding hands. We wake up though. Just in time too because we jump off the train and walk back to the dorms hand in hand. Just before he leaves he pulls me into a hug and we stand there for a bit. He pulls away and says: "I knew I could trust you." Then he kisses my forehead and walks away.
