In Black
I always thought she looked beautiful dressed in black, her eyes looked greener, her hair shinned brighter, she seemed ethereal, she seemed unreal, not today though, her black outfit, just reminds me everything I have lost, I will never hold her in my arms, I will never gather the courage to tell her how special she was to me, no, not was, is, how special she is to me, how much I love her even now, when I can't tell her anything anymore.
I can see her amazing eyes brimming with tears, and it hurts, it hurts so very much, I would have never imagine you could still feel pain, even in death.
I can see all of them, all dressed in black, their faces covered in pain, tears running from many eyes, I wish I could tell them I am here, I wished I could tell her I am here, maybe she knows, I hope she knows.
They will be leaving shortly, I can tell, they are saying their goodbyes now, first Frank, then Alexx, supported by her husband and kids, Eric behind them followed by Mr. Wolfe, I never managed to call him Ryan, that is another thing I regret now, then a long line of friends, coworkers, even people I don't seem to remember, Calleigh hasn't move from her chair, she is just looking at my grave with tearful eyes, like a marble statue. Everyone is leaving the graveyard, Alexx has noticed she is not following them, Eric too, but she asks them to go on, and they do so.
Now its just us, a marble stone and a perfect creature in black, she holds a single white rose in her hands, and my heart breaks, why did I never told her, why did I never kissed her, she will never know how much I loved her.
She is kneeling in front of the cold marker and I can see her leaving the rose next to my name, she whispers before she leaves.
I love you too Horatio Caine –
She knows.