Chapter One
"There is no point in all of this. Look, you can leave right now and nobody would care "
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Kirishima had been laying in his bed spacing out, ignoring the laughter and cheers from outside his dorm room. Although he would've liked to join in the celebration for moving in and becoming a 'family', the redhead simply couldn't bring himself to get out. Hearing hateful words from his stepmother about how he was a "disgusting human being" or how he was a "sad waste of space" starting to get to him. He handled the discrimitory words for the first few months before they seriously got to him. He started to think that there was some truth in that, and eventually let the words seep under his skin. They say words cut deeper than knives, a statement often looked over as no one could truly relate to the phrase. Kirishima would admit he, too, was one of those people who looked over the simple phrase that he now understands truly.
Though, Kirishima was the outgoing, happy- go- lucky social butterfly, he had such a serious inferiority complex, causing him to usual put himself down on the inside. Sometimes he'd just stare out his window and ask himself how he even got into UA in the first place, the voice in his head telling him how he had no chance of becoming a hero and that he was taking up space for someone who was actually worthy of studying at UA. The voice had actually told him that he didn't deserve all the kind friends he had made during his time at the school and that he deserves to just be alone. "Don't waste their time, you're a pain and they all think it." The voice told him when the class asked him to join them in the celebration. And, although the redhead didn't want to believe it, he had excused himself, saying he had been worn out from the training they did that day. Luckily they understood and let him go to his dorm room without asking any more questions.
"Hear that?" The voice in his head said, the voice sounding cold and quite loud. "They're having fun without you. They are having fun because you aren't there." Kirishima felt his heart ache. He deeply cared for everyone and hearing the voice say they were having a good time because he would have ruined the party hit home. Small tears threatened his eyes, but he wiped the tears away, telling himself it was manly to cry over something so trivial as that. Sighing deeply, the redhead turned onto his side, so he was now facing the wall, and tried his best to go to sleep. Though, his brain was running a hundred miles per hour, thinking of how his father and stepmother— his tormentors for so many years— were pleased to have him out the house. Although they didn't show it, since All Might and Aizawa Sensei was there, the redhead knew deep down they only wanted him being one, he kept their taxes down so they wouldn't have to pay as much and two, when he became a hero they could squander money off him. It hurt, he'd admit, but he would rather keep to himself.
The boy had a restless night, listening to the cheers of his classmates and Iida yelling at them to go to sleep. It made him smile at how everyone were so strong and amazingly talented people. Even Mineta; There was something about him that said he could be a great hero. And then there's Kirishima, the fake redhead who had such a boring quirk that he'd probably bore the villains until they surrender. "You know, there's always that," the voice in his head said, almost mockingly. Kirishima didn't want to think about that, so he shook his head and told himself that wasn't what he wanted. It wasn't a manly way to go.
" Come on, look at you. Nothing about you is at all manly. You might as well be mistaken for dog shit, not a manly hero. Give it up already." The voice said, sounding frustrated that Kirishima wouldn't allow himself to take in to the temptation. Instead, the boy merely got up from his bed and stared at the clock hanging on the wall. It was three in the morning. By now, Iida had finally gotten everyone to go back to their dorm rooms to sleep, so this was the perfect time to sneak out for some fresh air.
Pushing his door open, Kirishima looked down the halls to his right, thankful his dorm was near the end of the hall, and seeing no one there, he snuck out. Closing the doors to the dorms, Kirishima took a long, deep breath, feeling the slight breeze brush against his face. During this time of the day was always so calming, the fact no one else was awake gave Kirishima a sense of peacefulness, knowing no one was there to torment him on how weak he really was. Not even the voice said anything during this time, leaving Kirishima by himself with only his thoughts. The redhead took a small walk around the school, stretching his muscles so they wouldn't ache later. Until he heard it again.
"There is no point in all of this. Look, you can leave right now and nobody would care. Hell, I bet they would be relieved."
This stopped the boy in his tracks, eyes widened by the sudden appearance of the voice. This was the only time he could escape the truth of his self hate and doubt, but now that was gone. The little thread that kept Kirishima from totally losing it was gone. His sanctuary, blown up because of that one damn voice.
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The next morning, everyone had gathered in the canteen, collecting their breakfast while talking to friends. The one that seemed to be missing was the lovable redhead. "Hey, Mina, have you heard from Kirishima? I tried knocking on his door this morning but I didn't get an answer." Kaminari asked his best friend Mina Ashido; They she says to just call her Mina.
The pink haired girl looked confused before turning into a toothy grin. "You know, I bet he's just sleeping in. You know Kirishima, he's probably worn out from yesterday's training." Mina replied, convincing the blonde. "You're probably right," Kaminari said, replicating the toothy grin Mina had plastered on her face. Though, Kamiari got slightly anxious when the redhead didn't show up for most of breakfast and when he did, he looked like he hadn't slept at all. "Kirishima, my bro, you don't look good." Kaminari said once the redhead had taken his place opposite him. "Did you get any sleep last night?" Kirishima just bit his lower like before shaking his head.
"Kirishima, it's a Saturday. You should probably have stayed at the dorms and asked us to bring some food over to you." Mina butted in, a concerning expression on her face. Kirishima simply shook his head again and rested his head in his folded arms on the table. "It's just a headache, that's all." Kirishima finally spoke up, sounding like he was dying. This cause his two friends to look at the other before Kaminari finally spoke up. "Dude, you sound like your dying. Is everything okay?" Again, no response except for a mere nod. The two worried parties sighed. "Whatever you say bro," Kaminari said before giving up on finding out what was wrong with his friend.
Meanwhile, the voice in Kirishima's head kept taunting him, saying how he didn't deserve the friends he had and should just leave the school. "They might find someone actually useful to take your place if you left." The voice taunted, sounding more pleased with every word it said.
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"The fuck, you want me to tutor you turds?" Bakugou asked, smirking in amusement at the four at his door. Three looked desperate, saying how they didn't want to get kicked out the school because of how low their grades were, but the redhead of the group looked dazed. Kirishima seemed to be more interested in whatever was going on in his head than where he really was. "First, the hell is wrong with shit hair," Bakugou asked, pointing at the redhead. The three shrugged a response, telling Bakugou how they had been trying to bring Kirishima around town for some fun, but he never really seemed interested. "It started from this morning," Mina added, glancing worriedly at the redhead.
"Whatever, but we're doing this in the lounge, not my room. Meet me there in ten minutes," Bakugou growled before slamming the door in the group's faces. They Mina, Kaminari and Sero cheered while Kirishima still was looking at the wall, completely forgetting his surroundings.
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An hour had passed since Bakugou started tutoring the group and he was getting extremely pissed. Instead of asking how to do a question, which slightly pissed the blonde, they just asked him the answers, making him very pissed. "Okay, why the fuck didn't you just ask to copy off my homework instead of wasting my time tutoring you guys? I could be doing something better to waste my time than doing this bull." Bakugou said, sounding very irritated. Not to mention the annoying face Kirishima had been pulling. It pissed him off.
"Because you can't say no!~ Even if you wanted to," Mina said, grinning mischievously at Bakugou. This pissed Bakugou even more. "Fuck it, I couldn't care less whether you shit turds fail or not. I refuse to teach you guys anything." And with that, Bakugou stormed off, not taking anything with him since he didn't have anything he brought in the first place, and went to his dorm room, slamming the door behind him.
"Man, Balugou is seriously such a dick," Jiro said, whom had been lounging around on one of the sofas and watching the scene play out, very amused. "By the way, what's up with red hair over there," the girl pointed to Kirishima who was sitting beside Mina, looking even more dazed than before, if that was even possible. The three merely looked at one another. "We're trying to find out ourselves," Sero said, scratching his nape and grinning. He looked slightly worried for his friend, but who wouldn't? Kirishima had never been so out of it since they had met him, making this extremely strange for the three of them. On the other hand, Jiro simply nodded before saying, "He'll probably be back to earth tomorrow." Sero, Mina and Kaminari all looked at each other, all having the same thought.
' We hope so.'
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Author's Note: Ah, thanks for reading! I know Kirishima is very much out of character, but my friend( the person who had depression and helped me write this chapter) was very much out of character on some days while being her usual self on others. Anyways, please leave a review for this chapter telling me what you think so far! Farewell, amigos!~