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Chapter 1

The cold seeped into my clothes and I pulled my jacket tighter around me. Bunker nine in all of its glory seemed dull through my eyes. The cold, nothingness starting to seep into my brain. I tried to block out the thoughts.

you killed your own mother

The ever present voice seemingly echoed through the room and I shivered.

how could you forget today, you killed your own mother on this day, 7 years ago, and you almost forgot

I cried harder, I'm no good, I killed my own mother. Why am I even here? The voice protested louder as if hearing my thoughts.

Exactly Leo, why are you even here? You. Are. Nothing.

You. Are. Nothing. I am nothing. The words echoed through my head and I felt the blackness start to seep in. Too late I realized my mistake and the flashback started.

My room was cold and dreary. Only a few things scattered throughout the room. Very...temporary. From the protection of my blankets I lit a small fire on my fingertips. The flames dancing through the air. Mesmerized I watched them not hearing the sound of footsteps coming up the stairs. My stepfather flung open the door and I put out the flame just in time for him to see. I watched as his face contorted in rage.

"YOU! Fire in my house...is not allowed." He quickly crossed the length of the room and hit me with the back of his hand."

"LEO," he yelled as I kept trying to back away from his blows.

"I DON'T KNOW WHY I TOOK A NOBODY LIKE YOU INTO MY HOUSE!"

"LEO."

"LEO!"

"Leo, wake up!"

I woke up gasping. I sprung to my feet feeling dizzy.

A pair of hands pushed me gently back onto the bed. I looked around realizing I wasn't in my cabin anymore but in the infirmary. My siblings were standing near my bed along with the seven plus Will and Nico. All of them looked worried.

"Uh, hey guys." I put on the best grin I could muster. Which was pretty weak. They just stared at me.

"I would love to stay and be a part of this party but I need to go take care of Festus so…"

"You're not going anywhere." Will said. "You're burning hot and your heart beat is dangerously fast."

"And we need to know what just happened." Piper added in.

"Look guys that was nothing. I…

"Mmhmm, that was not nothing." Annabeth said. "I don't believe you. Sure we all get nightmares but that didn't seem like a normal nightmare. That seemed more like a flashback." I gulped.

"Guys...I, uh." So much for quick comeback Leo. I can't tell them I still blame myself for my mother's death and I definitely can't tell them about my foster parents. Everything that happened to me was my fault and even the good foster families I had I eventually had to leave. Because I cause trouble wherever I go. I don't deserve their pity.

No you don't. You're worthless.

"Just leave me alone."

No, it's your fault I'm here.

"No it's not my fault."

Yes it is

"No it's not okay, just leave me alone."

Fine, but I'll be back

"Whatever." I sigh I do deserve it and I know it. Cause I have never done anything right in my life.

"LEO!" Jason yells.

"Yes?" I look up and my friends are all looking at me weird. I feel a little uncofortable.

"You were talking to yourself."

"Look what you did."

You are the one talking to yourself.

"Well you started it."

Whatever

I look up to see my friends staring at me again.

"Sorry what were you saying?"

"Leo, we're worried about you." Hazel says. "You keep talking to yourself like you're arguing with someone and it's kind of scary. We just want to help."

"We don't know what's going on and you never tell us anything about yourself. Is everything okay?" Percy adds in.

I let out a fake yawn. "Guys I'm tired can I please just go to sleep?" I don't think they'll fall for it but it's worth a shot.

"Leo, don't change the subject." Annabeth says.

"Guys, can't you just let it go." I plead with them. For a second I think they're actually going to give in.

"No Leo, we're your friends we deserve to know what is wrong with you." I'm about to respond when I feel pain course through my body. I scream, and it fills the air around me.

Tell them anything and I will kill you, but technically, you'll be the one killing yourself.

I cry out as another wave of pain hits me. Then another and another. Then the darkness grips me and I pass out.