The DivideWritten By: Kiefer'sluver

Chapter 1: Not even Hell

Summary: A.U.-Jack is holding a gun towards Nina and is faced with the notion of killing her. Can he destroy the one person who ever truly understood him? But if he lets her live, he'll be hell pressed to hide her. Can he break the law just for some past comfort and lust?

(The Lyrics are from the Spill Canvas.)

Jack's POV

My name is Jack Bauer and this is the most difficult choice of my life. I thought it would be easy, just pull the trigger. But the more I pressed the trigger the more the past began to pull me away. And soon I was trapped in the world that we had created. I remembered the scent of her hair, the touch of her lips, and the way her body felt underneath mine. I remember how she had given me that sly smile when I told her I loved her and the way she told me she loved me too. I also remember her shifting through her emotions when I told that our relationship had been a lie and that it was time for me to make things right with Teri and Kim. Then my mind went back to the night she killed Teri. And I remember the vulnerability I had felt and the sadness I felt when I pulled Teri into my arms and wept. Yet I remembered how no one saw me cry, no one except Nina, and how she was always so comforting. She was different now though. Had I made her so different when I told her I was lying to her? I was never lying to her, the fact that I told her our relationship was a lie well that was the lie. I couldn't pull the trigger. The gun dropped to the floor. And I became one with reality.

She lied there looking up at me. Her neck was smeared with blood from where she drove that needle into her neck. Her shoulder was bleeding heavily from where I had shot her. The fact that she was lying on the ground weak and completely in my control, well nothing turned me quite as much. Even in our relationship we were always fighting for control. Often times I was the one in control and that was what I loved about my affair with her. With Teri I could never be in control the way I wanted to. Teri wasn't like Nina, she never understood me and she didn't have the strength for me to hurt her the way I did with Nina. Whether I slammed her against the wall and held her my her throat before kissing her roughly or whether I assaulted her in the break room of CTU, Nina always came back for more. No matter how twisted our love was, it was comfort to me and Nina accepted it. Now she looked more fragile than ever and I wanted her more than ever. I wanted her more than when I humiliated her on that plane by forcing her to strip in front of me, although that was ages ago. She coughed slightly before looking with me with hesitation.

"Why?" She asked hoarsely. "Why won't you end it, Jack?"

What could I tell her? I leaned down and traced her hair lightly with my fingertips.

"Do you still love me?" I asked. I had to know. If she did I could leave here and take her with me. No one would ever know. All I had to do was use the back way. She smirked at me arrogantly.

"I thought I told you this wasn't personal Jack." Her smirk drives me insane and I grab by her shoulders and slam her into the wall of the very room she killed Teri in. I lean in and I can see the fear on her face. I also she the flinching from pain and I realize my hands are gripping her by her shoulders. My hand is pressed against her wound and she's in a lot of pain and for some sadistic reason I clutch her shoulder even tighter.

"Damn It Nina!! Do you love me or not?" I glare at her and she nods.

"Yes, Jack. Are you going to kill me now?" I shake my head before pressing my lips to hers in urgency. I know I will regret this tomorrow but for right now lust has taken control and I'm in the driver seat. So maybe I'm a little crazy like Mason always said but right now I really don't care., Because she's hotter than hell right now.

I used to wanna feel your summer sweat seeping right into my eyes
I used to wanna feel your body quake when I sink my teeth into your thighs

Where did you come from, where have you been?
I don't know that much about you,
but I don't think that I would like to anymore

The curtains rising just like the ante
Here we go now, break a leg
No, I literally mean it this time around
I'm sick of you leading me on
I'm sick of you stringing me along, on

I do hereby swear
a bounty on your heart
I hereby swear...

Every poison kiss that you blew
I deflected with an icy cold stare that I learned from you
What's a boy to do?

Where did you come from, where have you been?
I don't know that much about you,
but I don't think that I would like to anymore

The curtains rising just like the ante
Here we go now, break a leg
No, I literally mean it this time around
I'm sick of you leading me on
I'm sick of you stringing me along, on

I do hereby swear
a bounty on your heart
I hereby swear...

Oh-my-God, not even Hell
could be hotter than you right now
Not even Hell could be hotter than you right now
Oh, not even Hell could be hotter than you right now
Oh, not even Hell could be hotter than you right now
Oh, not even Hell...