Let The Bloody Games Begin...

1. Red Confessions

Jane kisses her on top of the head and leaves the interrogation room.

I must have missed something. Not only Jane didn't tell me of his brilliant plan, but didn't also tell me he slept with an accomplice of Red John!

Lorelai keeps staring at me with an irritating smile on her face; I get up slowly from the chair with the palms spread out against the cold metal table. Before I can get out, Lorelai murmurs some words which make me boil with anger.

-What's up Agent Lisbon? Another man who disappoints you after your father?-

I'm about to slap that pretty face, but I feel strong arms hold me by the shoulders: Cho. We go to my office and I ask him to leave me alone, but not even two minutes later Jane rushes in and puts his hands on my arms.

-How are you? Everything alright? I heard what she said, are you okay?-

-Take. Your. Hands. Off. Me.- I say slowly.

-Lisb-

-GO AWAY!- I start shouting, but I don't care. He crossed the line and now he has to face the consequences.

-Let me explain! It was all-

I slap him and silence falls; his hands slid from my arms and his gaze drops.

I feel the tears forming in my eyes and, even if I try to hold them, I feel them run down my cheeks.

I slowly close the door of my office, open during the whole fight: everybody is turned to us, Grace, Rigsby and Cho too.

I lower the blinds and sit on the couch; Jane hasn't moved a muscle since I slapped him and I feel sorry, even if I shouldn't.

-I'm sorry...- it's almost a whisper, if we weren't in complete silence I couldn't have heard it.

-Now you explain me EVERYTHING that happened. From the beginning to the end. And you give me one good reason for you did not involve me in your plan. NOW.-

He slowly turns and I clearly see a tear running down his cheek, but he dries it quickly. After a few seconds, he starts talking.

-As I told you in the church, I pretended to have a breakdown to get Red John's attention. I knew he would have tried to contact me, but I had no idea Lorelai is with him! Not before... Anyway, I didn't want to involve you because it would have been too dangerous..-

-That's bullshit and you know it! I'm a cop! It's my job to be able to protect myself!-

I have to calm down, I can't keep screaming. I take a deep breath and continue.

-Jane, we already discussed this. I'm perfectly able to protect myself.-

Our eyes meet for the first time since we held hands in the desert. I have to be strong and not give in, as I usually do.

-I am well aware that you can, but we're talking about Red John here! He always gets what he wants! And you heard Lorelai! "Heard so much about you...". It certainly wasn't me who talked to her about you!-

-Are you saying that I'm the next Red John's target?-

-Exactly. And I can't allow it.-

-Oh come on! Since when do you care about me or the team? You always used us as pawns! And these last months are just another confirmation!- I stand up while I speak, seized by anger.

-You can't seriously believe that I don't care about you! Or the team!-

-This is what it seems by your actions!-

-Teresa, I don't know what you truly believe, but I couldn't live without you! I told you I love you!-

We stay silent once again, we keep look into each other eyes; neither of them had ever talked about it, but we knew we had at some point. Apparently, this is the moment.

-So, that's what you meant...- I feel stupid asking this question, he wouldn't have said that if he didn't mean it, right?

-Yes...- he answers while approaching to me.

-Why didn't you tell me earlier?- I ask softly. He keeps getting closer until I smell his scent.

-I couldn't involve you to the point of getting noticed by Red John...- Now we're not talking, we're whispering.

Within a few minutes I got answers to my questions and I discovered that the man I love, loves me back.

I feel a tear running down my cheek, but I quickly brush it away with the back of the hand. I think I ran out of tears.

-You're a jerk...- I whisper. We both know, though, he is already forgiven. We only need a small movement to make our lips touch, but I want him to make the first move, and so it is. I have time to see a smile spread over his face and then I close my eyes to feel his lips on mine. I feel his hands on my hips while I put mine on his chest.

Inevitably, we part, but we continue to stay embraced, foreheads touching.

We stay minutes in silence to hear the heartbeat of the other one, I open my eyes and see that he still has his closed, I smile slightly.

-Patrick...- I whisper to not break the spell that has been created.

He opens his eyes and my heart skips a beat because of that sudden blue; our foreheads are still touching.

Suddendly someone knocks at the door, so we disembrace, but his hand takes mine almost immediately. I think he needs to know I'm here and, deep down, that's what I need to know about him as well.

I open the door to see Cho slightly nervous; everyone has already gone back to work, so there isn't anyone around my office.

-Boss, you have to come see this. Now.-

I have never seen Cho so scared, what could have possibly happened?