I have a few very important things to say before you read this fic. First off this Fic has to do with very mature subject matter who some might find offensive. Note that it is said right here in the clear that the matter of drug use, treament, and getting off drugs is the subject matter in this chapter and will be through-out this fic. If you find any of this offensive you need to not read this. I mean to make anyone feel uncomfortable, or upset. I own nothing but my own thoughts and takes on the characters that SM has been so great to bless us with. This is my take on Rachel and Paul. So please read and enjoy...On with the show....
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Sweetlybroken
Set Free
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Rachel PoV
"I don't know when I really realized that I was different. I can't even tell you when I first noticed it. I can't even really tell you how I ended up here to be honest. Well back here. Yeah I've been here before, anyway I'm a different person now. I probably won't even remember this later today. I'll still be up then." I stated looking down at my shaking legs.
" Are you okay Rachel?" He asked me in a sexy husky voice that made me smile.
" Yeah I'm okay, I do this all the time." I stated getting lost in the way his eyes held mine.
He had to be the most gorgeous guy that I have ever seen. You could tell where his hair had started growing in from having it cut real short. His body was muscled and sculpted, his arms was a canvas to a few tattoos', the one that caught my eye the most was the pair of wolf eye's that was looking back at me. They was so realistic, and so deep that I couldn't help myself from falling deep into its gaze.
I didn't realize how caught up I had actually gotten until I heard him clear his throat.
" Yeah people like this one the most for some reason." He said rubbing his hand over his arm.
I glanced up at him catching his eyes again " It's different and very well done, I wish mine would have turned out better." I rolled my eyes not caring to hide my envy.
" You have tattoos?" His voice sounding surprised
I laughed at him as I leaned back so that I could show him my one and only tattoo of my own wolf- rose. I was a little unhappy because he was going to get to see how shity mine turned out compared to his. I watched him look down and a smile cross his face. I knew that it wasn't as great as his but he didn't have to laugh at it.
" Hey, it's not as great as yours but I like it." I laughed pushing the top of my jeans a little more so that he could get the full view.
He laughed shyly before looking back into my eyes. " If you like it that's all that matters right?" He smiled at me.
I sat back up wrapping my arms around my knees resting my head on my lap " Yeah I guess. You never did tell me your name. I mean you might have but I just don't remember nothing personal or anything I'm just a little out there right now." I whispered looking over at him a little.
" I'm Paul, I know your little brother, anyway go on with what you was saying before...You know before we talked tattoos." he asked sincerely.
I laughed as I stood up. " You know Paul, I really don't remember. It's cool that you know my little brother, he's on the road of life right now so I don't know about him. What I do know is that he'll be okay, we all are." I said pulling my hood up walking off.
I couldn't sit steal anymore, and wasn't sure if conversation was what I needed to be doing at the moment, I was so high at this point that I really didn't know what I should be doing. Most of the time when I'm like this I had a place to go where I was by myself, a place where I could do whatever it is that I wanted to do with worrying about a million people asking me questions.
" Rachel!" Paul whispered from behind me causing me to jump.
" Hey you can't do that to me okay, I'm an upper type of person and I scare real easy." I yelled holding my hand over my heart. As if it wasn't beating hard enough before I had this shocker to add to the list.
He looked sad for a second " I'm really, really sorry I didn't mean to scare you I just couldn't let you walk away from me."
I'm sure that I was looking at him like he was crazy " You don't want to know me Paul, I mean my conversation is great right now but later it might not be so good, you wouldn't understand so I'm not going to explain it to you just trust me on this okay. No one knows me as good as I do." I said taking a step back from him.
It was best that he take my warning, there was something about Paul that I didn't want him to be drug into my life. He needed to stay away, far away from a girl like me. I gave him one last look holding eye contact so that I could make sure he knew that I wasn't joking about what I had said, before I started to walk away again. I looked back a few times and seen that he wasn't following me.
As I got father away I saw that he hadn't moved from the spot that I had left him in.
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" The first time that I noticed I was different was the first time that I ever got up. It was a feeling that I can't even put into words, it was bittersweet though and I learned allot about myself that night. I had a breakdown, a breakthrough, and cried a river while I built my bridge and got out it all in a 24 hour period." I took a drink of my tea feeling my mind ease to a state of peace. " I can't really tell you much about it other then It did me allot of good. Well, kinda I guess."
Paul looked over at me nodding his head. Yeah funny thing happened a few days after I left the beach I went to a bonfire with my dad and he was there. I was having down day so I wasn't really in the mood to talk yet he understood and still sat beside me a little off from everyone else, so we kinda started talking and now here he was sitting on the front steps of my dad's house at 4:30 in the morning listening to me talk.
" Rachel can I ask you something?" He asked me looking worried.
I took a deep breath because I already knew what was coming. I already knew what his reaction was going to be. " Yeah, but I'm not going to lie or sugar coat anything alright." I whispered as I looked into his eyes.
He seemed to be like he was looking for the right way to ask me. A way not to sound like a jerk or a cop or parent or something. It was amusing to watch him, I wasn't used to people that worried about sparing my feelings. Who gave a damn right?
" You get high off pills right?" He asked looking me in the eyes.
I laughed as I felt my high hit me full blast, causing me to laugh harder. I couldn't help it I couldn't stop laughing. This action right here had to have answered his question I mean what normal person would be laughing like this over nothing. I tired to stop laughing when i felt a sharp pain rush through my right side making it harder to breath. I saw dots every time that I would blink my eyes, and my head started to spin.
" Rachel Baby, breath!" I heard being yelled at me as everything went black around me, my chest was heaving up and down as I lost feeling in all of my body.
There was black roses laying all around me, I was on my back naked floating in the roses, There was nothing but dim light all around me, I couldn't recognize where I was all I knew it that this was the most peaceful place that I have ever been too. I picked up a rose and brought it to my nose inhaling its sweet scent when I started falling, falling into darkness at a fast speed, I was reaching, reaching out trying to grab ahold of something, anything, but darkness. I felt sick like I was going to throw up instead I hit the ground with such a force I knew that every bone in my body had shattered. I tried to pull myself up but my legs where too weak. I started to scream, someone had to get me out of here, someone had to help me. A hand reached out to grab me and I touched a the warm fingers but as soon as I made contact I was pulled away, pushed into more darkness only this time to heard the lock turn and I knew that I no longer could run.
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