OKAY, You may kill me for this story D;

If there's some grammar wrong or something tell me… Because I'm just a little 13 year old pervert from Sweden who, I guess, isn't the greatest in English, I believe.

I happen to love Gaahidan and yaoi too lol :D…

But I can't say I'm going to be proud of this story at all… But I hope you'll enjoy…

This is kinda my first fanfic too… :C

CHAP 1

Ever since that day I first saw him the first day in high school , I've been having this new feeling in my chest. It hurts but at the same time way feels good. Hurts because I know I never can let my feeling out. It's my secret…, good because… I don't think there is anything about it. Might be the feeling I get when I see him stroll through the corridor proudly like som sort of a king, that's the only time I feel alive because my heart always skips a beat when he is in my sight. I give that beat away to him but can he feel it? No, I think not. This overwhelming feeling I have inside who is just waiting to burst out in bloom. I want to give it all to him. I don't want to have my heart captured in a dark cage anymore, but how the hell am I supposed to tell him!

I hit my head on my locker in frustration and let my forehead rest on it… I sighed deeply.. Schools over and I haven't seen him today not even a little glance in the cafeteria were he usually hangs out in a corner with his gang, and well it's rather odd he hasn't showed up because he always wants to 'hang out' with me too, thou in a different way… No we don't have sex or anything like that.. Perverts.…Well whatever…

I opened up my locker and threw in a few books in my white and black checkered

Shoulder bag, closed the locker again. Turned around and had my eye hooked on the dark gray stone floor who only encouraged the cold atmosphere here in school, it is actually freezing cold here, seriously they should fix this fucking problem.. Someone's whistling on that whistling theme from the kill bill movie… Must be the so called 'dream prince' of mine, I've heard him brag on about how much he loves those movies with his friends.

"Well, well, well… If it isn't my favourite fucking little Ginger who is spooking around school as the little emo you are.." Yup I was right it's him alright.. I continued to have my head down and kept walking, but then heard a chuckle and felt arms wrap around me from behind. I blushed and turned my head in a way he couldn't see.

" Ignoring me eh? I know your fucking watching me all the time other else, so why not now?" He said with his usual cocky tone. I glared up at him, he is a little more then one head taller then me. I hate to look up at people like they would be some fucking god or something..

" Yeah, in your dreams Hidan… And if I was to watch you all the time, how do you know that I am if your not watching me too?" I snorted out, thou I know I kinda stalk him.. He begun to smirk and forcefully shoved me into the wall, I hissed by the pain in the back of my head when it hit the wall. He leaned down and gave me a glare.

" Trying to piss me off or something little douche bag?" He shook his head.

" Not an good idea if you don't want me to beat the crap out of you.", I looked back at him with my usual' no emotion face', unaffected by his words. I wonder if that is the thing that triggers him on bullying me, that he want's to change the pokerface of mine by harassing me everyday, physically and mentally.. I sighed deeply and looked down at my and his feet. Why can't he just get it over with so I can go home.. Or most likely limp..

" Come on now Gaa-chan, look at me."

I gave no respond.

He grabbed my jaw and yanked it up towards him painfully. I whined as I could feel his grip getting tighter and his nail digging into my cheek, wish gave him a gloating grin

He's an sadist, I know it…

" You should be fucking thankful to me who even talks to you at this stupid school you know.. That I'm even wasting my fucking time on a little piece of pathetic shit like you." He said cheeky but kept a smooth tone.

" If I'm so pathetic why do you even bother noticing my existence.." I replied calmly and his eyes narrowed.

" Tsk.. It's not like anyone could miss a little freak like you. But well, since your just a loner I guess it's weird that I do notice you." I snorted and glanced aside from him. 'should I be honoured or something…?'

" You know, it's not fucking strange that people are ignoring me since you are a murderer.. I heard it was your fault that your mother is dead." I glared at him again as he shook his head like he was sorry.

" I feel bad for her dying while giving birth to a disgusting monster like you, it's not weird that your family hates you. You're an outcast wherever you go"

I narrowed eyes and clenched fists hard in anger. I furiously shoved him away from me.

" Shut up! You don't know any shit about me and my family so just shut the fuck up!" I yelled at him but then got tense as I saw his sadistic smirk fade away.

….I've pissed him off now wish means that he will most likely kick my ass…

He got one hell of a bad temper..

His face looked like it was growing darker. Like a black fog was covering it, expect his glowing eyes who stared at me, almost piercing me with is gaze. I feel vulnerable, he is right, I am a pathetic piece of shit, I can't even defend myself without getting beaten up…

I pressed my back at the wall and took a slow step to the side, still watching him tensely.. He slowly walked towards me with heavy steps full of anger and I begun to run away from him to the exit, why does the corridor have to be so fucking long?

..I know it's useless.. His steps are getting closer, I'm almost at the door but he grabs my shoulder and seconds later I'm down at the floor with him on top of me.

" What did you say to me?" Not good.. His face is only inches away from mine. I could feel his warm breath hitting my face, we both were panting slightly from the running. He watched me with an intensive look who made me feel almost naked… How I wish I was, tied up on a bed with him making out with me…Spacing out….

My eyes travelled down from his purple pinkish eyes to his pink, cute lips who were slightly separated from each other, I know I'm spacing out but I can't help it, he is so close, why does he have to lean down so near to me? Aw fuck I'm actually getting a hard on and he is on his way beating the hell out of me! Fuck me and my fantasy…I squeeze my legs together trying to strangle my 'problem', I'm really screwed if he founds out...

" I said what the fuck did you say to me?", Still I couldn't break away my gaze from his lips and murmured.

".. I told you to shut up about my life and family.. Because you know nothing about it..."

I'm still breathing heavy not by the same reason thou, my eyes are halfway close and i feel rather ... dizzy? Not that I'm going to faint because my vision is still clear thou the sound is all blurry. The silver haired man is on his way saying something again but stops when Someone is touching his cheek.. Who's hand is that? oh... It's my hand... wait my hand? crap my body is moving on it's own and i can't stop it! or is it that i don't want to? He looks strangely at me, well that's not weird at all because I'm pressing my fucking lips against his! Their so soft... I placed my hands gently around his neck and pulled him closer to me, I played along with his hair. It's so silky and soft expect the parts that have hair gel, I've always dreamt of touching it as well as his lips..

My oh so sweet halleluiah moment I've been dreaming of so much then went to a rashly end when I licked his lips trying to seduce him to open them up for me into a deeper kiss, I almost regret doing that now, because I still want to kiss him..

He quickly got up from me and stared at me a little horrified. Aww… His blushing too and I am actually smirking, it's like we've changed rolls… I sat halfway up and leaned my upper body down on my hands who were on the floor. He stuttered and pointed a finger at me. Did I shock him that much?" W-w-what the fuck do you think your doing ? Y-you queer or something?"

…...Silence…...

His finger then pointed down at my crotch and I looked down there too…. DAMNE IT!

" Yeah you f-fucking must be! You have a fucking boner !"

Oh this is so embarrassing … I looked away, sat up fully and pulled my shirt down, so he wouldn't be able to see… Now I joined him by blushing, god I hate it…. I hate this.. He is so going to tell everyone on the school but what does it matter, everyone thinks I'm disgusting anyway and this will make everyone feel more sick when they see me, I guess...

He is still staring at me.. This time I only feel uncomfortable.. And our silence broke when he spoke up, a little more relaxed now

" So what you got the hots for me or something?".. Right on the spot..

I glared up at him, blushing, and stood up.

" Once again, in your dreams Hidan!"

I then took my bag and ran out from the school, left an very confused Hidan.

END OF CHAP 1