Saving the Cullens

BPOV

I was on my motorcycle on the way home from Jake's house thinking about what the just happened. How I could cause someone so much pain? Even so, how could he hurt me? How could he do that to me?

Flashback

I hopped off of my bike and made my way over to Jake. I ran over and hugged him. He was really my sun. "Come take a walk with me Bella." Jake said. I nodded and we started walking towards the beach.

When we arrived Jake pulled me down to sit on a log. To be honest he was a little to close for my comfort. Don't get me wrong, I love Jake but like a brother, I couldn't like him like I liked Edw-him. Even if I did there was no way I am recovered enough to have a relationship.

"Bella I wanted to talk to you about something important." He began; I nodded for him to continue. "I am just going talk and I want you to listen and then tell me what you think. I really like you Bella. I know since Edward left you…" FLINCH "…that we have gotten closer Bella and I think you feel it to. I…uh…I love you Bella and I need you to know that I would never hurt you like that, I couldn't. I would never leave you, I could do so much better then him Bella I promise." I stared at him with disbelief in my eyes. I couldn't believe what me ears just heard. I thought for a second, I love him, not like that but I couldn't see him hurt like that if I turned him down.

"Jake I love you like a brother, a platonic love. I just can't do it. I just…just don't love you that way Jake, I am sorry." I finished. I looked at him, it looked like his world was just smashed. Tears came to my eyes as I looked down. I looked up into his eyes as I saw his body start to shake with fury. His eyes were filled with rage.

"DAMN IT BELLA!!! IT'S ALL BECAUSE OF FREAKING CULLEN ISNT IT! HE LEFT YOU! DON'T YOU SEE, HE ISNT COMING BACK, HE DOESN'T LOVE YOU AND HE DOESN'T WANT YOU GET THAT THROUGH YOUR HEAD!!DAMN IT!!" he yelled at me. I could feel and that sobs racking through body as he minded me what happened a few months ago in those horrid woods. I stood up and started running, I could hear him trying to apologize but I didn't listen. As I came upon my bike I looked back and saw him explode into his wolf form and release a howl that made my heart break even more. I jumped on my bike and drove home as fast as I could. I couldn't believe he would say that to me, but it didn't matter how mad he got me, I still felt bad for breaking his heart.

End Flashback

I pulled in the drive way of my house, once in the house I ran up to my room and let the tears fall freely. It hurt so badly. And I was so angry with Jacob. Not only the pain of him, but know the only person who could get me out of my hole was heartbroken, in love with me, and somewhere hurting and it was all my fault. It wasn't enough that it got Jake mad when I would have one of those depressing days because it reminded him of what he did to me. I always missed him, all of them. It hurt to know that, who I thought was my family, had abandoned me.

I lay on my bed as my body racked with sobs. Thank god Charlie wasn't here, he was fishing (no surprise there). I cried for my hurting friend. I cried for the loss of my best friend. I cried because I really had no one. I cried over the fresh pain of Jacob opening up those slowly healing wounds. But mostly, I cried over my lost love, my soul mate, my other half, I cried over Edward (flinch).

I couldn't understand how he could just up and leave. I thought he loved me. I was so sure and positive he loved me, he told me so many times. And what about the rest of the Cullens. They were like my own family, my mother, my father, my brothers, my sisters. Not to mention my life partner.

I cried myself to sleep that night. As hard as I have tried I ended up crying myself to sleep each night. I never imagined being in so much pain. But the pain subsided as I slipped into unconsciousness and into a very vivid dream.

I walked along a river. It was a little eerie yet peaceful. The river was flowing soundlessly, and it seemed that in that moment every problem that was burdening my mind had left, washing away from my mind. I watched as a beautiful woman came along. So beautiful that she would even give Rosalie a run for her money. She had a slender body with curves accentuating every right place, long, light brown hair, and she wore a white dress. It was long and flowed easily around her.

"Hello, Bella. We have been waiting for you. It's about time you find out who you truly are. You have been chosen." She said with a voice that sounded like a mothers but also smooth like silk. It wasn't like a vampire's but like she really did care.

"Wait, what do you mean chosen?" I asked "And who are you?" I continued.

"You are destined for great power young one and it is time you come in contact with your new self. As for who I am, it will be revealed all in due time." She said, quite cryptically.

"Well what am I supposed to do?" I asked curiously.

"You wait for everything to come to you. We will come to you don't worry." She said as she started moving away, back to where she came.

"Wait, don't go. Please don't go." I pleaded. I knew that I was going to miss her. To be honest, it was like I already loved her like a mother.

"Don't worry we will see each other soon. I promise." She said as she, literally, vanished into thin air.

I walked along the river. I stuck my feet in the crystal clear water as I thought about what she said. What exactly was I chosen to do? What made me so powerful? Why was I chosen? What made me so special? I was always a wall flower. I was plain.

As I sat there and contemplated these thoughts I saw something make its way over to where I was. As the mist around the figure started to clear, I could make out that it was something with four legs. As it came closer I could make out stripes, black stripes. I could finally see it was a cat, a big cat. The cat made its way to the edge of the water on the other side of the water; it had its paws in the water. When I really looked at it I saw that it was a gorgeous white tiger. Its icy blue stare seemed to seep into my soul. All of a sudden everything went cold including the water. The scene before me wasn't beautiful anymore. I felt a chill going up my spine. I looked back to the white tiger and I could hear my heart beat pounding in my ears. The tiger was looking at me like I was its prey. I stood up and slowly started backing away. It started stalking me. In the next instant the beautiful tiger lunged at me. I threw up my hands out in front of me out of instinct and self defense and screamed.

I lunged forward, screaming as I look in the sights of my bedroom. As I looked up I thought I saw something swift move from my one side of my room to out the window. At first I thought it was him, but then remembered that I didn't notice anything distinct about the figure as I saw it fled from my room. I was sitting upright on my bed and drenched in my own sweat. I decided to take a shower to unwind. For some reason I couldn't shake that dream. I kept mulling over the same questions as I did in my dream as the scorching water loosened the muscles in my back, neck, and shoulders.

Once my shower was over I looked towards the clock on my bedside table and it read 4 a.m. I decided that it was obviously too early to wake up and I crawled back into bed. As I was starting to fall asleep I silently prayed the white tiger wouldn't come back to haunt my dreams tonight.