Meredith sat there head in her hands staring at the door, Derek Shepard the love of her life had just walked out of. He was using her for sex and not that she minded but he was still with his hot amazing wife and neither one of them deserved that.

Meredith went down to the kitchen to get a drink when Alex intercepted her told her she was too good for him, that she didn't deserve a relationship like that, and that she was so much better.

"Alex it's not that easy I love him more than I have ever loved anyone or anything"

"Mer I get that I do but he isn't treating you like a real man should you need to tell him that you can't be with him while he is still with his wife." Alex walked away leaving Meredith to herself; she pulled out her cell phone and texted Derek

- Hey we need to talk - Mer

- Okay...when - Derek

-Tomorrow, at lunch meet me at the cafe- Mer

- See you then - Derek

Meredith couldn't help but feel nervous about the lunch today she hadn't slept at all last night but here she was with her hair curled and wearing the dress that drove him crazy with the shoes that she couldn't wait to take off, just for him. She had been at the cafe for about half an hour and was wondering what the holdup was, why he was so late. It was ten minutes later and in he walks with his perfect hair and beautiful eyes that she got lost in.

"Hey how was your day"

" Derek we need to talk and I don't know how to say this but you and I we aren't working like this the whole having sex in an empty on call room and coming over to my house for a quickie before going home to your wife makes me feel cheap and like I'm only good for sex and I love you and sitting here with you right now and not being with you is killing me I hate that I feel this way but I can't live this way anymore and you love your wife your trying to make it work, you didn't pick me you chose her so I guess what I'm trying to say is I love you but it's hard to love a man you have to share and..."

"Mer stop, stop wait Addison brought up divorce papers her and I were thru I love you I pick you "

"You signed the divorce papers oh my god why did you let me go on this long then oh Derek this is good"

"Mer..." the sound of Derek's pager filled the cafe "oh sorry I gotta take this but I'll see you tomorrow for pre-rounds"

As Meredith was leaving the cafe her pager started going off too "911 crap" she ran to her car and drove off to the hospital. When she arrived Christina and Alex were also getting there "you get paged 911 too"

"Yeah there was a big ten car pileup on the high way we saw it on our way in"