AN: I do not own Degrassi I also don't hate Adam he just seemed to have the most people to say sorry to if you think about it. Also this has nothing to do with transgender because I really don't care if a person isn't truly what their body says they are.

"Sorry mom I wish I could have been the little girl you always wanted" is my first thought. Sorry Drew I guess not even super-man can win them all but, make sure mom remembers Adam is... was sorry."

My tears start falling now like little raindrops they fall so beautiful because they are alive they are me. I can't help but feel ashamed though I don't cry I'm just as tough as Drew and real men don't cry. My thoughts don't agree with that they seem to run back every time I've seen a man cry. Drew falling off his bike when he was nine. Eli when he first told me about Julia, Dad when he left my mother only six years old I wish I learned something since then. "I'm sorry Fiona I'll never see your beautiful smile, or your perfect hair that never seems to get messed up. I'll miss how you seemed to always had a smile how you accepted me for me. Our first kiss will be with me forever."

"Sorry Clare and Eli. You were great friends honestly but I can't wait for you guys to save me."

Sorry Bianca, I guess the strength you gave me simply to show I'm better than you and your stupid thoughts.

"Eve it's your turn." Fitz said knocking me out of my sorries. I ignored the name and look down at the six barrel gun. It was rigged I. Knew that when we started and he looked so smug. No shots have been fired but, well six barrels I'm lucky six to try.

He brings his gang but only Bianca was allowed to seem like she might be killed. He forced others but they were all connected to me Clare, Eli, and Drew stared at me. I knew they knew what was going on, I didn't blame them in fact I was mad for a different reason.

I told them I agreed to this meeting to prove I wasn't chicken, guess I went too far.

"One sec I want to send a text quick." I said.

I wish I paid intention in biology. I had to choose a spot to shoot. I knew where I should shoot. A spot I never wanted one of two. One that I shouldn't have been born with.

I hate myself for putting myself into this situation.

I picked p the gun and pointed it at Gracie's breast, diagonally. I held the cold metal gun to my shirt hoping maybe I wouldn't hit anything important.

I tried to pull the trigger but my fingers suddenly weighed a thousand pounds. Then my finger somehow seemed to pull the trigger slowly. My eyes slammed shut for the impact. Everything went by so fast.

I opened my eyes and looked down seeing the blood. It seemed like it should hurt but I couldn't feel anything. I looked around. Clare was crying, Eli was screaming at the top of his lungs, and it seems Drew got strength when he saw me hurt.

Funny I couldn't hear any of it. Bianca had fainted silent tears going down her cheeks and Fitz... was crying... he was seeming to say I'm a... Killer. It looked like since I couldn't hear.

My hearing came back to hear Eli say "I can see the life draining from him. I never had a friend no... A brother like you."

"Thanks Eli. Thank you Drew and Clare." I say. My mind seems to be slow every second down since the shot was fired so my sentence took forever to say.

Adam Toress died sending the text message to Fiona and Mrs. Toress the message "I will love you forever and always"