Was it only Curiosity?
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Now I will tell you what I've done for you
50,000 tears I've cried
Screaming, deceiving, and bleeding for you
And you still won't hear me
Going under
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I told Will everything...well, not quite everything. I told him how I tricked Jack into staying behind--how I kissed him and chained him to his beloved Pearl. A part of me wanted that kiss, but I can't tell Will that. I already doubt he'll ever trust me again. I feel like I've ruined everything...and I probably have.
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Don't want your hand this time, I'll save myself
Maybe I'll wake up for once, wake up for once
Not tormented daily, defeated by you
Just when I thought I'd reach the bottom
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I told him that I did it for us, and the crew. Well, I know that's why I chained him there. But that kiss...I don't know what I was thinking. I liked it, and for that I feel terrible. I love Will, but there was something there when I kissed Jack...I wanted it...
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I'm dying again
I'm going under
Drowning in you
I'm falling forever
I've got to break through, I'm
Going under
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Jack...I can't stop thinking about him. I haven't been able to get him off my mind since it happened...or even before then. When I held his compass, it pointed at him. I wanted him. I still want him...but I love Will! I don't know what I would do without Will...but I need to know if what I feel for Jack is real...
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Blurring and stirring the truth and the lies
So I don't know what's real and what's not
Always confusing the thoughts in my head
So I can't trust myself anymore
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Is it possible that I love them both? No...that's nonsense. It's all Jack's fault! All his talk of curiosity made me just that--curious. I love Will, right? But if I love Will so much, how could I kiss another man?
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I'm dying again
I'm going under
Drowning in you
I'm falling forever
I've got to break through, I'm
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I must get over this. I have to gain back Will's trust...so that we can be wed. I love Will. I'm going to marry him. I can't keep thinking about that bloody pirate or his witty remarks... I have to stop thinking about what could have happened that one night on the beach...or what could have been if I hadn't left him to die on the Pearl.
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So go on and scream
Scream at me, I'm so far away
I won't be broken again
I've got to breathe
I can't keep going under
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When I told Will he wasn't shocked...he didn't yell..As a matter of fact, he didn't say anything. He just seemed so...cold. He acted as if he'd already known. He stood there for a moment, just looking at me. I could tell that he was trying to figure out what to do next. He should have yelled...I know he wanted to. I deserved it...
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I'm dying again
I'm going under
Drowning in you
I'm falling forever
I've got to break through
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I don't deserve a man like Will...he's too loyal and caring...I deserve someone...someone like Jack. Or is that just me making excuses for hurting Will? I don't want to hurt Will...he's the love of my life. I'm sure of it. And he loves me too...after we save Jack we'll be together...and we can get married and live happily ever after--without Jack. Without pirates. Our own fairy tale ending...
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I'm Going under
Going under
I'm going under
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But that's the problem. Fairy tale endings don't exist. And sometimes good doesn't triumph over evil. Will may be the better choice...but Jack...well...he's Captain Jack Sparrow.