Tom's words for Amy, everything he never told her
Summary :
A short story about how Tom feels after Amy was murdered at the shop. He's at her grave with flowers and talks to her. A nice and emotional Tom saying everything he wanted her to know. PLEASE R&R !
Author : Maryline
Date : October 2004
I translate my French fanfics in English and have pen pals to correct. Thanks very much Kime for correcting this one !
It happened a few days ago but Tom still couldn't sleep. He could never sleep again, he thought. What happened was so horrible, plus he was there and couldn't do anything to save the one he loved. Amy. That was her name. They were searching to buy something to eat in that shop and that guy came. He was armed and wanted the money. He threatened Tom with his gun and Amy came from a department shop. She had food in her arms and didn't see the guy. She didn't know what was happening until she said "Tom" asking to know where he was in the shop. She then realized what was going on and the guy turned back. He shot her, she felt on the ground and Tom yelled "Amy". Then the guy kept pointing his gun at Tom and Tom couldn't do anything but watch his dead motionless girlfriend lying on the ground, bleeding to death. Once the guy had the money he left the shop. This was the last time Tom saw Amy.
He knew he could never sleep again. He watched the tape from the security camera again and again and noticed he had 3.3 seconds to take his gun and shoot the guy but he was paralyzed and couldn't move. Since that tragedy happened he never stopped thinking he could have saved her.
He was sat on his bed watching the tape once again. It was 4:22 in the morning and couldn't sleep. He hadn't shut his eyes since that night even though he caught the guy the next day. He was always watching that tape thinking about what would of been possible in those 3.3 seconds.
"Man, you can do so many things, open so many bottles, take off your clothes… in 3.3 seconds" he told to himself. "I should have done something ! Why didn't I move ?". He looked at himself and decided to have a shower. "I could have saved her and now she's gone… f o r e v e r ! That's crazy. This place is making me sick".
After taking a hot shower he put some new clothes on and decided to go to Amy's grave.
He had bought flowers. He put down the flowers on the grave and took a look at Amy's picture above the grave.
"She was so nice, so innocent… she didn't deserve that !".
Tears began coming in his eyes as he fell down on his knees. He wanted to tell her everything he never he had never had the chance to say, when she was alive.
Amy I loved you so much
You were the smile on my face
The light on my way
My reason to live
We were so good together, so happy
I never knew someone like you before
You're the only one I really loved
The only one
I wish I told you that before
When you were here with me
Now that you're gone I'm sad
More sad than I ever been
You, my little bird are gone
I'll never see you again
I have no words to say
I loved you so much
You were the only one in my heart
Now you're gone
But my heart will always be beating for you
I'll never forget you
You were so special
So unique
No one will ever be like you
If only I told you that before
Now that you're gone I don't know what to do
I'm not happy anymore
I have no reason to smile, no reason to laugh
You always made me smile
Remember that night at the cinema when we were both making fun of Penhall
Who had a hole in his jean
I have so many good memories of you
But I know that I will never have any new ones anymore
Tears began coming out of his eyes as he was speaking to Amy. He had never opened his heart that way before. He was so sad he never told her about his feelings before. Of course she knew how much he loved her but he wished he told her.
He took a deep breath and continued to talk to her.
Look at me
I'm here in the middle of the night
Talking to you
Isn't it funny ?
I couldn't sleep
I haven't been able to close my eyes since that day and I never will be able to
In my heart
You will be the only one in my heart
I loved you so much
Amy you were everything to me
I wish I told you before
Now it's too late
But I wanted you to know how much I cared for you
You were my little bird
The most important person in my life
The only one
When I think about all the good moments we shared together
I wonder how I will live without you
I'm not strong enough
You were strong, but I'm not
I lost my shining star, my darling, my little bird, my treasure
You were everything that mattered and now you're gone
What am I going to do without you
Life will never be the same
I don't know how I can handle this
I lost the most important thing in my life
I'm not used to this
Now that you're gone I won't be able to smile again
I could never love again
My heart will beat for you till my dying day
You are and will always be the only one
Amy may you rest in peace
I'll never forget you !
Tom
He cried more and touched Amy's picture above the grave and the way she was smiling on that picture. He looked at his flowers and stood up. He prayed and left.
"I'll be back soon, I promise !"
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