LIFE DOESN'T ALWAYS GO MY WAY!

Disclaimer: I own Libby, Erin, and Candace. That's it. I think. Maybe the plot. I don't know... Don't sue! It won't do you any good anyways!

Summary: Life isn't always going to be easy and 17 year old Lily Evans knows that. But she never expected it to be like this. She didn't just one day say "Gee, I think I'll fall in love tomorrow." It just happened. And Lily's starting to find that Life doesn't always go her way but sometimes really good friends make it easier.

A/N: I'm not sure how long this'll be.....probably only a few chapters but I'm not sure.

Do you have any clue what it's like to fall in love with one of your friends? Or even worse, on of your *best* friends? Or do you know what it's like to not know whether to smile or frown? You want to smile because the person you love more than anything is right next to you and you want to frown because you know they don't love you and probably never will.

And then, even if things *did* take a turn for the best and he said he loved you and asked you out, you couldn't say yes. Why? Don't worry, I have my reason. That reason is a person, Libby.

Libby Mitchells, my absolutely "bestest" friend in the whole wide world. That what we call each other, we've been best friends since forever. She's muggleborn, like me, but her younger sister is a witch too. The three of us, Libby, Erin, and me, we grew up together. Erin is only a year younger than we are so she's with us a lot. Being best friends with someone since you were three, when you're now 17, is a long time and you wouldn't do anything to hurt that person or it'd kinda be hurting yourself. So that's my reason, I can't hurt her. How would this be hurting her? Let's put it this way, I've fallen head-over-heals in love with James Potter and so has she.

I haven't always loved him mind you. In fact, I used to hate him, kinda, for a few days. See James he's rich, ok so I lied. James potter isn't rich, he's more than rich. Anyway, when I first heard that I though "OH great! A snobby rich kid". Not that I have anything against rich people. I mean my family isn't exactly driving in the car headed south to the poor house. But at my fathers' business parties there was *always* some snobby, self-centered, stuck up rich person. So, I had decided I hated James Potter. And by the third day of classes, James was "Mr. Popular" and had the best marks in out year, next to me anyways. Not to be conceded, but I wasn't exactly un-popular either.

So my friends and his friends (Libby, Arabella Figg, Candace Jackson, and in second year Erin, Sirius Black, Remus Lupin, and Peter Pettigrew) hung around each other and became "best friends" James and I were stuck together. So after about a week our "hate" was a "friendly competition" and that "friendly competition" turned into us being almost best friends. So he *is* my best "guy" friends.

It wasn't until the middle of sixth year that Libby decided she like him. At that time, I like the idea, my tow best friends together, who wouldn't like the idea? I'm not exactly sure when I stated loving him, as more than a friend. But it was somewhere between sixth and seventh year. I'm guessing it was when we all went to James' house for the summer Le me re-phrase that. When we went to James' Mansion for the summer. James doesn't have a house, a mansion sure, not a house. There was only two weeks of vacation left when we went. Erin, Libby, and I had stayed at Arabella's along with Candace the night before. We were planning on flooing to James' MANSION. Yes, I said flooing. See the eight of us, we're witches and wizards and we all attend Hogwarts School of Witchcraft and Wizardry. We're all in Gryffindor house too. Just to clear that up for you. Anyways, it was about noon. When James sees me for the first time in awhile, like summer vacation, he always gives me this huge hug and picks me up and spins me around. A lot of people think we're going out, of course we always thought the idea was funny. Yes, that was the day I fell in love with him. When we got out of the fireplace I saw him, his messy jet-black hair and sapphire blue eyes. My knees buckled, I thought it was from using floo powder but it wasn't and when he picked me up, my heart felt all weird.

I didn't exactly realize it until a few days later. I must have looked worried or something that night because everyone was asking if I was ok.

"Lils?"

"Yeah?"

"You ok?"

Yeah Lib, why wouldn't I be?"

"Dunno, you just don't look like you"

"Mmm, I'm fine, just thinkin' I suppose."

"Ok, are you sure though?"

"Yep! I'm fine."

"Good."

I smiled at Libby and she smiled back.

When James and I found out that we'd be head boy and girl together he picked me up and spun me again. And my heart felt all warm and stuff again, it *always* did when he touched me.

It wasn't long before we were at Kingscross Station waiting to board the train. It was there that Amos Diggory stopped me. He was a seventh year along with me but he was a Hufflepuff. I had liked him last year and I thought I still had. but when I saw him, I just wanted to get on the train, I didn't really care. I told everyone to go, but Libby said she'd wait for me.

"Lily, I was just wondering if maybe you'd want to go to Hogsmeade with me sometime?"

Wow! Whatever I'd expected him to say, it wasn't that.

"Um. You know what Amos? I don't thinks so, sorry" I turned him down as nicely as I could but I was just surprised. I hadn't expected that. If he would've asked that last year I would have been jumping up and down right now. I turned around and saw Libby. She looked just as surprised.

"Lily! Why'd you say no?"

" I don't know, I didn't want to I guess."

"Why?" She asked, sliding the compartment door open.

"Why what?" Asked Sirius

I started so say "Nothing" but Libby decided they needed to know.

"AMOS DIGGORY ASKED HER OUT!" She screamed.

It could've been my imagination but James seemed to be paying a little more attention than before.

"What! Really?" Screamed Bella and Candy. Those are our nicknames for them.

"Yep" I said

"You said yes, right?" Asked Bella.

I thought James looked a tad worried, he knew I had like him. Maybe.... No, he doesn't like me, besides what about Libby, I thought to myself.

"No, actually I said no"

James looked relieved, maybe he did. Oh! Who am I kidding? He hadn't ever like Amos anyway.

"Why?" Asked Candy

"Dunno, didn't want to." They dropped the subject.

Not a whole lot happened after that. Things were pretty normal. I had decided that maybe my love for James would go away, it didn't. September passed quickly and so did October. Dumbledore had told James and I that we would have to plan the Christmas Ball this year and the "end of the year ball". It was going to be one of the last year that Hogwarts would have them, with the Dark Lord Voldemort rising it wasn't exactly safe to have them. He was especially feared now, he had been for quite a few year. The balls had started not that long ago, they hadn't had them before. But as the Dark Lord was gaining power, Dumbledore decided to have some fun for the students, but now it was starting to get dangerous.

James and I were stating to spend even more time together. Libby and I were spending quite a lot of time together too. Actually, we were all spending more time together. James, Sirius, Remus, and Peter had always been best friends. James and Sirius had met when they were like 5 and were both troublemakers and they got along well. They had met Remus at a Christmas Party when they were 8 and Peter they met when they were 10. They met him in Diagon Alley. Libby and I had met, like I said, when we were three and we met Candy and Bella at Hogwarts. The eight of us got along well and became best friends. But there were still some that didn't know a lot about each other. But now we've been spending so much time together we know each other practically inside and out. But no one knew I loved James like I do. Well, so I didn't think. Libby and James were going out now, and I was happy for her, she loved him *almost* as much as I do. So anyways, they'd been spending a lot of time together to.

One day in November, I was up in the dormitory, I had come up to get a book and Libby had followed me. I didn't notice. I was about to leave when she came in. She walked over to my bed and sat on it sitting "Indian" style. I knew she wanted to talk so I sat down by her.

"You love him, don't you?" she asked quietly.

"Who?"

"James"

"I--" but she cut me off.

"You two would make a cute couple. You should ask him out."

"Libby! Number one, you *know* I never ask *anyone* out and besides what about you?"

"Lily, your my bestest friend in the whole wide world, and I want you to be happy"

"But Libby, I couldn't do that to you! You've liked him longer anyways *and* he's your boyfriend"

"Yeah, sure, but Lils, I don't *love* him. --" That was a lie, I knew she did, but I wasn't going to say it.

I opened my mouth to talk but she cut me off again. "No Lily, I don't *think* you love him, I know you love him." She knew I was going to ask "And you think I do?" before I even asked. Libby and I had known each other so long that we could do that.

"And so, " she continued "I'm "giving" him up, if he ever asks you out, I want you to say yes. Don't worry about me."

"Libby I can't, besides he doesn't like me like that"

"You can, and I've seen the way he looks at you, it's like the way you look at him. So I want you to promise that you'll say yes if he asks you out."

"Libby!! Don't do this! I know you love him!" I didn't want to take drastic measures and say this, but I couldn't stand her giving this up, for me.

She shrugged "Maybe. But Still. Not like you do."

Does your best friend lie as much as mine does?? Ok... Maybe she's not exactly *lying* she *is* doing it for me.

"Promise me Lily!! Please?!"

"I can't...You can't do this! Not for me!"

"It's what best friends do. Please Lily, I want you to have him, you love him, he loves you! Promise! Please.

I started crying. "I promise but you have to promise me too, if he ever asks you out again.. Then you have to say yes too."

"Nope" she grinned through her tears. I don't like him anymore" She did, but she was doing this for me. "Besides, he'll have the girl of his dreams now" I hugged her.

"You're the best Libby! I love you, you know, as a friend"

"I know I'm the best" we were still hugging but I knew she had that grin on her face again " and so are you. I love you too."

A/N: Please review...the more reviews I get the sooner I write....probably....anyways...the friendship between Lily and Libby is kinda based on me and my best friend. Kinda... We've known each other since forever and stuff...anyways.....see that pretty button?? CLICK IT! Please?