-Scared-

By: -Mikayel

Disclaimer: i don't own Naruto…i just love the characters so please understand me if i borrowed them for my story

I stood in front of your gravestone solemnly, it wasn't the first time though, i'm always here since the day they buried you six feet under. Hinata must have been here for the fresh flowers that were placed near your name, the guiltiness must still live in her heart.

I didn't use to hate you, but i did now, for all the reasons why i do is because you died, you died right before my eyes, i wish i wasn't there so that it wouldn't hurt like this, it wasn't fair right? Life is not fair especially to me, i had no one, no one in particular, no one since i met you, lee and guy-sensie and also the other's, but you beside me was different, my life with you is bright if that's what they call it.

I know you can leave me just like that, but at that time i wasn't prepared, everyone didn't even consider that someone like you would die in a battle just like that, you were a genius and you were strong right? i always know that, you can leave me just like that and you did, you actually did, i didn't know why but i feel that you took everything i have and i am with you the day you closed your white dazzling eyes, you can want me or love me for who i am, but you wouldn't and would never do that because i know that you already have a special someone in your heart.

I hate you because i know i'm not gonna see you again, i'm not gonna see you today, tomorrow, the next day, for a month and for the coming years…you're not gonna be here. I'm scared knowing i can't get through with just the thought of that. I'm worried because i might forget these feelings, and for that i'm scared to death .You are a thief even from the beginning, you stole my heart but you didn't even look on what's inside, i'm a fool because i just let you have it without showing you what i feel.

Getting over? Forgetting? I forbid those thoughts on my mind, i just can't and i don't want to forget someone who holds my heart even if he's already gone, away, six feet under.

I'm not that strong but you were there when i need you, when i need someone to protect me, but who's gonna do that from now on? No one…

I'm not pretty like other girls for you to like…but what am i to you Hyuuga Neji? Just what am i to you?

Do you know that the more i try to forget you, is the more you get imprinted deep in my heart? It hurts inside my chest that i want to scream like no one screamed before everytime i visit this gravestone? Your gravestone?

I stood here solemnly in front of you, can you see me? See how broken, exhausted, lifeles i was?

I know that it's no use for me to cry, i've already used up all my tears on you and I just learned that countless tears won't ever bring you back.

End.