A/N: So this is my first slash story all my own. So I don't really know why I wrote this but I did. I'm thinking about making this part of a series being (obviously) the first installment. The series is called All The Good Things In Life Are Free. So read on , review and enjoy!

Disclaimer: I own nothing. If I did, I wouldn't be here writing stories about this stuff.

When It Was Me

She's got green eyes
And she's 5'5"
Long brown hair all down her back
Cadillac truck
So the hell what?
What's so special about that?
She used to model
She's done some acting
So she weighs a buck o' 5
And I guess that she's alright
If perfection's what you like
Ooh, ooh, and I'm not jealous, no I'm not
Ooh, ooh, I just want everything she's got
Ooh, ooh, you look at her so amazed
I remember way back when you used to look at me that way

He's got blue eyes. He's 6'3". He weighs 235 pounds. He's got fancy cars and a lot of other crap money can buy. So the fuck what? Why is he so special? He's got a rich and famous father and grandfather. He was in a movie. But, I mean, I guess he's okay. If you like flawless people. I'm not jealous. Really, I'm not. I just want everything he has. When I see you look at him, I see admiration and love in your eyes. Amazement, even. But that's not right. It's not fair. You used to look at me like that. Babe, where did we go wrong?

Tell me what makes her so much better than me?
(so much better than me)
What makes her just everything I can never be?
What makes her your every dream and fantasy?
Because I can remember when it was me

Why him?Why did you choose him over me? How am I flawed to you? I promise if you tell me, I'll fix it. What did I do wrong? I promise, I'll make it up to you. I'll do anything. What happened to me being all you dreamt about, all you fantasized about? It used to be that way. I was the one. Not him. Me! What...

And now you don't feel the same
I remember you would shiver everytime I said your name
You said nothing felt as good as when you gaze into my eyes
Now you don't care I'm alive
How did we let the fire die?

So I'm still hopelessly in love with you. I don't know how to stop it. But you don't feel like I do. At least, not anymore. Did you at all? I don't know. I guess I'll never know. You don't talk to me. You don't even look my way. It's like I'm not alive. Like we never fell in love, never even met. I felt the passion. OUR passion. How did that fade? How did we let our love burn out? Baby, please. Please.

Ooh, ooh, and I'm not jealous, no I'm not
Ooh, ooh, I just want everything she's got
Ooh, ooh, you look at her so amazed
I remember way back when you used to look at me that way

How did he make you fall in love with him? How did you fall out of love with me? I'm not jealous. No, not of him. But he's got everything I want. You. And you look at him like he saved you from destruction, like he's a God. You looked at me like that, once. I remember. God, how could I forget? I used to get so turned on, knowing how high you held me. I felt so loved. Now all I feel is cold, empty. I have an ache that has taken up residence in my chest. Why, baby, why?

What makes her so much better than me (so much better than me)
What makes her just everything I can never be
What makes her your every dream and fantasy
Because I can remember when it was me

Why is he so great? Why not me? I know we're different. Very different. But what makes him the one? What makes him all you've ever wanted?You told me that I was all you ever wanted. What happened to that guy? The one I fell for? The one who fell for me? Why... How did you change so much?

That made you smile (me)
That made you laugh (me)
Me that made you happier than you have ever been, oh me
That was your world (me)
Your perfect girl
Nothing about me has changed
That's why I'm here wondering

Remember when I made you smile? I would whisper dirty things in your ear and tease you and you would get so frustrated but couldn't help but smile. Or when I made you laugh? I would say the corniest joke or pick-up line I found online or just thought up and you would crack up? How about when I was your world? We'd make out and just lose sense of thw world around us. When you would drop everything if you though I was hurt? You would get pissed off if someone put a move on me. And I'd laugh and tell you you were my love. The only one for me. My only option. You called me perfect. You said, "Babe, you're perfect. Amazing. The way you care, the love you make to me. Everything, baby. I love you." And then I smiled and we kissed. I didn't change love. But you sure did. Yet, I'm still curious. Why did you stop loving me? What happened to you? To us? Huh?

What makes her so much better than me (what makes her so much better than me)
What makes her just everything I can never be
What makes her your every dream and fantasy
Because I can remember when it was me
What makes her so much better than me (what makes her so much better than me)
What makes her just everything I can never be
What makes her your every dream and fantasy
Because I can remember when it was me

Again, I ask, why did you choose him? If you're reading this, you probly didn't save me in time. I'm sorry I loved you. I'm sorry I made your life harder than it had to be. But I'm gone now. You don't have to worry. Now I can leave you alone. Goodbye, Cody Garrett Runnels. I hope you and Ted have a happy life together.

~All my love and life,
Matthew Joseph Korklan 3

When it was me
When it was me
When it was me

Cody sighed as he set the note down. He had, in fact, saved Matt in time. And now, it was time to go see him. Cody took a deep breath, and went to see Matt.

A/N: So? What do you think? Did I do okay? Review and let me know! Also, let me know if you think I should make a sequel.