Hi! This is mys first Kingdom of hearts fanfiction. I hope you enjoy it!

Disclaimer: I don't own Kingdom of hearts or any of its characters they belong to Square Enix.

Warnings: This story contains a malexmale realationship. Also I must warn you that all of my stories are usually overly romantic and full of sweetness.

Pairing: Riku x Sora

Are you really leaving me?

written by Black-servant

After everyone had finally gotten safely back to Destiny Islands things went more or less back to the way they just to be. And after time went on things were getting more and more normal. To many it was like the whole adventure was only a dream which was easy to forget, at least some found it easy to forget. The only ones who still had problems to get used to the peace and everything being the way it used be were Sora and Riku. That was because you always expect something to change after you have gone to an adventure: saved the world twice, almost lost many of your friends and loved ones, being always aware of your surroundings for possible attacks and then of course there was the all consuming darkness that was so near taking everything away from you. Sora and Riku were the ones who had been away the longest time and they had changed the most, especially Riku.

Riku sat on the beach just watching his friends play in the water like they used to do when they were kids. He could clearly hear the laughter and a few distant words from them. He didn't want to join them even though Sora had begged him with his puppy eyes. To Riku the eyes were still hard to resist but he managed because to him childhood was too far away and he knew he couldn't go back to it. He admired how Sora was still able to hold on to his childishness and ability to smile and laugh so brightly. It was something he knew he could never manage but that was one of those many things why he loved Sora. Despite the boys ability to still remain somewhat childish Sora had also changed. He'd become more mature and less innocent and Riku could see it. A sigh escaped the silverette's lips: he really didn't want to be here.

Riku turned his gaze to the opposite direction from the happy event in the water where Kairi was clinging to Sora and they both just looked so happy together. "I know Sora needs me…in some way…to be his best friend. He wouldn't have searched me if he didn't but I don't think that I really can be that to him anymore… It would have been best if he hadn't found me and brought me back here. Every time I see him with Kairi I can feel the jealousy and… the darkness reaching for me. It's just too hard to watch them and be happy for them even when they would deserve it. I'm too selfish to even be happy for my best friend… I would want all of him just for myself… No I mustn't think like that not now…last time that thought took me to the darkness and it will do it again if I let it happen… Riku stared down at the soft sand beneath him. He hated himself of what he did to Sora and for what he made him go trough. The next words in his mind were spoken aloud:

- I just wish you hadn't found me…

- WHAT?!

Came a scared shout from Sora as he had come back to the shore to see how Riku was doing. Riku turned slowly to face him. He hadn't heard the brunet approaching. However he was saved by Kairi running to them and hugging Sora from behind. "My cue" Riku thought:

- I need to go home now, you two have fun.

- Bye Riku!

Kairi exclaimed happily. She was glad that Riku understood that she and Sora wanted some time alone or so she thought. Sora on the other had didn't want his best friend to go. He wanted to know what Riku had meant and he shouted after him:

- WAIT! Riku..

All he got as a response was a small wave of Riku's hand as he continued walking without a second glance behind. "Just trust me this is the best… The last thing I can do for you as your…best friend." Riku didn't let the tears escape from his eyes even when he desperately wanted to run back there and snatch Sora from Kairi, kiss him senseless and beg him to be his. "But that's not reality." Riku had made up his mind after two months of being back in the island he had to leave there as soon as he could.

Sora watched his best friend leaving and was ready to cry. He wanted to run after him but thanks to Kairi and the fact that he was paralysed because of his thoughts he couldn't. "Riku…What can I do? I haven't seen you smile truly even once after we got back… I missed you and searched for you and now it's like you are again slipping farther away from me… I don't want it… Riku, please I can't live without you… I love you…" Now the tears had found their way to the keyblade master's cheeks and a broken sob escaped from his lips. He felt so broken and helpless. Kairi was startled by this and he tried to soothe him while gently leading him to her house which was quite near the beach. As Kairi tried his best to comfort Sora elsewhere another teen who was just as broken or if that was even possible more broken than he was. The teen was backing what little he thought he needed so he could leave this island forever.

Thank you so much for reading!

Love, Black