Me... again... haha.
I bet people are getting sick of seeing my name on the 'Kai' or 'Tala'... or 'Kai and Tala' pages...
But I'm sorry.
I keep getting hit by god damn plot bunnies!
This one isn't even that long, alright?
Disclaimer: I don't own Kai or Tala, even though neither are mentioned in this story by name XD
Warnings:Sexual mentionings, numbness... (quite literally)
We fuck each other every so often. I fuck him and he fucks me. I enjoy it when I fuck him. I always get a starry orgasm. I know he loves it when I hit the right spot inside him over and over again. It makes me happy knowing I can make him feel amazing. I get even harder when I know I make him feel euphoric.
The only problem is, I feel nothing when he fucks me. I feel absolutely nothing and it terrifies me, it makes me die a little every time, because I know that I'm able to make him feel good, but when he puts all the effort into making me feel good, I just feel nothing. Even when he pounds my prostate til its swollen, I feel numb. I just can't enjoy it. It feels as if a stick would be shoved inside me every time and no pleasure would come out of it as it should. Is there something wrong with me? Because there can't be anything wrong with him, my perfect Russian.
I hate pretending to reach an orgasm while he's fucking me. I hate faking moans of pleasure to make him continue to reach his climax. I hate lying to him about how much I love it, when I don't. It hurts whenever I lie, but I only do it to make him feel better about himself and making him think I feel good. I feel so sorry for him.
At first I thought it was normal to feel numb, a bit sore and stretched and it'd start to feel better after few tries, but it didn't. The only reason I let him do it to me is for him to feel the luxury of sex. I want him to experience what I do when I'm inside him, feeling his tight heat around me. But it feels awful when I have to pretend that I like it. I don't know how to tell him about it. This has been going on for so long. So long I'm afraid it's been too long to tell him.
Can I say that I feel slightly sad after writing this?
Cause I seriously do.
I don't wish fr this to happen to any loving couple out there.
Especially if the one that is numb loves the other so fucking much.
Could you imagine the others face if the numb one told them they felt nothing?
Oh gosh.
How heartbreaking that would be!
Okay, enough sadness.
This was a one-shot from either Kai or Tala's point-of-view.
But just because it's listed under 'Kai' and 'Tala', doesn't mean that it's just for that particular pairing.
This can be used as any pairing, may it be Canon/Canon, OC/OC, OC/Canon.
So there we go, another, slightly sad, one-shot from one; Tiiyke!
R&R please? :)
Merci, au revoir.