I do not own any of the
characters in this story. It deals with suicide, so if you don't like to
talk about that issue, I would advise that you don't read it.
Keep on
Living
By: Emily
As the girl watched the rain
gently hitting her window, tears that had been threatening to fall all day
started. She turned away from the window, tears gently rolling down her
cheeks. She didn't make a move to brush them away, as she sat down in the
middle of her floor. A slight smile crossed her face as she looked at the
photo album in front of her, showing all of the good times that she had with her
friends. Herself, Trini, and Jason, laughing as they tried to disentangle
themselves from each other. Another showed her and Billy, with Billy
looking a little uncomfortable. As she flipped the pages of the album, her
smile disappeared.
"But those are just
memories. Things in the past, not now." she whispered, closing the photo
album and laying next to her. As she picked up the stuffed animal next to
her, closing her eyes and remembering who had given it to her, a familiar song
came onto the radio. She turned towards the radio and sighed, listening to
the words
Do you still
remember, how we used to be
Feeling together,
believe in whatever
My love has said to
me
Both of us were
dreamers
Young love in the
sun
Felt like my
Saviour, my spirit I gave to you
We'd only just
begun
Hasta Manana, Always
be mine
I miss them, she
thought, the words causing her to remember her lost boyfriend.
Including him. He was so sweet, not just to me, but to everyone.
And now he's gone. Just like the rest of them.
Viva Forever, I'll
be waiting
Everlasting, like
the sun
Live Forever, for
the moment
Ever searching for
the sun
Yes I still
remember, every whispered word
The touch of your
skin, giving life from within
Like a love song
that I'd heard
Slipping through our
fingers, like the sands of time
Promises made, every
memory saved
Has reflections in
my mind
Hasta Manana, Always
be mine
But the memories aren't
enough. And it's too late for me. They've all forgotten about
me. She sighed as she put down the stuffed animal and walked over to
her desk. Opening up the drawer, she pulled a small vile out. She
closed the desk drawer and walked back by her memories.
Viva forever, I'll
be waiting
Everlasting, like
the sun
Live Forever, for
the moment
Ever searching for
the sun
But we're alone now,
was it just a dream
Feelings untold,
they will never be sold
And the secret's
safe with me
Hasta Manana, Always
be mine
Goodbye my friends, if you even remember
me. Keep living on, cherishing everything that you do. I
can't. With that final thought, she put the vile up to her lips and
drank it. As the poison began to take effect, she could hear the song
fading out. She fell to the ground, her spirit flying free.
Viva Forever, I'll be
waiting
Everlasting, like the
sun
Live forever, for the
moment
Ever searching for the
sun
As the song ended, footsteps could be heard
stopping in front of the door. As the door opened, a gymnast walked in,
her arms full of equipment.
"C'mon, Kim. Coach wants us
to...." The sentence died off as she saw Kim lying on the ground.
Her eyes widened as she saw the empty vile next to Kim.
"KIM!" she screamed, her voice full of
fear. Dropping everything in her arms, she ran over to Kim, frantically
checking for a pulse. Finding none, she began to scream out for
help. As soon as her screams started, footsteps pounded down the hall,
screeching to a stop in front of the room. Coach Monroe ran in, and seeing
Kim laying on the ground, ran over to the phone. As the girl began to give
CPR to Kim, everyone in the room began to pray that she would be
alright.
******
The Next Day
"How did you do on the Calculus test
yesterday, Kat?" Tanya Sloane asked as she, Katherine Hilliard, and Billy
Cranston sat at a table in the Youth Center, finishing homework. Kat
looked up and sighed.
"I don't think I did to well. I don't
understand any of it." she said. Billy looked over at her.
"If you don't understand it, I can help you."
he offered. Kat gave him a grateful smile as she started putting her
things back.
"Thanks, Billy. I would really
appreciate it." she said. As she stood up, Rocky DeSantos walked over, out
of breathe.
"Hey, does anyone know if the Yankees won
yesterday? I didn't have time to check this morning." As Kat and Tanya
shook their heads, Billy picked his bag up and pulled a newspaper out. As
the three of them looked at him with surprised looked, he shrugged.
"I didn't have time to check it this morning,
so I brought it with me." he explained. As he opened up the paper to look
for the sports, an article caught Kat's eye.
"Hey, wait a minute. There's an article
about a gymnast on the front page." she said. As she took the paper from
Billy, her eyes widened as she saw the title. Rocky looked at
her.
"What does it say?" he asked. Kat took a
deep breathe as she read the title.
"Gymnast found dead in dorm." she said.
Billy looked at her in shock as she looked up.
"What does it say? I wonder if Kim knew
them?" he asked. Kat shrugged her shoulders as she started to read the
article.
"Early yesterday morning, a young gymnast was
found dead in her Florida dorm. From the evidence collected, it appeared
that the girl committed suicide, poisoning herself. The victim, recognized
as-" Kat abruptly cut off the sentence as she read over the next sentence in her
mind. As everyone looked at her expectantly, she took a deep
breathe.
"Kimberly Anne Harte."
******
At the same time that morning, a young man was
just getting out of bed. He slowly walked over to the refrigerator and
grabbed the milk. Making himself a bowl of cereal, he turned on the
television. As the news came on, Tommy Oliver watched it, while
eating.
"We have some tragic news this morning," the
newscaster said. "Yesterday morning, a young gymnast was found dead in her
dorm room." Tommy, upon hearing the word gymnast, looked up
immediately. What he saw next gave him the shock of his life.
"The victim, show here in this picture, just
recently...." The rest of what the newscaster said was unheard, though, as
Tommy stared at the picture of the girl in shock. He recognized the
smiling face, the flowing hair, the sparkle in her eye.
"Kim," he whispered hoarsely. He ran
over and shut the TV off, hoping that his eyes were playing a trick on
him. He ran over to where the newspaper was and saw the article that the
others had seen. He fell back into his chair, the blood draining out of
his face. From the front of the house, the doorbell rang. Tommy just
sat in the chair, not paying any attention to the doorbell. The door
opened and Kat, Billy, Tanya, Rocky, Adam Park, and Jason Scott walked in.
They made their way to the kitchen, and froze when they saw Tommy sitting there,
his face pale.
"Tommy?" Kat asked quietly. Tommy turned
to them, tears shining in his eyes. As he looked into his friends eyes, he
saw that, there's too, were filled with unshed tears. Suddenly, as if
pulled together with a magnet, the seven teens joined together into a giant
group hug, sobbing for their lost friend.
******
I can't believe this, thought Adam
miserably. I'm actually at the funeral of one of my closest
friends. As he looked around, he saw that others were having a
hard time trying to compose themselves. As he saw both of Kim's parents,
his heart went out to them. Her mother was sitting in a chair, weeping, as
her ex-husband stood close by. Even though he looked more composed, the
life in his eyes was gone.
I can't believe how many people that she
touched, he thought. He was shocked at the amount of people that had
shown up. Everyone of them was on the verge of crying, if they weren't
already. As everyone began to take their seats, Kimberly's parents came up
to the podium. They thanked everyone for coming. One by one, people
began to go up and told them how Kimberly had touched their lives. As
Tommy started to come up, a hush went over everyone, as the remembered how close
the two of them had been.
"As most of you know, Kim and I were very
close and she helped me through hard times. In one of the worst ones, she
wrote a song for me. She gave me a tape of the song, and I'd like to play
it for you." Tommy turned to Rocky and nodded. Rocky stood up and
brought over a tape player. Tommy pressed play, and soon the room was
filled with a familiar beat.
"Down the road we never
know
What life may have in
store
Winds of change will
rearrange
Our lives more than before.
But you'll never stand alone, my
friend
Memories never die
In out hearts they'll always
live
And never say
good-bye."
As the words ended, many people began to cry
as they listened to the sound of Kimberly's voice, knowing fully that they would
never hear it again. As he looked into the crying crowd, all of the
self-composure that Tommy had managed broke down. Kat was the first to
come over to him, trying to comfort him while she was crying as well.
Soon, the rest of the rangers, former and current, were all enclosed in a giant
group hug, crying for their departed friend.
******
A few days later, all of the rangers were in
the park, waiting for Tommy to arrive. While none of them had a smile on
their faces, they were learning to live.
"I see that you all could make it,"
Everyone turned around and saw Tommy slowly making his way over to them, his
shoulders hunched over. Kat stood up and walked over to him, gently laying
her hand on his shoulder. He looked at her, a slight smile on his
face. The two of them walked over, and sat on the ground close to everyone
else.
"You're probably wondering why I called you
here." said Tommy. As everyone nodded, he took a deep breathe and pulled
an envelope out of a
"Yesterday, I was looking through the mail,
not really paying attention to them, when one of them caught my eye. It
was postmarked from Florida." As everyone looked at each other with wide
eyes, Tommy opened the envelope and pulled out a letter. "I opened it, and
found a letter from one of the people that she had met in Florida."
"What does it say Tommy?" asked Adam.
Tommy took a deep breathe and unfolded the letter.
"To Whom in concerns,
Hello, even though I can't tell you my name, I was a friend of Kimberly's
down here in Florida. She always talked about everything that she had done
with you. She enjoyed everything that she did and the time she had with
you. She loved all of you, some like sisters and brothers and other a
little more.
When she first came to Florida, she had a hard time fitting in, mostly because
of how the other gymnast treated her. They were jealous of her ability and
they tried to make her feel unwanted. But she braved through it and she
seemed to be genuinely enjoying herself.
No one ever suspected that she was planning on suicide. She seemed a
little sad, and we thought it was because of her recent trip to Angel
Grove. We all thought she was upset about her ex-boyfriend, but we realize
now, now that it's too late, that is was more than
that.
I'm just writing this letter to you to tell you how much all of you meant to
her. Even though you are all upset and confused about it, she would want
you all to keep on living. That's the kind of person she was. Always
remember her. She would want you to.
Sincerely,
A
friend."
As Tommy put the
letter down, everyone began to wipe away the tears that had filled their
eyes. Kat hugged Tommy, as she saw the tears in her eyes. He pulled
away, and Kat looked up at him, pain in her own eyes.
"As I read this
letter, I realized that it sounded familiar. Just with the way it was
written. Then I realized it." He held the letter out, giving
everyone a look at it. At the writing. Billy was the first to
realize it. Tears began to fall even harder as he recognized the
writing. One by one, the rangers recognized the writing, causing their
sorrow to grow.
"This is her final
good-bye to us, and I think that we should respect her wish. That we live
on." With that, Tommy stood up and walked away, leaving everyone to watch
him in shock. Kat stood up.
"He's right.
We have to live on, and always remember Kim." she whispered. She turned
around and followed Tommy. One by one, the rangers stood up and followed
the others, a start of a smile on each of their faces. Soon, no one was
left but Billy. He looked down at the note, his heart
heavy.
I should have
told her how I feel about her! Now it's too late. She's gone.
Billy though sadly, he began to walk away, nothing but sadness filling his
heart.
It's never too
late. Billy turned around as he heard the voice and his mouth dropped
open. Leaning against the tree in front of him, was none other than
Kim. Her hair was freely flowing down her shoulders. She was wearing
a short white dress and she didn't have any shoes on. She walked over to
him and gently put her hand on his shoulder, a smile on his
face.
It's never to
late to tell me how you feel. I'll always be here to listen to you.
She sighed as she pulled Billy down. They sat down on the
grass. She turned towards him, her eyes smiling.
I know that it's
too late for us, but you deserve to know why I did it. Why I gave
up. He nodded his head. She sighed and looked
down. Ever since I went to Florida, I've been trying desperately to
keep in touch with all of you. I wrote letter after letter, but no one
ever answered me. No visit, no letter, not even a phone call from
anyone. I felt like no one cared anymore.
"Kim, you know that
we loved you, and I know that we should have kept in touch. But that
doesn't mean that you had to give up!" Billy
whispered.
I know.
But, that's not the only reason. A couple weeks ago I went to the doctor
to get a physical, because I had been making mistakes, ones that I shouldn't
have made. They called me back and told me that I had a brain tumor.
The doctor's couldn't do anything for me. I knew that when I died, I
wouldn't even look like this. I couldn't live with it, Billy. I know
I took the wrong way out, but it's too late to fix it. Billy looked
at her, tears running down his cheeks. Kim leaned forward and hugged
him.
I have to go,
Billy. Make sure everyone keeps living. And I wish you and Cestria
the best of luck. She leaned forward and kissed him before
disappearing. Billy opened his eyes and found that he was alone in the
park. He stood up, the beginning of a genuine smile on his face. As
he walked away, the letter that all of them had forgotten about, fluttered
away. It floated through the park, landing in the middle of the
lake. It slowly started to sink, the ink on the page running off, making
the letter unreadable.
The
End.
