Heartlet here. I got really depressed the other day and decided to write one thing, because I think it was depressing. Yeahh. merf.
Look at them. Being all happy together. No matter how hard I try to look happy or not cry, I end up being depressed. Yes I pair them up, cause they belong to each other. Don't get me wrong! I love Lucy! She's like one of my best friends. I try to not have a crush on Natsu anymore but I can't! I just can't... I even asked the whole guild who they pair Natsu up with. They said Lucy of course. I smiled and nodded in agreement too. But deep inside I was crying. Crying that it's ever going to happen between us. Mira-Nee comforts me when I feel sad. She rubs my back in a motherly way. She too pairs them. But let's just face it. I belong with no one right now. But later in the future I will see the man that was meant for me! It's just not Natsu. Everyday I think that my crush on him is fading away. But once he does something cute that crush grows again. Yeah, sometimes I feel selfish for this though. And sometimes I feel like a bitch. I hate this feeling, this feeling of depression. It breaks my heart. I even thought about committing suicide, but I shook my head thinking that that was EXTREMELY selfish of me. Now I'm here... watching them be happy, love each other, tease each other, hug each other. Now... I just need to concentrate on crushing on someone else. Maybe I'll take time away from Fairy Tail. Like about three weeks. I can't do that to my friends or siblings though. But I need this.
Lucy looked at me, "Eh? Lisanna? Are you okay?"
I looked at her with a fake smile, "Yup! I'm fine!" I got up and started to walk towards the door.
"Eh? Where are you going Lisanna?" Natsu asked.
"Out."
They shrugged and continued with their lives. Little did they know a single tear ran down my cheek. Mira-nee saw this but continued with her job. Thanks Mira-nee. Thanks for understanding.
Yeaaaaaaah. No words.
Ja-Ne~ Bai~
-Heartlet