Fallen Petals, Broken Stem
Chapter One Pain Of A Fallen Miko
By Inuyashas Youkai
' I am sorry I decided to leave and stay with Kikyo'
' I am leaving you'
' Stay with Kikyo'
' I am sorry '
Fragments of that simple statement kept echoing themselves like a chanting mantra ,each time one ended another began and with that it was consuming the very heart until it was completely crushed into fine sand .Like a fire without a purpose or will only to devour everything in its path,and when nothing is left but the chilling smoke finding its direction within the gusts of wind .Those words still haven's left the woman side, still intent with haunting her ,even when her heart was no more,her soul remains lost, as the very thing she swore would happen ,did,and by the tears that streamed down her puffy red eyes proved her sorrow.
' I...Kagome,I decided to stay with Kikyo .I am sorry ,Kagome'
Those eyes ,the mysterious amber eyes that seem to speak to her without words of the secrets of the hanyou she loved ,the one that she preyed would chose to stay by her side,and this time she felt like everything was suddenly closed of to her. While his hair blew with the wind's breeze as his eyes bore into hers with a blank stare when he cut off all connection that she had with him. Everything was now final ,Inuyasha had chosen and like the baby had once told her within her captive with Naraku,its words now bled truth. In the end the hanyou would leave her to be alone ,even if she would have left her world for his,Kagome would be alone.
'The hanyou will leave you for Kikyo,he won't come for you'
The distraut miko didn't return to the camp, where she left to search the hanyous whereabouts when she returned late into the night but a day early,but found that she was drawn to Kikyo's soul sollectors,and to her own desire for punishment led to the scene that would spiral to her demise. This would be her undoing,and because now that he body was left cold, the darkness within her soul grew. The consuming hatred burned her from the inside out like a raging inferno.
'Your only my copy, a substitute ,until I can be with him again'
After that Kagome ran, not caring where she went ,only refused to go back where the one who ripped out her heart, her soul, would find her ,and to get the chance to do it again. Ignoring the voices that were yelling for her to come back that night, she fought against them,and ran away. Kagome didn't feel she was the same anymore ,in truth she wasn't, something snapped inside,and with that wasn't safe for her to be around anyone,anymore. For the rejected miko,didn't want to be found,not yet . That day after the night that her heart went away ,and her soul broken,Kagome was now living in the shadows ,craved it's dark cold, only did she despise who hurt her,she hated everyone,and loathed herself.
' I am not who I once was anymore I hate that person ,I want to become who I am now'
For many nights, she journied alone,pushing every human and demon alike contact away,and firmly constructed walls in place for the purpose of shutting them out ,to keep it that way. No she refused on letting that happen ever again,to feel that rejection, the pain , never again,and even if she had to remain in this place she'd rather live alone, in peace.
Shredding the color to replaced it with to match that of her new life turned dark and grey. Kagome only now wore black and grey,which she tore off and burned the old familar green and white,for a black Haori ,grey undershirt ,and black Hakama pants. It was acquired due to her miko purification duties from a nearby village,which earned her chosen gifts from a local seamstress,and for a job well done. Using a stain used comonly made by dark crimson berries she used to dye her hair .
Within a week ,she had acquired a new bow with arrows,that were enchanted by a Miko,and cursed by a tormented soul of a demon,when traveling without being detected to her time,because she mused they were looking for out looking for her . It was through the ancient artifacts that her grandfather had collected and protected .
'Ha! Protected what a joke but if he had I would never be able to retrive what I need to pull this off. Still stupid trusting people thank goodness for them.'
Ironic the demons soul that cursed the bow actually called to her, sang to her even. During her short stay Kagome explained briefly without all the gory details what had occured,while on her way to retrive something that was somehow pulling her towards it .She wasn't sure what it was but the comfort it promised her was too tempting to resist .It didn't become known to her until she was lead to a locked part of the shrine grounds that were supposed to keep dangerous cursed items away from the wrong hands.
Kagome had closed her eyes and allowed herself to release apart of her aura into the room that served as the hidden item as it's prison. Once the tendrils of her aura briefly touched what was begging for it's escape, Kagome felt the devastion in it's pulse beat like her own some of her aura towards the locks to let the feeling of wanting to smother and destroy bent the lock to her will,and in the end snapped it in half. Walking into the dark ,but dampened, musky room ,the pulse strenthened ,pulling her towards the back shelf where a simple long box lay. With careful , longing fingers grazed it's surface first ,feeling it's desire,and craving to touch it.
Soon the temptation grew to be to much,and her fingers tore open to give sight towards the only thing that would be her conpanion..The S'ounga .The once possessed fang that at one time had been of the Inu Clan. Once her fingers had smoothed their way up the blade she felt no more pain ,actually she felt whole as the hole in her heart was filled with the fangs intent,and it made her deleriously happy.
Closing her eyes with a cursed evil laugh ,Kagome allowed the severed tedrils of her soul join with that of the soul of the demon trapped within its blade,as she took the hilt into her hand,and pairing with hers ,sealing the bond with enormous amounts of Miko power with it. When the connection was made before she replaced it back into it's sheath ,she took the blade and with a steady hand chopped of her hair like it was nothing ,as it fell to the ground once it grazed upon its blade. Then with a pair of chopsticks put it up ,only leaving a curtain of red shielding her eyes and some flowed down to the small of her back.
With her weapons securely fastened to her,Kagome instructed for her grandfather and Mother to seal the well after she had passed through to ensure that nothing could come thru after her. She would find a way back another way,she had too. Because after the war between Naraku and themselves ,Kagome wanted nobody to have the ability to stumble in jewel or no jewel. It become after she passed through,waited for a time before jumping into it to make sure they had in fact closed the well for good. While manically laughing ,Kagome leapt out after a few minutes of pondering,smirking of the fact that everything worked in her favor for once. Taking a minute to admire her success of her quick work at a approved change . Except...
To the right side of her ,a distint sound of footfalls crunching the fall leaves became louder behind her. Without turning and acknowledgeing the identity of the nerwcomer,deep down she didn't care to see anyone. Turning to leave a voice only made her pause only for a moment before strethening her resolve.
"Kagome?"
"I sorry but you have mistaken me for someone else but the one who you are looking for is no more.I saw her enter the well after the attack and I tried to follow her but it didn't let me. Although I can assure you from her injuries she would last much longer.." Kagome turned toward the stange unexpected interuption and faced a small familar fox kit..
" Excuse me Miss um how long ago has it been ?" A tearfull Shippo asked
" Name's Blaze and you are?"
"Shippo.."
"Shippo , the attack was about two days ago ,I was only coming in passing to check on it . I must be off take care Shippo"
" You too ,thankyou" was heard as Kagome fled away not being able to contain being around anything familar to her old life, she now hated.
Once away from the area she at one time new ,Kagome walked towards unknown territory in search for any jewel shards. Running far away before the others caught her, Kagome paused when she caught the sensation of a nearby shard. Racing with her sword in hand into the deep forest to face the pathetic demon that stood in front of her. Closing her eyes to focus ,as the demon within the sword and her miko aura surged forth in their control of her body. Raising up her arm that became the fangs new entrance to its new surrogate home ,in a attack position , Kagome's eyes fluttered open ,before leaping up and unleashing the swords true power,to disengrate the demon holding the jewel.
Walking forth towards the sparkle with the endtrail laden grass to pick up the small delicate shard and then placed it with the others around her neck ,tucking it into her haori. Noticing the blood and stench that came with death , Kagome swiftly turned towards the water source she passed up on the way to bathe. Afterwards she replaced her clean but damp clothes ,returned her hair back so it hid her eyes,cascading blood down her back ,and lastly placed the amber act eyed contacts from the previous halloween in her time.
It was ironically comical of what a few changes would do and with this marked the meeting of a mutual agreement for future favours in trade of joining his side,as Sesshomeru came into her presence. It was something what the Inu Youkai Lord could do to make her disappear from her pack for a time,and only in return was for her to join his court. The youkai lord had come to witness the aura that called his Tenseiga to follow, a familar one that flagged the presence of it's bretheren fang brought back into this world.
It was like a vibrating cry to the Tetseiga and Tenseiga ,one that his Tenseiga answered in a wail ,and pushed him to its ,Sesshomeru wasn't expecting the miko that had once traveled with that of her hanyou brother to possess it when not even a hanyou could. Witnessing its possessors talent in subduing it's controling nature was at the most shocking and that she was able to wield it even more to his disbelief. After seeing it for himself lead him to act, especially sensing the power that was somewhat amplified but bound somehow just under the surface.
It was the only thing requested of her because of her unveiled and unriveled power that was taken and sealed by the evil side of the jewel itself because it feared it. After Sesshomeru and Kagome had traveled to the seal's source and defeated by Sesshomeru himself and letting her full power reign it's worst. But this was after she had demonstrated her power and control over his sword, that he allowed her to continue to use it.
Secondly ,Kagome was able to acquire what was needed to disguise her scent through a clear mixture that sunk into her pores ,and erased it completely. It was usually mixed into her soap or shampoo but also could apply it like a lotion ,that served a second skin like a balm,for it's protective and healing qualities. Before the scent was cleverly covered up Sesshomeru could tell it was Kagome's but with the barrier that closed her off he noticed that her scent differed from that it was before ,and now it was overpowering his senses to the extremes .
Although Kagome still was still very much in control of two demons spirits,and that was mainly convinced him to have her join him. Once the seal had been destroyed, took two weeks to come into his materialized form of the evil side of the jewel and end it but three since she had left her pack .Sesshomeru found himself quietly awed after that,and in exchange for his assistance all he asked of her was that he joined him permantly in his court , as a life long place in the Feudal Era because he somehow knew that she had no intent of leaving and returing to her time. At least not for a very long time..
TBC...