《A/N: Just a little drabble that came to mind when I decided to play my music and this song was up first. It immediately hit me and i felt as if i should write this for Rika.
I promise I'll get to my fic. I just really wanted to write this out, or this idea to write something relating to this song and Rika would just continue to bug me. :p》
(Surrender by The Hurts)
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Broken and exhausted, physically, mentally, and emotionally, I have no more strength left in me, nor the will to keep denying what I've done.
I open my eyes, void from any tears of which I can no longer shed, as if I had emptied all that I can.
The guilt eats away at me.
The faces of all who I cared for staring back at me.
Staring at me
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the monster.
I let my darkness consume so much that i let it blind me.
I allowed it to hurt the ones I claimed to want to save.
I see hurt and hatred amongst them.
Disgust at what I have done.
I dont blame them.
Why should I?
I ... deserve this.
I deserve this.
I say this over to myself
I deserve this.
I turn my eyes away.
I can no longer bear to see their faces, though I know it's what I deserve ... I cant.
I softly tread to the room I was placed in and I close the door.
It's not surprising no one comes after me.
The room is dimly lit.
The curtains still shutting the outside world out.
But ...
I can see a faint beam of light, stretching it's thin arm out as if it were beckoning me.
Hypnotized by the thought, i walk towards it.
I reach out my hand and draw the curtains back.
The sun hits me.
Splashing me in it's radiant rays like waves.
I can feel the warm comfort it provides.
I stare at it, shining in all its glory.
My breath hitches.
A lump forms in my throat.
And I begin to cry.
Falling on my knees, I cry before the sun.
I bow to it's light.
As I let it embrace me, I embrace it.
I let the mighty sun banish the darkness within me and I ...
Surrender
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