Dear Luke,
Although I have never carried it, I know how much the sky weighs: one pound less than the weight of the contents of these letters on my shoulders.
Dear Luke,
You will probably never have the chance to read this. I will probably never have the chance to tell you what they say. You are gone, and I may never go.
Dear Luke,
Everything I say is, and always will be, completely true. I can never voice the words on these papers, but that doesn't make them any less real.
Dear Luke,
I love you. I have always loved you.
Dear Luke,
When I found out that you had changed, I was devastated. I never wanted you to change. I only wanted you to be happy, and now I can see that you never really were.
Dear Luke,
You were evil. You were the most treacherous, deceitful, traitorous creature on earth and yet I still loved you. I didn't want to. I wanted to hate you. But I loved you all the same. It was slowly killing me.
Dear Luke,
I thought that if I joined the Hunters it would ease my pain, as if swearing off boys would make me swear off loving you too. But the pain only became stronger, my position a constant reminder of what I had given up.
Dear Luke,
When Hera's statue fell on me on Olympus, I was not upset. I put on an act. A show, a way to keep myself from crying out in relief that I didn't have to watch Percy kill my one love.
Dear Luke,
When I heard that you killed yourself, I nearly passed out. Suicide. The ultimate act of self-hatred. I don't blame you. If I had done the things you did I would want to die as well. And I understand that you also did it to keep Kronos from coming back. You must be in Elysium. That makes up for what you did, in my eyes.
Dear Luke,
But, of course, I'm biased because I love you.
Dear Luke,
I hope you remember me. I hope that you remember everything that almost was. I hope that you can understand the choices I made, just as I am trying to understand the ones you did.
Dear Luke,
This is my goodbye. I never got to see you off, so I tell you now what I would've told you then: I still love you.