AN: I do not own characters, Dick Wolf does. Sequel to Trust. Happy Sunday!

I guess most people would like to hear my side of the story. Here it goes.

My name is Alexandra Cabot, but you can call me Alex. Well, I am heading to my psychologist's office, to talk. I don't have a problem, but I decided to start going once I was admitted into SVU. Those victims and the crimes. I couldn't deal with it alone.

I entered the building and walked towards the all too familiar room.

I sat on the couch. "Good afternoon, Alex." Dr. Grey stated. He is sitting directly in front of me. "How are you feeling?"

"Ok, I guess." I cross my legs.

He nods, "Well, we left off on Olivia and your relationship with her."

"Yea, she was everything to me. I loved her and she betrayed me…I never knew why we broke up, but we did. I couldn't let go of her. She hurt me…badly. I saw her a couple months later and she was with Abbie. I don't know what came over me. I wanted her to feel the pain that she inflicted on me. So I slept with Abbie…It was hard to do. I had to get Abbie to love me first…I know it was a horrible thing to do. I got over her soon after. I ruined a relationship …" I shift in the chair

"Ok, you told me, while in witness protection you met someone?"

"In witness protection…I did meet someone…It wasn't real. Emily wasn't me...I was so happy when I could be called Alex once again...but I was talking about a trial I had to go to…The guy that shot me was on trial…I met the ADA, Casey Novak. She caught my eye once I glanced at her. Something in me snapped. I wanted to prove to her that I am still this great ADA...I wanted to impress her, but instead I ended up making her feel uncomfortable and less than...that wasn't my intention. See, I had to be professional that day because if I wasn't…I think I wouldn't have gone through all this trouble getting her." I told him.

"What do you mean trouble?" He asked.

This is where my story begins.

I came back to SVU a year ago. I was in the WPP (Witness Protection Program) because of a case we were working on.

I know this is where I want to be. I want to show off my new found knowledge and share it with the world…not really…but I love fighting for the good guys. I was actually the only ADA assigned to SVU, but that soon changed as I was assigned to baby sit Casey Novak. At that time, I wasn't up to it. I didn't need to drool on a girl who is probably straight.

I kind of had a crush on her. I would see her everyday and she had this charm to her. It was irreisistable. I became infatuated with her...I fell in love with her...every day she would come into the office and ask me to check paper work for her, I would make it longer and have some small talk with her...and...She is just adorable. Well, all that daydreaming crashed...

I was in my office and I decided that today would be the day that I ask Casey Novak to a dinner. I really cared for her in my own little way and I knew that I just had to at least let it be known that we can start something together. As I was walking towards her office, I hear Olivia and Casey laughing and giggling. I didn't think nothing of it. Two friends catching up or laughing off a case.

I come closer to the door and I heard it...clear as a bell...words that ripped my heart out. "Olivia, I love you." One thing that was in my mind was...I was right she is gay and Damn it. It crushed me...to see her with Olivia. Olivia will hurt her, like she hurt me and that isn't...I wish I was straight forward early on.

That is not where my story truly starts. It starts here at my office.

My phone rings and I quickly pick it up. I have mountain top of paper work and I need to finish it before McCoy asks for it. He is always complaining that I don't turn in my paper work on time. I don't have time because I have doubled the paper work.

"ADA Alexandra Cabot, How may I help you?" I ask as giddy as I can.

"Hey, Alex, I am just wondering if you can come over. I really need to talk to someone…and well, I…" I can't believe Casey called me...This is a once in a life time opportunity.

I place my pen down, "I'm actually off right now. I can pass by right now. One question." I don't have her address.

"What's the question? And if it's something like…"

"I meant where is your house, I never been there." I tell her before she jumps to conclusions.

I write it down and finish the work I was doing and head to her house. I really don't know why I agreed to this...I know, its because I have a huge crush on a taken ADA.

Yesterday I was going into her office hoping that I could talk to her and she is there with Olivia...I decide to play with them a little bit. She has this cute face when I pretend to hit on Olivia.

I knock on her door and all I want to do is hug her. I stretch out my arms and she hugs me. She smells so good and she looks so cute.

She led me to her couch and went to go get water. I think I had this look on my face. She quickly sits next to me.

"I am sorry. I want to talk about my love life." Damn it...I am not supposed to know that she and Olivia are together...Play it cool...

"I am a lesbian. I don't think I can be much help to you."

What? I could be help to you...what is wrong with me...

I notice she is staring at my boobs. She turns flush red. I didn't mean to make her embarrassed.

"Sorry,"

"It's ok I am all ears." I tell her smiling.

"I'm not going to place names so bare with me. Ok. I am going out with this guy for about 5 years and he was taking me home yesterday."

What? She has been with Olivia for 5 years? Now I know my chances are blown. I nod for her to go on.

She is choosing her words carefully. "He asks me 'am I jealous' I ask of what? And he replies 'of a woman at his job' I don't have an answer to that and he suddenly changes his posture. The big dinner we had planned was just him going to sleep." She looks awfully hurt by this. That is a typical Olivia move.

"Why didn't you answer him? Why do you think he got mad or distant all of a sudden?" I ask curiously.

"I found a wedding ring in his…Pocket of his pants..." She hesitated. That means Olivia was going to tie the knot.

"Awww. He was going to propose?" I reply back surprised.

I reach out my hand and touch her knee. She is so warm and her body tenses up. I smile at her. Maybe I should give up this charade.

"So let me get this straight. Is this 'guy' named Olivia Benson…" She looks like she is hyperventilating. I move my hand to her back. "Whoa…Are you ok? You don't look so good" I chuckle to myself.

"How did you know?" she gasps.

I chuckle to myself, "it doesn't take a genius to put that together. I knew you were a lesbian, and well I never seen, not one guy, come into your office. If a relationship carried on for 5 years, I would think he cared about you that much to come at least once. Not to mention Olivia come to your office way more than she needed to. Oh," I start to snicker, "and Olivia is dressed for a date and comes to you for a testimony." I shake my head and remove my hand from her back.

She starts to giggle a little too which is so hot. "I am sorry to ask this, but if you knew Olivia was my girl, why are you always hitting on her?"

Great question. A laughing fit came upon me and as I was trying to catch my breath...the truth came out, "I loved your reaction to it. It was cute. I mean really cute. You would scrunch your face and Olivia would just be telling you to calm down. Yesterday had to be the cutest face you made." Did I just say that?

She leans on the chair and shuts her eyes, "So, I'm cute when I'm mad?" She asks.

I get closer, "Yes. Want to know something even better, Novak?"

"What?" She asks with her eyes still shut.

I get close to her ears and whisper, "I have a crush on you." I really don't know why I am being this open.

She opens her bright green eyes and turns towards me, "Really? Why didn't you tell me?"

I was stupid and I didn't think anything of it. Moreover, Olivia is in the way. "I think you know." I answer.

Suddenly this feeling comes over me and I straddle myself on her lap.