Title: I Wish (I Know)
Author: Digimon Empress Yaten (de yaten)
Notes: Written for kh_drabble. A 'backstory' for Demyx's Other, I suppose.
Disclaimer: I don't own Kingdom Hearts or its characters. I don't claim to own them.
Myde knew a lot about regret - what if's, I wish's, and if only's were a common thread throughout his life; a chain link of constant looking-back that brought him further (and yet nowhere) in the world.
What if he hadn't gone to the Splash Islands for vacation that year? The snow-capped mountains seemed like such a good spot, clear-skies and clearer snow, and now –
He wished he hadn't listened to his friends, fakin' baked teens with toothpick legs that complained: how can we show off our new tans in winter gear? Besides, we never ever go to the beach and –
If only he had heeded his sister's warning about the hurricanes on their way to the tropical paradise, though the storm that greeted the sun-soaked teens was nothing natural and nothing less than Darkness itself.
(So, Liam said, Hey what is -)
(and like, Rue said I don't know, but -)
(and Myde totally freaked and yelled Run away!)
-
Demyx couldn't feel regret, but he remembered it well - remembered the late night what if's and coin-flipping wishing wells and half-sighed if only's. He knew that he should be feeling it every time he came closer to death - or non-existence, nothingness, whatever-the-Superior-wanted-them-to-call-disappearing.
What if he hadn't thought it would be funny to hide Luxord's favorite pack of playing cards? Luxord wouldn't have complained, and the Superior would have no reason to punish him and now –
He wished that he didn't have so much faith in Roxas, so much hope that the former-Nobody (now in Somebody) would be able to stick up for him even inside the glass cage of a heart, and –
If only he listened to that yellow-eyed boy ghost inside his chest screaming for him to run-run-run away from this boy, this not-Roxas with a heart who can feel pity, but doesn't.
(Sora jumped and cheered, We did it!)
(and what was left of little-Myde sighed, I wish - )
(Demyx faded with a non-hearted I know.)