A/N: Hey everyone! This is my first fanfic so please review, good or bad. I ship Spencer and Alex and I hope abc keeps Alex around, whether he's with Spencer or not (:
Spencer sat in the Hastings' family room, her mind going back on the time she spent with Alex, and the chances she had to tell him about A.
I miss those brown eyes, how you kiss me at night, I miss the way we sleep...
She thought back on the first time Alex had read her, his deep brown eyes searching hers. "Why are you looking at me like that?" he'd asked. "Like what?" "Like I'd rather be making fruit kabobs than spending time with you?"
A few months back, Alex had planned their do-over date. Nothing fancy, just a simple, calm, picnic in the Rosewood park. And that's what Spencer needed, a break from her 'perfect' life. That day Spencer realized that she needed Alex in her life. With a smile tugging at her lips, she remembered when Alex had called her at one in the morning, as if he knew she was thinking of him at that moment.
Like there's no sunrise, like the taste of your smile, I miss the way we breathe...
They talked for hours that night as if there was no sunrise, feeling each other's smile from the other line.
But I never told you, what I should have said,
No I never told you, I just held it in,
And now I miss everything about you,
Cant believe that I still want you,
And after all the things we've been through,
I miss everything about you, without you...
Spencer knew that A would somehow come between her relationship with Alex, she just didn't know how or when. She couldn't tell him about A. not because she didn't want to, but because she didn't want A messing with his life, and she didn't want him to think any less of her if she had to tell him about the whole Wren and Ian incident.
I see your brown eyes, every time I close mine,
You make it hard to see...
She thought to just a few hours ago, when she was resting after field hockey practice. She closed her eyes briefly, and before she could stop herself, her eyes were swelled up in tears. All she could think about was Alex's eyes.
Where I belong to, when I'm not around you,
It's like I'm not with me...
Spencer adored Alex. She adored his calm, carefree personality. His happiness made her happy. He brought out the best in her, who she really was, and who she wanted to be.
But I never told you, what I should have said,
No I never told you, I just held it in...
Spencer never told Alex this, but she was falling in love with him. She didn't want to do anything that would ruin their relationship or scare him away.
And now , I miss everything about you,
Cant believe that I still want you,
And after all the things we've been through,
I miss everything about you, without you ohhh...
She remembered when a storm hit Rosewood on SAT day, and her mother had said that she had confided in Alex when she was going through a rough time in her life. That day Spencer found that Alex was more amazing than she thought he was. Every kiss, every touch, every moment she spent with Alex felt so surreal, and that's what she missed the most.
A/N: Well should I continue? Let me know please(: And thanks so much for clicking :D