Whenever I Say Your Name
Summary: A collection of scenes that eventually make up a story – I hope. Not quite a song fic. Weir-Sheppard pairing (of course)
Spoilers: Everything up to The Storm to be safe.
Disclaimer: Stargate Atlantis and its characters do not belong to me.
Author's Note: Okay…so this is one of those stories that start in the future (present day) and then goes back to give you background. Hope I don't confuse anyone. The song "Whenever I say your name" gave me the inspiration to write this story, so I'm copying the lyrics for you at the end of this chapter.
::::: Present Day: Atlantis :::::
Major John Sheppard comes through the event horizon at a dead run. His steps don't falter or slow down as he continues to run out of the gate room. John doesn't bother to look up at the balcony in front of the command center. He knows Elizabeth isn't there.
Dear God, he says to himself, please don't let me be too late.
Sheppard receives looks of concern as he sprints through the halls of Atlantis. He ignores them all. He reaches the infirmary in record time, but stops short at the door, afraid of what's on the other side. John clutches his P90 to his chest as his heart duels with his inner demons. It doesn't take long for his heart to win out.
John walks into the infirmary, his eyes automatically moving to a woman lying on one of the beds. Elizabeth – his commander, now his wife and his reason for living – lies still on the bed with sheets now stained with blood. He's too late.
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I promise that I'm still writing the next chapter in Moments in Time...but this story was getting in the way, so it had to be written first.
"Whenever I say your name"
Words and Music by Sting
Sung on the "Sacred Love" Album by Sting and Mary J. Blige
Whenever I say your name, whenever I call to mind your face
Whatever bread's in my mouth, whatever the sweetest wine that I taste
Whenever your memory feeds my soul, whatever got broken becomes whole
Whenever I'm filled with doubts that we will be together
Wherever I lay me down, wherever I put my head to sleep
Whenever I hurt and cry, whenever I got to lie awake and weep
Whenever I kneel to pray, whenever I need to find a way I'm calling out your name
Whenever those dark clouds hide the moon
Whenever those dark clouds hide the moon
Whenever this world has gotten so strange
I know that something's gonna change
Something's gonna change
Whenever I say your name, whenever I say your name, I'm already praying, I'm already praying
I'm already filled with a joy that I can't explain
Wherever I lay me down, wherever I rest my weary head to sleep
Whenever I hurt and cry, whenever I got to lie awake and weep
Whenever I'm on the floor
Whatever it was that I believed before
Whenever I say your name, whenever I say it loud, I'm already praying
Whenever this world has got me down, whenever I shed a tear
Whenever the TV makes me mad, whenever I'm paralyzed with fear
Whenever those dark clouds fill the sky, whenever I lose the reason why
Whenever I'm filled with doubt that we will be together
Whenever the sun refuses to shine, whenever the skies are pouring rain
Whatever I lost I thought was mine whenever I close my eyes in pain
Whenever I kneel to pray, whenever I need to find a way I'm calling out your name
Whenever this dark begins to fall
Whenever I'm vulnerable and small
Whenever I feel like I could die
Whenever I'm holding back the tears that I cry, cry
Whenever I say your name, whenever I call to mind your face I'm already praying
Whatever bread's in my mouth, whatever the sweetest wine that I taste
Wherever I lay me down, wherever I rest my weary head to sleep
Whenever I hurt and cry, whenever I'm forced to lie awake and have to weep
Whenever I'm on the floor
Whatever it was that I believed before
Whenever I say your name, whenever I say it loud, I'm already praying
Whenever I say your name,
No matter how long it takes,
One day we'll be together
Whenever I say your name,
Let there be no mistake
That day will last forever