If you havnt read Suicide Notes you should probably do that first.
Disclaimer: I don't own anything!
I stare out the window at the empty fields we're passing by. We're on our way to school. It's my first day back since mid December and I'm a little more than nervous. I'm terrified. Plenty of rumors have gone around by now and I'm anxious about the questions they'll raise.
I look at my sister, Amanda, in the rear view mirror. She smiles trying to show her support. I try to smile back but the smile is only fake. I'm too worried to concentrate on anything else. My eyes stray back to the fields and there they remain until we arrive at the school.
When we arrive Amanda gets out of the car first. I hesitate a moment before joining her on the sidewalk. Mom says a quick goodbye before hurrying off to work. I turn then to look at Amanda for encouragement. She gives me another smile and I wish I could give her one back. Her smile weakens when she realizes that I won't reciprocate it.
"Come on! It won't be that bad. You're making it worse than it really is!" She makes a face to show her distaste for my actions and I can't help but laugh at her. "There ya go!" her smile returns as we walk into the school.
My smile fades away as we continue through the school. Everyone turns and stares as I walk to my first hour class, math. Allie is in this class with me and I hope she talks to me.
Once I get to the classroom I find my new seat and sit. I stare out the window until I hear voices approaching. Looking up I see its Allie and Burke. When they see me their conversation stops. They stare at me and I turn back to the window; Hoping Allie will say something, anything.
She doesn't. She and Burke take their seats and an awkward silence threatens to smother the room. I have a feeling it'll be a long day.
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So by the time lunch comes around over half the school has been told about me being gay. Surprisingly many of them took it well. Only a few started to make fun of me but the others put them in their place.
So far my life is better than before. I've gained some friends and I can almost forget about Allie. I've already replaced Burke with my boyfriend Evan. Life is good.