I am honestly in shock. I have never been more hurt by the death of a fictional character than I was when I finished watching this episode. So I had to deal with it in some way, even though I still don´t think I have accepted it.
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She´d known since she wrote that message, one of them would be hurt. Keeping them away would be the only way she could keep them safe. She hadn´t known who it would be, but as the piercing pain shot down her spine she did. Lydia could barely breathe for a moment, and it felt like everything was spinning. No, it can´t be her, not her. Anyone else. She´d kept believing in her no matter what. So this time Lydia didn´t scream because she was a banshee. She screamed because her best friend, her only friend wasn´t in the world anymore.