Well hello. This is my first fanfic posted here and I am now trying to organize the formarting because I didn't know before it was pointed out to me, which I am grateful for. So to make it easier to read rather than a big mess, I will try to make it easier to read. I hope you'll like the story.

Much love,

Tiche

Chapter 1:

"I'm sorry you can't be here with us, Kaname, but someday you will, not with me, but with her, our baby. I will save you and let you be human." Yuuki said standing in front of the ice coffin with Kaname and her child. The baby was newly born.

A vampire pregnancy is so much different than a human and a pureblood's is even more different. Because of Kaname's ancestor blood and the blood of all those he has consumed, he was the most powerful pureblood and because of Yuuki's blood and heritage, descendant from Kaname, the child needed to nourish way longer, five years, before being born.

"She looks so much you, in every possible way. I am so sorry you can't enjoy her growing, but I have prepared things for you, when you come back to life. I filmed everything, from the whole pregnancy to the birth, even speaking to you know, I'm filming. It's unfair that you have to miss out about everything about her, so I will do this. Because it is the least I can do for you."She couldn't keep her eyes from watching him, and she caressed his face, or the ice over his face as tears began to stream down.

"Yuuki…" A familiar voice said in a husky but gentle voice. She turned around and saw the other man, the other man she had lent her heart to.

"Zero…" she exclaimed and wiped her tears away.

"Yuuki-sama, shall I take the baby?" Ruka asked stepping into the room.

"Please do so. She is sleeping so put her in the crib." Ruka nodded and left the two friends, comrades - no words could explain what their relationship truly was. Zero gave her a quick and tight hug.

"Don't cry you are a mother now. Be the strength of your little girl and…me."

She inhaled his smell and could smell his blood. She was thirsty but she didn't want to bother him anymore, not like the moment she almost lost it and drank his blood without permission, but then later it turned out to be it was the baby who made her crave his blood.

"Please drink if it will help you." He knew her too well and lowered his neck closer to her face.

She didn't hesitate one minute and pierced her fangs into his neck.

"It's been a long time since I felt this…" Zero said and smiled happily. She pulled away and wiped the blood away from her mouth.

"Sorry… I shouldn't have." She said and hurriedly left the room to find the only thing keeping her alive, her baby girl.

Ruka was a bit startled to see her rush into the room with the smell of blood.

"I'm fine, please leave us." Yuuki didn't wish to be rude but the words came out a bit harsher than intended. Ruka nodded and left without saying anything.

"My baby, you, will you ever forgive me for these cruel things I have committed?" She said holding the baby in her arms and rocking her.

"I always imagine us three, your father, me and you in the sun while your father holds you dearly close to himself protecting you. I… miss… him so, so much….." Silent tears began to fall as she hugged her newly born tightly but not suffocating.

She laid the baby next to her on the bed she last shared with Kaname and tried to sleep thinking about him and every memory of their time together. The future she imagined when she learned she was pregnant was still crystal clear in her mind and her heart ached so much knowing it wouldn't come true.

Slowly she drifted away to paradise, her personal paradise where it was only him, her and their little one.

The next morning Zero woke Yuuki up by gently wiping her tears away, which she unknowingly had shed.

"Don't cry anymore. I will take responsibility and protect you." He stared straight into her big brown eyes and stroked her cheeks.

"Zero, I know you love me, I do too but…" She said and turned her face to her baby girl, who still slept soundlessly.

"I know he is your all and I wouldn't have it any other way. Remember what he told us that night. He wanted you and me together so you wouldn't be sad. He is the most selfish man ever."

Both were brought back to that faithful day. "I've always been squinting my eyes at the radiance… That's why I've come to understand…. You two should be together." "I want you two to be together." His lasts words were still clearly stuck in their minds.

"I will love her as if she is mine and I'll never take his place. Yuuki, you need me, I know you do." He said tenderly and kept stroking her cheek.

"I know" Was the only thing she could mutter.

He pulled his hand away and gave her a quick hug before going out of the room.

"Baby, what should I do? Kaname what should I do?" She held back her tears saying his name, trying to convince herself she was okay and strong.

"This is your true wish, Kaname?" She asked herself, feeling heaviness in her heart.

She already knew the answer, it was his wish since he stopped being with them anymore, only leaving his body behind. She knew it too well but she was too reluctant because of the change of his plans. Would he had been doing the same thing, if he knew she was pregnant with his child? There were so many unanswered questions and with no one to answer any of them.

"Kaname…. I…. I will try my best but I can't promise you anything, so please don't expect me to." She said and lifted the baby up and continued. "Because I can never forget you and all your kindness, your smiles belonging only to me and the life we solely created. I won't ever turn my back on those feelings." She smiled at her daughter with the image of her all grown and playing with Kaname on a playground."-because these are my true feelings."

The image of the future she could never have with Kaname didn't feel sad anymore. She knew he would by all the recordings she has filmed somehow experience it and be happy. She knew Kaname too well. And so she lifted and baby up and smiled from the bottom of her heart.

"Thank you Kaname. Thank you for giving me this beautiful child and all your love. I love you." She then left the room with the baby and went out to find Zero because she was slowly moving forward to a better future.