A/N: Here's the warning first guys. This story will contain mentions of child abuse and may be a trigger for some. So if this may bother you, feel free to turn back now.

A/N 2: Hey guys sorry about not updating my other stories lately. I broke a key on my laptop and it's a little hard to type atm. I've got it fixed kinda half ass for now until I can find someone who knows what they're doing and can help me REALLY fix it. This is gonna probably be a two shot but I don't know. This piece is hard to write for me because it hits really really close to home but I'm hoping by writing it i'll be able to kind of work through things. Thanks for all of your support and patience! I love you all for continuing to read what I post.

Jane Rizzoli had known Maura Isles for a number of years. In that number of years, she had never known Maura Isles to make a single mistake, not even a typo. So when Maura had managed accidentally sliced her own hand open with a scalpel Jane knew something must be up.

It was late October, Jane had walked into the morgue to get ask Maura if she wanted to grab a beer and some take out with her since their latest case had closed and they were both off for the weekend. When she had arrived she heard a faint humming and saw Maura staring at the latest body on her table unseeing, a surgical scalpel shaking in her hand. Jane stood stock still, she knew if she were to startle Maura there was a more likely chance of her injuring herself or damaging any potential evidence the body may contain.

The humming got slightly louder and someone started singing. Jane realized the lab tech packing up his things a few feet from Maura was singing, "you are my sunshine". Jane continued to watch as Maura's shaking got worse and contemplated whether she should actually step in. She ran as she watched Maura slice open the back of her own hand without even a flinch as her hand shook violently.

Jane was almost immediately at Maura's side inspecting her injured hand and taking the scalpel carefully from her other. Maura was temporarily startled but relaxed slightly when she realized it was Jane.

Close up the detective could clearly see the doctors tear stained face. . On closer inspection, Jane could see dark circles under the doctor's eyes expertly hidden by make up that was now running.

Jane turned Maura slowly around being careful of her injured hand. She placed the scalpel back on the tray, carefully took the glove off of Maura's left hand and examined the fresh wound. Maura leaned heavily against Jane.

"not deep." Maura said, her voice no more than a whisper. "simple bandage, some… top draw..desk."

Jane held on to Maura tightly as she walked Maura to her desk and sat her down gently, retrieving the necessary supplies to clean and dress Maura's wound. Jane was tempted to ask Maura why this had happened but knew the doctor well enough to know that Maura would need a little time. If she wanted to open up she would.

Maura sniffled as she tried to recompose herself. Jane finished dressing Maura's hand when she stopped to look the doctor in the eye for the first time since she got to the morgue.

"Hey."

Maura sniffled.

"Stay with me tonight?" Jane spoke.

It was in the form of a question but it was clear Jane was not about to take no for an answer.

Maura nodded, she still did not seem quite ready for more conversation. Jane helped Maura out of her chair, wrapping the doctor's coat securely around her shoulders, grabbing her purse, and walking her to the car. Jane opened the car door and eased Maura into the car as if she were made of glass. Jane had seen Maura pretty shaken up in the past but never anything like this. The doctor sat in her seat quietly playing with the hem of her skirt with her uninjured hand. She just stared at her the floor not even attempting to look at her best friend.

Jane was so past worried she might have hit Japan but she knew not to push Maura. As hard as it was not to just take Maura in her arms, hold her and demand to know what happened she knew that getting Maura somewhere more private and comfortable was the first step to getting the doctor to open up.

The drive to Jane's apartment was relatively quiet. Occasionally Maura would mutter something almost too quietly for Jane to hear. She caught bits and pieces like "supposed …mother… could she… so stupid.. can't …never…safe…" When Jane pulled in front of her building and parked the car Maura barely seemed to notice, she was still lost in thought. Jane exited the car and opened Maura's door to gently help the doctor out of the car and lead her up the stairs.

A few minutes later Jane had maneuvered Maura up the stairs, into the apartment and onto the couch. Jane crouched down next to her friend and tapped her on the shoulder. Maura turned to look in Jane's direction, still unable to meet her eyes Maura's gaze seemed to land somewhere around Jane's bend knees.

Jane's hand moved to place a comforting hand on the ME's arm.

"I'm just gonna take Jo for a quick walk okay? When I get back you can tell me if you'd like to eat or try to get some rest… or ya know talk about anything okay?"

Maura nodded weakly. She barely seemed to register anything. The usually observant and alert doctor was as far from her usual self as Jane had ever seen. She was could feel her anxiety growing by the minute. Jo's walk was probably much too short for the terrier mix's liking but Jane was much too worried about her best friend to leave her alone for any length of time.

As Jane reentered her apartment, she closed the door quietly behind her. Maura was now on one end of the couch her arms wrapped tightly around her knees, a fresh batch of tears streaming down her face. Jane touched Maura's shoulder lightly attempting to catch the doctor's attention. Maura jumped shrieking and almost falling off the couch. When she saw it was Jane Maura calmed slightly, Jane took her hand sat next to her taking the smaller woman into her arms. Maura was shaking; her whole body shook in Jane's arms like a small child who'd just witnessed a horrific accident.

Jane attempted to calm her best friend down. Her arms tightly wrapped around Maura, she whispered in her ear and gently kissed the crown of her hair.

"It's gonna be okay. I don't know what has you so upset but whatever it is I'm here and we're in this together okay?" She waited for a response.

A small sniffle was the only response Jane seemed to get.

She tried again. "Would you like to talk about it?"

Maura shook her head almost violently against Jane.

"Shhh shh it's okay. We don't have to talk now we can talk whenever you're ready. Would you like to lie down? This couch is not the most comfortable thing and you look like you could use some rest."

Maura nodded slightly.

Jane stood up, she picked Maura up bodily, one arm under the doctors knees the other supporting the doctors back. Maura rested her head comfortably in Jane's neck and held onto her as if Jane was her lifeline with her one good hand. Jane deposited the shaken doctor on the bed as she got her something more comfortable to sleep in. Jane set the clothes down on the bed next to her as she searched for something to wear herself. Maura sat stone still, her hands in her lap eyes glued to the floor. By the time Jane had dressed Maura had yet to move. She crouched down in front of the quiet woman.

"Maura, is it okay if I help you get changed? I'm pretty sure you don't want to sleep in what you are wearing."

Maura nodded weakly.

Jane helped Maura undress slowly, making sure to keep the doctors modesty intact. Jane finished dressing Maura and getting the doctor settled in before she climbed in the other side. Maura opened her mouth as if to say something. Jane watched as a myriad of emotions crossed the doctor's face.

"It's okay Maura ask or say whatever it is… seriously… please?"

Her voice barely above a whisper cracked.

"h-hold me?...please?"

"Of course."

Jane scooted closer to Maura it broke her heart to see her friend so vulnerable and broken; she wrapped her arms around Maura in an attempt from letting the woman she loved shatter completely.