I find every speck of darkness, even though it's shining bright.
That's the problem maybe it's because my half is shrouded by a greater shadow of me.
I just want to be an equal; I want my light side to be as strong as my dark half.
The thing is…it will never happen.
I am different within. My darkness is what makes me myself. I am a greater evil. I don't want to be this. I can't change what I was born to be.
I curled up on the hard, wooden bench I had placed myself upon. My bangs covered my eyes. I always had peace; no one talked to me…no one had talked to me after the incident. I always feel lonely but maybe it's for the better.
I snapped out of my mind when I heard a racket coming from a group, who were gathered round what looked like a new kid. Great.
…
The screams of all the figures standing around me was annoying but I couldn't get out of the circle they had created.
"Hey what's your name little guy?" Someone had shouted
I didn't have time to answer as many other questions were fired at me.
"Ummmm...Errrrrr ahhhhh" I scanned round they group, no one had noticed that they were scaring me…well that's not a surprise.
"RIGHT THAT'S IT, LEAVE THE POOR GUY ALONE" I heard a feminine voice shout above the crowd, but as soon as she had done, the group had disbanded.
I turned to face the girl. She wasn't alone though. There was tall guy with dark blue hair, which was tied into a high pony tail. To me he looked like a girl but …no boobs.
"Hey I am sorry about that, all the students get like that when a new person comes. My name's lenalee by the way what's yours?"
"Ah it's alright, my name's Allen nice to meet you." I smiled.
"Oh by the way this is kanda, he's a bit grumpy so don't talk to him yet anyway. I should take you to the office"
I nodded and followed her. I viewed my surrounding. Everything seemed fine apart from the boy sat on the bench.
"Hey Lena, who is he?" I pointed towards the boy. He looked up. Poor guy, why is he alone?
"Oh he…Allen don't try and talk to him…he is a nasty piece of work now come on." I was about to ask why but she pulled me straight into the office.
…
The new kid…interesting. He looked at me like I was human not like the others. Maybe there's hope. Don't be stupid he has no idea what I have done…once he does…well he won' come near me just like the others. I tucked my chin into my knees. The bell had gone but really there was no point in going. I never ever made it through the door never mind an hour of class. Why bother with life everyone asks. Well I will always think there is a slight bit of hope. Yeah right, I am a demon, there is no hope. I look up into the sky as if it holds the answer I need. Maybe I should go to class to 'investigate' this new kid.
As soon as I opened the door, everything was quiet and every pair of eyes was facing me. It was a bad idea to come.
"Ah decided to join us lavi, just take your seat your in time to meet the new student and for a little game I wanted to play with the whole class."
Great. It is always one of those 'get to know you' games. I regret coming to class now. God help me. I slowly walked to my seat while eying up the new kid. He is a very interesting object…I wonder. No not know don't think about it. I braced myself for the next few moments in hell.
"Right class, we have a new student today, go ahead and introduce yourself." The teacher smiled. It sickened me but how I wish to be smiled at like that.
"Hey I am Allen, 16 years old and I wish I can make lots of friends." Everyone clapped as he sat down…NEXT TO ME!
"Right then lets let Allen get to know us, I'll start, Hi my name is Klaud Nine and I like tennis. Lavi why don't you o next?"
"I would rather not."
"Come on Lavi."
"…fine, my name is Lavi and…
"You're a demon!"
"Heartless!"
"Bastard!"
I sat there, shaking; I wanted to hit someone really badly. They had no idea how I felt. They are the heartless. Wait. Remember they are telling the 't they?
I slowly stood up. My anger rose. The class suddenly stunned into silence.
"How do you know what I am, how do you know how I feel? You are the heartless bastards here, all of you even you!" I screamed. I pushed my way past Allen. I didn't care anymore. I slammed the classroom door. At that moment I hid all my light inside.