I Gotta Go My Own Way
I Gotta Go My Own Way
Disclaimer: I don't own this song. It Is from High School Musical, sung by Troy and Gabriella who are played by Zac Efron and Vanessa Hudgens. I don't own James or Lily either.
Author's Note: Just so you know, I don't actually like (well, it's ok) HSM I just thought this song was fitting for this story. Also this song is sung by two people so I tried to not put their lines together as to not confuse anyone. If anyone wants to see the lyrics again and who sang them (i.e. Troy or Gabriella) and the scene from the movie, go to: /lyrics/h/highschoolmusical2/gottagomyownway.html
Dedication: I dedicate this to Suzanna and perhaps Fiona. You're all studs! And We're All in This Together!
Troy,
"James"
I gotta say what's on my mind
Something about us
doesn't seem right these days
Life keeps gettin in the way
Whenever we try, somehow the plan
Is always rearranged
Lily looked up at James, her eyes brimming with tears.
"I'm so sorry."
It's so hard to say
But I've gotta do what's best for me
You'll be ok...
I've got to move on and be who I am
I just don't belong here
I hope you understand
"I can't do it anymore." Lily looked away. "I just, I just can't handle it"
We might find our place in this
World someday
But at least for now
I gotta go my own way
"I don't understand. What do you mean?" James said incredulously.
Don't wanna leave it all behind
But I get my hopes up
And I watch them fall everytime
Another colour turns to grey
And it's just too hard to watch it all
Slowly fade away
"That's the point, James. You never understand".
I'm leaving today 'cause I
Gotta do what's best for me
You'll be ok...
I've got to move on and be who I am
I just don't belong here
I hope you understand
"It's not working. I just can't…"
We might find our place in this
World someday
But at least for now
I gotta go my own way
"It would never work. There's just so many…" Lily sighed, "Goodbye, James."
What about us?
What about everything we've been through?
"Wait…You can't just go like this, Lily"
What about trust?
Lily kept her eyes on the ground. "I'm sorry"
You know I never wanted to hurt you
"I don't want to hurt you"
What about me?
"I just… there's more to it than you know, James. And more that I'll never be able to tell you."
What am I supposed to do?
"Why not? That's what I'm meant to be here for."
I gotta leave but I'll miss you
James reached out to stroke Lily's cheek.
I'll miss you
Lily flinched. "I can't, James, I just can't."
So
I've got to move on and be who I am
Lily turned and started towards the door her shoulders shaking slightly.
Why do you have to go?
"Why, Lily. You at least owe me that."
I just don't belong here
I hope you understand
Lily stayed with her back towards James. "Please, just try to understand"
I'm trying to understand
"Understand what exactly?" James said stepping closer to Lily
We might find our place in this
World someday
But at least for now
Lily looked back at him, tears flowing silently down her face.
I want you to stay
Lily laughed without humor. "Trust me, James. It's better this way. You don't want to be with me. There are things you don't know about me, James".
I gotta go my own way
I've got to move on and be who I am
"I don't want you to go. Please, Lily, don't you know I'll always want to be with you."
What about us?
"Not if you knew, James. Not if you knew."
I just don't belong here
"Then tell me. Give me some reason to justify this." James spoke in a whisper, his words desperate.
I hope you understand
"No James. Please, just let it go"
I'm trying to understand
Lily turned back to the door and reached out. Slowly she turned the doorknob.
We might find our place in this
World someday
But at least for now
"No Lily…Please" James spoke normally, but inside his heart was breaking.
The door shut with a bang, as if to represent Lily's actions and intentions.
I gotta go my own way
Whenever he was with Lily he could always picture him and her, in 5, maybe 10 years with little James and Lily's running around. Some with dark messy hair, others with light fiery hair. He saw through that window once again and suddenly, abruptly it slammed shut, on his fingers as he had peered into it for a closer look, leaving him with a stabbing pain that would never fade. She was gone, their future vanishing and he closed his heart on the world.
I gotta go my own way
James sank to the cold, hard ground and, for the first time in his life, truly cried, his sobs echoing around the room, past the window and carried out, along the sweeping, desolate plains.
I gotta go my own way
Hope you like it. Don't hate Lily, she has her reasons.
So far this is a one-shot but I could continue it so if you want me to- motivate, inspire me! In other words, review even if just to say you hate it. I'd love to know people are actually reading my story.
Also I know their isn't much text but I tried to give it that effect, after all, it's a break-up, it's not meant to be happy, despite the context I got this song from(i.e. all singing)
Thanks for getting this far! Once again Please review and also thats to Izzy for helping me out. She's awesome, check out her stories. xxiggi44
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