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Chapter 1- Goodbye always leaves a place for hello

I had to say goodbye to him and now my entire body hurts! Now that I think about that moment an hour ago I know I should have fought harder for our love, but if Aslan tells you go than you go without a contradiction. Maybe if I had fought harder I would have been in his arms now. I will never know how my life would have been if I would have stayed in Narnia, because I came back to England with my brothers and sister. We just arrived home from the train station and I said mom that I wasn't feeling all that well and that is why I want nothing more than to be left alone with my thoughts. I was laying on my bed when I heard a silent knock on the door. It might be Lucy coming to check on me so I decided to let her in. It was very polite of her to knock rather than burst in like Edmund would do, even though I share my room with Lucy.

"Yes, you can come in!" As expected Lucy walked slowly to my bed and sat on the edge pulling my hand into hers.

"You loved him didn't you." It wasn't a question it was just a random statement and unfortunately for me it was also true, as she saw that I wasn't going to give her an answer she continued. "You have to have faith in Aslan and in Narnia! We will all return someday, I am sure of it!"

I truly admired her enthusiasm and faith in the deep Magic. "I am not sure, Lu, he said that Peter and I are never to return to Narnia. And never sounds to me like a very long time!"

Lucy: "Oh, don't be like that! You know in a stormy winter night that looked as if the sun would never rise again, a very wise person told me that hope springs eternal, so I do believe that we will return and so should you! Caspian won't forget you that easily!"

I turned to look her in the eye and what I saw there made me change my mind. Her eyes held not the sheer hope that her words expressed, but a true warrior like determination of seeing Narnia again. "Maybe you are right, there is always the slightest ray of hope! I can't promise that I will ever get over Caspian, but I can promise not to completely give up hope! Thank you, Lucy! You know I sometimes tend to forget that you were once an adult and that you are smarter than you look." To my last sentence we both started laughing and I hugged her tightly as if I was holding myself for dear life.

Just then the door of our chamber opened and our mother came inside beaming with pure joy. In her hand she held a nicely written letter. My heart started beating faster than ever, because the only letters that we got these days were the ones from dad and the ones from the military, but since dad's writing would never be that nice, it meant that it must have been from the military and this combined with mum's joy could mean that our father was coming home safely from this dreadful war.

Mother: "Susan, I bear great news for you and your older brother! Guess from whom I just received a letter?"

Me: "From whom, I don't know, is it dad or the military?" Even though I asked I was almost sure that it wasn't from either of them, because than it would have been a great news for the whole family and not only for me and Peter.

Mother: "Oh, you are no fun at all!" Lucy tried to hide her laughter by pretending to be coughing and I elbowed her between the ribs, but careful enough not to hurt her too much. Mother went on undisturbed by our childish games. "I just received an invitation for you and Peter to go to Ms. Wittery's tea party. I am so happy that you got invited! We will have to cut our expenses a bit shorter in order for us to buy you a proper dress and Peter a proper smoking." Oh no, not a party again!

Me: "But Mother, with all due respect I do not want to go to her party, because all the men there will flock themselves around me like they would do to a very tasty looking prey!"

Peter: "And besides we can't cut our expenses even shorter, because that would mean to starve." I jumped a bit at the sound of Peter's voice, who was now standing in the door beside Edmund.

Mother: "Fine you are right Peter, but I could still take one of your older dresses, Susan and modernize it a bit and I think that I could do something to your smoking too, Peter. Attendance to this party is mandatory! Susan you have to try and get one of the richer man at the party to like you, so that our problems could be temporarily solved."

Two days later I was once again in my room with mother doing my hair and putting the little make-up that we had on my face. I hated make-up! One further thing that I liked about Narnia was that even though I was a queen I could be natural and make-up free. Mother was always under the impression that my natural beauty wasn't enough and that my pale face needed a bit of rouge. Lucy came inside the lighted room and when she saw me her content face change to a pitiful one. She knew best how much I dreaded make-up, but she also knew that I would never tell my mother this.

Lucy: "Peter is ready and waiting downstairs for you."

Mother: "Oh, good! I am also done here and we can go down now." I stood up from my chair and followed Lucy and mother downstairs were Peter and Edmund were already waiting for us. Peter held my coat out for me to put it on.

Peter: "Now we are finally ready to go and on time! Goodbye, mother and we will be back in a couple of hours, so it is no need for you to wait up for us."

Me: "Yes, we will be just fine! Goodbye, everyone!" After we all kissed and hugged goodbye, Peter and I got inside the car, but mother leaned inside looking at me very serious.

Mother: "Please, Susan be sociable with the men there. You never know maybe you will find you rich Prince Charming." I just nodded unable to speak.

Peter was driving out of London when he first started talking to me.

Peter: "Susan, you do not need to worry. It is my job to chase every man who comes too near to you. I will be by your side the whole time!"

Me: "Thank you, Peter! I know you kind of miss having to chase suitors away from me."

I smiled, but inside of me I could feel the longing to be in Narnia and to be with Caspian now stronger than the last days. It was an almost physical pain! Peter laughed and looked in my direction for one minute, but it was enough to see a bright light coming from the opposite direction.

Me: "Peter, pay attention!"

I screamed, but it was too late! I could hear the metal crunching on the side of the car and just then I felt the impact. We were thrown from the road spinning and I could feel a sharp pain in my leg. This was it! The end! No Narnia, no Caspian, just me and Peter, the ones who will never return to Narnia. I took a short look in the direction where Peter was sitting beside me and I could see that his eyes were already closed. I freed my right hand and took his left hand into mine. Now I was ready to die! I slowly closed my eyes and I could feel myself being pulled to somewhere else. My only hope was that Peter, Lucy, Edmund, Mother and Father will be safe. As Lucy told me hope springs eternal and now I was full of hope for all of them!

To be continued! I hope you liked it and if you did do not forget to leave a like or a comment! I am very grateful to you all! Enjoy! J.