A/N: Welcome to Chapter 1 of Smile.
Disclaimer: I own nothing. Mature Rating.
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Rachel Berry was stunned. She felt stupid. She thought they were somewhat real even though they only lasted a week. She saw a different side to him that he kept hidden. In the end he was in love with someone else. Why can't she for once be someone's one and only. Why can't she find someone who would be proud to be with her? Why can't she forget...Noah Puckerman.
Yes, if you had told Rachel she would've dated one of her high school tormentors, Rachel would've laughed. Finn was the one for her. Or was he? She was so confused. The day he was slushied, she thought they had a connection. Then he not only said they were never friends, but finding out he was the father, The Real Father, of Quinn Fabray's baby and not Finn. Of course it would be with Quinn, the so-called Queen of the Celibacy Club. That was a joke. When Puck accepted the break up, he walked away. It hurt her a lot more than she led on.
Now she sat in the Glee choir room waiting for Mr. Shuester to arrive so they can practice for Sectionals. She dreaded seeing Noah, but she will be damned if she let her hurt show. She doesn't need anymore tormenting.
Kurt walked in and sat next to Rachel. Kurt and Rachel tolerated one another, and probably her biggest vocal competition. She just doesn't know if she can fully trust anyone in New directions. The only members who didn't torment her were Matt, Mike, Tina or Arrie. The Unholy Trinity (Quinn, Brittany and Santana) were the popular girls, Kurt she never knew, Mercedes was wishy washy, Finn couldn't make up his mind. And then there was Noah.
Kurt: Rachel Berry what is with the long face? Is Streisand okay?
Rachel: I am just tired and want Glee rehearsal to start already.
Kurt: Rachel you can't fool me. What is up?
Rachel: Kurt please don't take this the wrong way by it is a private matter and no ones business.
Kurt: Okay why are we being serious? Our periods don't come until the end of the month.
Rachel looked up and saw Npah walk into the room. He glanced over at Rachel, gave her a half smile, then sat with Quinn, his baby's mama. Rachel sighed. She couldn't compete. Why wasn't she enough? Even Finn still wanted Quinn.
Kurt watched Puck and Rachel exchanged sad smiles. Kurt never saw the coming. Sure they shared the Jewish connection. And Puck always slushied Rachel, even said she made him want him to light himself on fire. Though Kurt had to admit, it was nice to see a smile on both of their faces. It looked genuine. More so than anything with Finn.
Kurt: Rachel, if you still want him then why did you break up with him.
Rachel: I just didn't see he and I working out. And now look at him, he is with Quinn, or Santana, or some cougar. Why can't for once I can be first choice? I cant always he what I want. I don't need anymore drama. Besides, I doubt he cared. He said we weren't friends.
Kurt: Rachel, I don't say this often. But maybe you are real?
Rachel looked over at Noah who sat with Quinn who covers her baby bump smirking at Rachel. She looked at Rachel mouthing, "I won".
Mr. Shue finally arrived, and clapped to get the New Directions' attention.
WS: Okay guys! Sorry foe being late. We need to work on Sectionals, but does anyone gave anything they want to sing?
Rachel sighed, then raised her hand. " Mr. Shue I have something to sing. Please?
WS: Sure Rachel go for it.
Rachel walked to the front of the room, and glanced at Noah. Rachel felt tears threaten to fall. This break up was harder then she thought it would be. But she is Rachel Barbra Beery, future Broadway star and New York bound. She's fierce and strong. But why did suddenly she feel so small. She nodded at Brad and the band. She really needed to learn the band's name, she thought.
"So small" by Carrie Underwood
(Rachel)
Yeah, yeah
What you got if you ain't got love
The kind that you just want to give away
It's okay to open up
Go ahead and let the light shine through
I know it's hard on a rainy day
You wanna shut the world out and just be left alone
But don't run out on your faith
'Cause sometimes that mountain you've been climbing
Is just a grain of sand
And what you've been out there searching for forever
Is in your hands
And when you figure out love is all that matters after all
It sure makes everything else seem so small
*Rachel despite being a Diva, still felt small all of the time. But, when she was with Noah, he made her smile. She honestly believed someone cared about her. But, were they real or I I because she was Jewish or to make Quinn jealous. Which to be fair she initially wanted to make Finn jealous. That was until she got to know Noah. She glanced at him and he couldn't take his eyes off Rachel. *
It's so easy to get lost inside
A problem that seems so big at the time
It's like a river that's so wide it swallows you whole
While you're sitting around thinking about what you can't change
And worrying about all the wrong things
Time's flying by, moving so fast
You better make it count 'cause you can't get it back
Sometimes that mountain you've been climbing
Is just a grain of sand
And what you've been out there searching for forever
Is in your hands
Oh, and when you figure out love is all that matters after all
It sure makes everything else seem
So small, yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah
Sometimes that mountain you've been climbing
Is just a grain of sand
And what you've been out there searching for forever
Is in your hands
And then you figure out love is all that matters after all
It sure makes everything else
Oh, it sure makes everything else seem
So small
After she were done with the sing,.Rachel grabbed her bag and ran out. She could hear Noah yell, "Rachel! Wait" but no move to follow because Quinn warned him not to go. She was the father of her baby.
Puck sighed. He thought Quinn was it for him, but now he isn't sure. How could he let her slip away without fighting for them, for her.
Rachel, he whispered...
A/N: Well this is beginning. Hope you enjoyed. More Puckleberry to come