This is a songfic based on the Song 'Who needs Love' by Razorlight. I always thought it suited Sirius so well.
Unfortunately I wrote this a few weeks (or perhaps about two months) ago and only discovered it today. I think I could have done an even better job, but I like it, and, as I always think, you can never tell enough about those characters. There are just too many things worth telling.
Please enjoy and review!
The words in italics are the lyrics of the song. I put a horizontal line between the parts because I don't seem to be able to insert paragraphs.
You all know the disclaimer ;)
Oh and yes, important: this is light slash, very Remus-centric, and most of the time he is talking to Moony. Hope it isn't too difficult to make out who is speaking.
Sirius needs Love
Oooh darling who needs love?
Who needs a heaven up above?
Who needs the clouds, in the sky, not I
"Look, Sirius, it's raining!"
"Yeah, I feel it."
"Isn't it wonderful? I've always wanted to go for a walk in the rain."
"No, you know what I had always wanted to do?"
"Hm?"
"Kissing in the rain."
Oooh darling who needs the rain?
Who needs somebody that can feel your pain?
Who needs the disappointment, of a telephone call, not I
No I don't need that at all, not I
"Hey, I thought I'd call you."
"How come you'd get yourself a telephone? … How come you know how to use it?"
"Well I'm standing in some telephone cell in London. And it's raining."
"Padfoot – what happened?"
"I left home."
I'm, tired of love
Yeah, sick of love
I've taken more than enough
"You do not belong here! You give us shame! You dishonour us!"
"Well then, why don't you just let me go?!" he shouted, tears streaming down his face. It was no use holding them back.
"Do it then! Go! We don't wanna see you again! We do not want you here! We do not love you!" she screeched. He just looked at her. From somewhere else, a boy came desperately running towards them.
"Sirius, don't leave!"
"I'm sorry, Reg."
Oooh darling who needs the night?
The sacred hours, the fading light
Who needs the morning, and the joy it brings, not I
I've got my mind on other things, not I
And they rolled over in the dark.
"That was amazing", he whispered.
"Yeah."
Oooh darling who needs joy?
Who needs a perfect girl or boy?
And who needs to draw that person near, not I
Because they always disappear, not I
He had never been able to love anyone. To really love anyone. He hadn't known how you could possibly fall in love. What did it feel like?
"I can't, Sirius. I just can't."
"Why?" That was the only thing he kept asking. Why?
"I'm not worthy of you"
… And now he didn't know how to fall out.
And you know, I'm, tired of love
Yeah
Yeah I'm, sick of love
Yeah
You give me more than enough
"What?"
Another disappointment. Another backlash. He couldn't let this happen.
I'm gone!
He strode over and kissed him. "Never ever will you not be worthy of someone."
Oooh darling who needs love?
Who needs a heaven up above?
Who needs all the arguments, who needs to be right, not I
"And I just can't believe you did that! How could you? We nearly got him killed, and you knew it!"
He just stared at him blankly.
But I just can't give up without a fight, not I
No I just can't give up without a fight, not I
No I just can't give up without a fight, not I
No no no not I
Ooh no no not I
"Don't you think I know it was a mistake?"
He looked back without saying anything, but still looking reproachful.
When he met the amber eyes of his beloved one, he surrendered.
"I'm sorry, Rem. I'm sorry. I'm so sorry. Please –"
"Let's forget about it."
"You see, it's me who doesn't deserve you."
"No, darling, it's none of us. We're both sinners."
Ohh, I'd love to see what you think! Reviews make me happy ;)