WARNING: SPOILER for season 2 finale All Hell Breaks Loose - Part II
Disclaimer: I do not own Supernatural.
A/N: yes, lines from the episodes inspire me to write. This time the quotes are from 2x22 All Hell Breaks Loose. English is not my first language, I apologize for any mistake.
Sam's POV
My Job
Dean: "Don't get mad at me. Don't you do that. I had to. I had to look out for you. That's my job!"
Sam: "And what do you think my job is?"
Dean: "What?"
Sam: "You saved my life, over and over. I mean, you sacrifice everything for me, don't you think I'd do the same thing for you? You're my big brother. There's nothing I wouldn't do for you. I don't care what it takes, I'm gonna get you out of this. I guess I gotta save your ass for a change."
I died.
I died. I need to repeat it 'cause I don't remember dying. I remember I saw you and I was relieved and then that sharp pain in my back. Next thing I know I woke up and you hugged me as if your life depended on it. There was no sign of injury, as if many days had passed. Was I out that long, Dean? How could you heal me? You said you couldn't, but Bobby could. I wanted to believe you, I really wanted.
You acted weird, you didn't want to fight, you looked nervous and scared. You stared at me and I was wondering why. I knew you had probably gone mad when I disappeared but still I couldn't stop thinking about that hug. I can't even recall the last time you hugged me that way, Dean. It made me happy as I had fought so hard always hoping you would find me and feeling guilty 'cause you always have to save my ass. But it also scared me. The look in your eyes… you were hurt, it seemed you had gone through hell, Dean. I didn't imagine that there is exactly where you're going now. And it's my fault. Damn, Dean! It's all my fault! You're going to hell for me! To hell! It's not fair! You're going to hell just because I can't take care of myself, because I always have to show mercy! If only I had killed Jake right then when I had the chance… but it's too late now.
But I killed him. I did. I had to. I felt more than knew the truth. Bobby's face, Dean. Jake's face. When they saw me, it was as if they had seen a ghost. Or worse. A dead man walking.
You should have let me die. You once said "what's dead should stay dead". How is this different when it comes to me? I know what you would say. I can almost hear you. It's your job. Watch out for me. Take care of me. It's always been your job. But what do you think my job is? Uh? I asked you. And you didn't have an answer. I can't believe you really think you're alone, Dean. You're not alone! I'm here for you! I would do anything for you! Anything. I would die for you. I had already told you that, but you've never believed me, have you? Dean, you're my brother, you've always been there for me, you're all I have. My family. I tried to tell you, can't you really believe me? Don't you understand I care so much for you? And now I should live thinking you'll die and go to hell to save my stupid damn ass?! I won't. Never. I won't let it happen. I'm gonna get you out of it. Believe me or not, I'm gonna do it. I'll save you. No mercy this time. No mercy. I'll do anything to save you. Anything. I promise.
A/N: Thanks for reading and please review! I might add a second chapter with Dean's POV if you like this one. Constructive criticism is welcome, too. )