Merlins Letter
Do you not understand?! The burdens and words make me feel less and less like a man.
I wake up every morning with tears and my eyes and the feeling of wanting to die.
As tears fill up in my eyes I force myself not to cry.
Because so help me lord you would notice, and I just have enough burdens.
I go into the your room and wake you up with a cheery smiles and fake teasing bluffs.
You joke and I go along but I feel like I am the broken lyrics of a song.
I do chores without a complain, but how long canal of this be contained.
I save Camelot everyday, making me constantly tired and afraid.
Afraid of everything, and losing anything.
I come back to your chambers only to be ridiculed of my poor quality, but know what! I am doing all the labor.
But then you say something that fills my heart with pride and I realize I will protect you until the day I die.
I go to bed with the tears leaking out of my eyes knowing that they have an entire night to dry.
I will always protect you always but I shall forever be alone, because I can't afford to lose anyone more. I fear that one day I won't be at your door in time. I fear that you will die. And man I can't afford any more tears to cry.
I have tons of enemies that won't get the message unless I do something drastic. So then maybe the Druids can forgive you at my casket.
I just can't watch you die.
Brother you mean everything, so that is why I have to say...
... Goodbye.
-Love your Protecter and Brother Merlin
Ask Gaius and also don't waste my sacrifice
Love you and Goodbye
Arthur's Pov
As I read this letter the world stops. Dear lord he didn't have to leave. Oh God...
... It's all my fault