Missing Him
I can never forget him
though I have never had him
he is my life
my love
my soul
Everyday at school
in class and the locker room
he acts tough
but I know he's not
he's scared
afraid
alone
He needs me I know
but I'm afraid to approach him
would he understand me
could he
should he
I miss him
In gym class he's the last to shower
and after he waits to dress
he wants everyone to leave
but I never do
never could
never would
He holds my heart
though he doesn't know it
I feel his pain
I know what he goes through
we are so alike
though we are different
I'm so rich
he's so poor
lonely childhoods
no one to love us
we need one another
I wanted to talk
to him and alone
but I was cruel before
he pushed me away
I couldn't help him
I miss him so much
Now he's gone
I'll never see him again
it's all my fault
I'm not who I say I am
I am nothing
I'm worth nothing
He's gone forever
forever cold and gone
I loved him
I killed him
it' s my fault I miss him