"... The heart of the woman whom one likes.. how can someone accurately deduce that!"
As I lie on my bed at the middle of the night, my thoughts lingered over and over again to that moment. It was no longer a dream, a wish - it was reality. He really told me he has feelings for me with the Big Ben as our witness. If I could live at that moment forever I would because you were there and you told me the words I've been longing to hear.
My heart starts pounding really fast, I could feel my cheeks burning as my lips starts forming a smile yet before it can be done, another thought came into my mind.
He is still not here.
I sighed as reality came crashing down on me once again.
A few days ago, Sonoko asked me why I haven't replied to you yet. She even threatened me that if I don't say anything you might perceive that as an act of rejection and find someone else. But how can I tell her that I can't yet? Or I won't? Because it wasn't the right way.
I won't tell you my feeling over the phone. It needs to be said directly - like how you did it. But when will I be given the chance to say it Shinichi? When will you return to my side? When will you come back without me worrying that you'll leave again?
Everyone says I'm strong. Strong enough to take down even the most dangerous criminals with my Karate skills. Strong enough to take care of my drunkard father after my mom left us. And strong enough to continue to wait for you without any chance of wavering.
But Shinichi ... I'm also scared.
What if got yourself involved in some nasty case? What if something bad happens to you? What if you met someone along the way and forgot about me?
But most of all... what if you never return?
At daylight, with everyone being there, I can only smile and think positively - that none of those things would ever happen. But when the sun decided to sleep and the moon replaced its place, I can't help but be haunted by those thoughts.
Please hurry back Shinichi.
So I can tell you my feelings.